was about two and a half years old when she had the following
near-death experience as a result of being pushed while
jumping up and down on her bed. The following is her testimony
in her own words:
As I began to fall, time slowed
down to extremes. Everything was moving so slowly, it was
neat. My vision then split, as I was now able to see from
two different points of view. One point of view was from
my eyes, of course. The other point of view, however, was
from about thirty to forty feet up, looking straight down
onto me. It was as if I was in the sky above the house and
the roof of the house was simply not there. I could see
every room and every body in the house.
watched from this newly gained point of view, I saw that
I was still falling off the side of the bed. I saw from
my eye's point of view that I was falling toward a wooden
end table in the corner that was near the head of the bed.
Looking at the table, I saw several items on it: a lamp,
an alarm clock, a couple of paperback books, some wooden
coasters, and a blue swirled glass almost full of tea which
was sitting on the corner of the end table.
Still falling, I
saw that I was going to fall on the glass. Watching and
not being able to do anything about it, I simply looked.
I saw that the glass of tea had some ice cubes in it and
that they were almost completely melted. The glass was about
2/3rds full and had a lot of condensation lingering on the
sides of the glass.
Still falling, I
saw that my face was going to hit the glass. Just as the
rim of the glass touched my skin, I looked into the glass
to see the calm liquid vibrantly shatter and explode into
my eyes as my forehead crushed onto it. From the above point
of view, I saw my body continuing to fall, my head crushed
through the glass and slammed into the corner of the wooden
end table then onto the floor as my body's weight followed
(Deborah continues to fall as
if in slow motion and observes her mother and sisters try
to help her.)
then went totally to the bird's eye view. I just watched.
I remember feeling satisfied and happy, as if I was in a
play or something and performed exactly as I was suppose
to. But then, I felt as if I was not the only one watching.
I felt that I was being watched by tens of thousands of
other people. It felt creepy. Curious as to who was watching
me, I turned around to look. To my surprise I saw nothing
and I mean that also. I saw nothing. There was no stars,
no clouds, no sky, no air even, it was simply an enormously
large and vast void of nothing. I then began to fall into
it, uncontrollably, and at a very fast rate.
a couple of seconds, I could feel a tingling sensation similar
to the sensation of being sprayed with a very fine mist
of cold water while trying to sun bath on a really hot day.
It felt rather good actually, even though it only lasted
for a couple of seconds.
falling, I became curious about my body, so I looked down
to see it. I did not see a body - not one of flesh and blood
anyways. But instead, my body was made up of a bluish green
colored aura of light - more green than blue. But even though
it was light, it did not seem to have a source, it was simply
a glow of light. I felt very familiar with it, as I remembered
that it was normal, and paid it no more attention.
seconds later I was still falling. Everything became so
clear and I was able to see for miles on end, even though
there was nothing to look at. It seemed as if I was previously
falling through fog and just didn't realize it. Now I was
through it. The sight of the vastness of the void was breathtaking.
several minutes, I saw in the far distance ahead of me what
appeared to be a very thin line that stretched horizontally
at eye level. I was falling straight toward it. Looking
at it, it stretched outward on both sides for what seemed
like forever in distance. The closer I fell toward it, the
bigger it got, slowly stretching vertically, getting taller
and taller by the second. The closer I fell toward it, the
brighter it got also.
It was pure white.
It almost hurt to look at it. Falling and getting really
close to it, I could begin to hear the sound of electricity
as it began to hum. It sounded like a million locus's chirping
their annoying fluctuating noise that they make. After a
few seconds, as I was getting extremely close to it, the
sounds were deafening. It sounded so awful, so loud. Looking
at this great white wall of light, I couldn't help but wonder
what was going to happen as soon as I hit it.
The light was so
thick and bold that the wall appeared to be solid. My rate
of decent never slowed. I was still falling as fast as ever.
However, as soon as I did collide into it, the light simply
shut off and the sound was instantly gone. The wall of light
was only as thin as light itself.
I continued to fall. After several
minutes, I fell through another wall of white light, then
another. I fell through about eight of them. After falling
through the last one, I fell into what seemed like clouds.
The only light I could see was coming from my own aura.
As I fell into these clouds, my light was restricted and
I could only see the fog like cloud environment around me.
Several seconds later, I fell through the clouds, entering
into a tunnel. I fell about one quarter of the way into
its diameter. I then stopped falling. I simply floated there
inside of this unbelievably large tunnel.
around, I saw that a golden cast of light was coming from
one end of the tunnel which sort of lit things up and highlighted
the edges. Looking at the walls of this tunnel, due to the
golden cast of light, I was able to see that they were made
up of clouds - bubbly cotton ball type clouds.
down the tunnel, in the direction opposite from where the
light was coming from, I saw that the tunnel and everything
that was in side of it simply faded away into the darkness.
Looking at the end where the light was coming from, I saw
that the tunnel was indeed very long, as I was unable to
see the end from this view.
Looking around inside of the
tunnel, I noticed that there were things in it. These things
were various size balls of electric fire. They were magnificent
and their colors looked so lively. The closest that I have
seen that even close to those colors are from the various
colors that can be seen when electricity arcs through tubes
of various gases, yet, it still doesn't even come close.
Each ball of fire burned in its own unique set of colors
and they were of all different sizes. Looking at these balls
of fire, I noticed a very thin, dull, sandy gold string
was attached to it and the other end was attached to another
ball of fire, and so on and so forth. It seemed as if all
of these balls of fire were attached to one another. Looking
at one of these strings, I noticed that it appeared to be
moving. Wanting a better look, I telescopically zoomed in
with my vision (which also felt like a normal and natural
zoomed in, I saw that the string was actually a row of people
and the people were moving. They were not of flesh, of course,
but had bodies of sandy golden dull light. I noticed that
they were coming out of one ball of fire and going into
another. I also noticed that there were larger souls positioned
stationary along their paths. They seemed to be guiding
the people to where they were supposed to go (You go here.
You go there. You go to that one over there, etc..). I noticed
that some would come out of one, loop around, and go right
back into the one they just came out from. I also noticed
that overall, everyone seemed to be generally moving toward
the end of the tunnel where the light was coming from.
looked at the walls of the tunnel again. I was curious,
so I forced myself to move closer to it. The closer I came
to the walls of clouds, the more negative and afraid I felt.
Unable to bare it any longer, I quickly retreated back into
the tunnel, towards its center. The more that I went toward
the center of the tunnel, the more positive, secure and
loved I felt. This relaxed me. As I relaxed, I floated back
to the spot where I originally was at. I then looked at
the end of the tunnel where the light was coming from. I
remember that it felt warm and comforting. This of course
made me curious, so I began zooming in.
zoomed in, I could not believe how long this tunnel actually
was. It was huge. And the amount of balls of fire that were
in it, my goodness, I could not even begin to count. It
had to be in the millions, at least. As I zoomed in, I looked
at these balls of fire and began to realize that they were
life. Each ball of fire represented a totally different
and unimaginable reality. Each one was unique and each one
was so different from the other. I later realized that they
were actually realms of life. Each ball of fire was a different
realm of life which had its own unique reality.
I noticed that the closer I got
to the end of the tunnel, the more bold and powerful the
souls from these realms were becoming, having lived and
experienced so much. I realized also that death was not
a part of life, but rather, life was a small part of death.
I have since then realized too that so many people have
misguided and obscured beliefs about death, which is understandable
I guess, since not many people know what is actually in
death and what death is actually about. They only know life
because they have no memory of anything else (There is a
reason for this also).
as I zoomed in, I finally reached the end. The end of the
tunnel opened up like a flask, as if I was inside of a funnel
coming out of the larger end. The tunnel opened up to a
stoned brick wall. The bricks of this wall were made up
of gold. I saw two very tall and slender doors in the middle,
and stairs that stretched into the tunnel. I noticed that
one of the doors was opened a little and this allowed me
to look in. I was unable to zoom in any further, but was
able to look inside.
I saw light blue fog that looked like a foggy spring morning.
It looked so peaceful and rich. I noticed that the bricks
were made up of transparent gold because I could see through
them. However, I was not able to see beyond the wall. I
noticed that as the light beyond passed through this wall
of transparent golden bricks, that it cast a golden tint
out into the tunnel.
on the steps, I noticed that one of the really big souls
had finished all of their lives and was allowed to go beyond.
As he floated up to the bottom step, he manifested into
flesh and walked up the stairs toward the door. He would
not have been considered to be a human though - not to us
here anyway. As he walked up the stairs, I watched with
such pride and joy for him and he boasted with pride himself.
He did, in fact, accomplish something great and deserved
time, my attention was instantly snapped back to where I
was actually floating and I noticed that two of the larger
guide souls were approaching me. One appeared to be very
happy and the other appeared to be angry, but I felt that
it not anger directed at me. They flew up behind me and
began pushing me. I was unable to resist and they pushed
me into a nearby ball of fire. It was one which I did not
remember seeing earlier. As I entered into it, I could see
sparks of electricity snapping all around me. These sparks
were thicker than I was and it caused me to be a bit scared.
As I was floating
in to it, I noticed that it too had stairs. However, I knew
that these stairs were not meant to be walked on. They were
old, cracked and dusty. As I entered deep into it, everything
became pitch black. Then images began flashing before me.
These images were still images and they were flashing faster
than I could keep up with. It was as if someone had set
a slide projector on super high speed. I did notice that
they were of ordinary things. They were images of things
that most people naturally ignore, such as a broken tree
limb laying next to a certain road in a specific location.
Another one was a glance through some trees and seeing a
valley between mountains. Another one was a pitcher of tea
sitting on a kitchen table. Things like that. The second
to the last picture I saw was of a young female. She was
very young and very pretty. She had black (or real dark)
hair. She was standing on a white porch (or balcony) watching
the sunrise over the city that she lived in. She was holding
my newly born baby. She seemed so sad, so lonely, so depressed
that I was no longer there. I felt as if I was to die before
even knowing that I had a child. I felt for her.
The last image I saw was a castle
that was golden, but dull and lifeless. It simply floated
there in the middle of emptiness and darkness. I remember
feeling pity for it. Then everything began to swirl which
made me dizzy. I was instantly and forcibly slammed back
into my body. I remember feeling sad because I did not want
28 years old now, living near Houston Texas.
"Day by day we are building
for eternity ... Every gentle word, every generous
thought, every unselfish deed will become a pillar
of eternal beauty in the life to come." -
Rebecca Springer, near-death experiencer
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