NDE happened almost 5 years ago. It has taken me this long
to come to grips with it.
daughter, son-in-law, granddaughter and I were involved
in a car accident in May, 1998. After they took my
husband to the hospital, they were still trying to cut me
out of the car with the jaws of life. My son-in-law was
sitting in the driver's seat. I was in the passenger's seat
where I landed from the back seat. For miles, there
were rescue vehicles - police cars, highway patrol, sheriff's
cars, ambulances, fire trucks - the whole works. As
one EMT supported me by keeping me from moving, another
was talking to me and administering oxygen. During
all this noise (and it was horribly noisy) and cold (36
degrees), I slipped out of this world into another.
The place I was in didn't really
have concrete walls, but an area full of very bright light.
It was warm and absolutely quiet. It felt like a giant
warm hug. I felt at total peace. There was no pain from
my injuries in this place. It was the most wonderful
place I have ever been.
knew I was gone, evidently, and he began frantically to
call to me. He called me, "Mom", over and over.
I heard him but I did not want to come back. In part of
my mind, I knew that my husband was paralyzed and that
part of me didn't want to live in that world of grief and
pain. My son-in-law kept calling me and in desperation,
finally addressed me by my full given name instead of "Mom."
It startled me and I came back to the world of the
noise, cold, blinking red and blue lights and the sounds
of the jaws ripping metal off me and glass breaking.
Then I asked the EMT to let me die. He had tears running
down his cheeks. He was about 25 years old. He told me he
most certainly would not let me die.
back and forth several more times and each time, my son-in-law
called me back.
was paralyzed from high chest down, but I recovered from
my injuries after a week in ICU. My granddaughter was
fine (3 yrs. old). My son-in -law was o.k. and my daughter,
who was 3 months pregnant with our second grandchild,
everyone says it was a miracle that any of us survived.
When times get tough, I wish I was back in that place
of peace, warmth and quiet.