wrote this down around three years ago after a business
meeting when the subject came up quite by chance, when I
recalled my NDE which happened in 1964. Although I had frequently
thought about the incident in the intervening years,
I am absolutely positive that nothing has clouded my memory
to obscure the facts.
at Taunton, Somerset, undergoing basic training in the Army.
One of the guys there said he could make anyone faint. Now
I had never fainted in my life before, although obviously
I had seen others faint, and grew curious. Being so young,
I was ready for the experience. I crouched down, breathing
deeply, for 30 seconds. Then I had to take one deep
breath and put my thumb in my mouth while the guy hauled
me up and hugged me tightly from behind as I slipped
effortlessly back to the floor. My eyes opened and I looked
up at my fellows staring down at me, smiling. It was
a novelty. Others tried it. Then, after a space of about
half an hour, someone came into the room and expressed
interest in the exercise but was unsure. I was keen to try
it again and I asked the fellow if we could do it again
to demonstrate it to the newcomer. This time it was very
being propelled across a vast distance. I dare not look
straight ahead, but I remember looking at the wall flashing
past me as I sped along some kind of tunnel.
at the other end of this journey, I felt a most beautifully
reassuring sense of calm. I looked down at myself in
my new form. I had taken on a golden glow. I did not need
to walk. I floated. Everything about me was love, goodness
I felt as if I had been given access to the total knowledge
of the universe. I stared at a huge dark wheel containing
stars and other celestial bodies that slowly revolved. A
deep voice spoke slowly, but I could not make out what
it was saying.
at some kind of entrance. A man stood with authority at
the gate. He had black, tight curls and his face seemed
expected," he said.
did not move. Our conversation was entirely telepathic.
I'm here now," I replied, a little surprised that my lips
did not need to move either.
come in," he said.
turning to the stranger who had accompanied me all the way
here, he asked, "Why did you bring him here? You know
it wasn't the time."
just as surprised," my companion answered.
here, I demand to be admitted." I was quite defiant to the
gate-keeper. "I have arrived and I am not going to
something about asking a higher authority and instructed
us to wait.
left was a warm golden light. My companion, at my right,
pointed ahead and I saw a group of children, absolutely
perfect in appearance, totally absorbed in some kind of
lesson. Their teacher was further to the left, outside
of my line of vision. The young people saw me and quickly
came over and surrounded me. They were utterly delighted
to see me, and I felt overjoyed to meet them.
"You can't stay. You'll have to
can't. I'm dead."
not usual, but we can take you back. Say goodbye to these
and I were devastated at this news. I heard at least one
of them groan.
saw my intense disappointment.
"Don't worry," he reassured me.
"You'll see them all again, soon enough."
turned to me again.
"Now you must promise never to
attempt to come here again. This is very important."
right," I agreed, half-heartedly.
He turned to my companion and
asked him to fetch two people whom I would know. Two elderly
women came. I recognized them as both my grandmothers. They
had died some five or six years previously. My father's
mother looked quiet and solemn. My mother's mother was pleased
to see me but, at the gate-keeper's bidding, was quite
firm in her tone. I had to promise solemnly not to try to
return. I agreed.
I stood in front of the great dark disk again. As the stars
and shapes slowly revolved, a deep voice said slowly, "Your
time has not yet come."
all the wisdom that I had suddenly gained was being forced
out from me. I knew I could not take this knowledge back
with me, but was concerned that I might lose what limited
intelligence I already had before I "died".
once again I was in the long tunnel, feeling the wind against
my cheek as I looked away and saw the long wall rushing
prostrate on the floor. I felt as if I had received an electric
shock and needed to collect my thoughts. Bewildered, I looked
around me. I was back.
I was 17 again with a whole life
ahead of me - a long life it seemed - before I was
due to return to that wonderful place. How would I have
the patience to wait so long. Immediately, a feeling of
acute depression enveloped me. My barrack-room companions
looked down, laughing at me.
half a minute or so to wake up! We thought you'd gone to
up and walked thoughtfully across to my bed and sat quietly
on it for the remainder of that evening, quietly reflecting
on the experience. Echoing in my mind were the faces and
voices of the disappointed young people, the revolving disc
and the Voice: "Your time has not yet come."
years later, my young son and daughter were playing one
evening and it was time for me to put them to bed.
My son turned and looked at me, smiling; my daughter sighed.
In the golden twilight I recognized his look and her
sigh immediately. They were two of the young people I had
seen in my near-death experience.
35 years after the experience in that far-off barrack-room,
I received another reminder. It was 1999 and I was
in the middle of a routine business meeting with a young
woman in my office in London. Although I had never
met her before, it quickly became apparent that she was
quite forthright in her approach with people. Suddenly,
she turned to me and said, "I know this is quite irregular,
but can I ask if you believe in the supernatural?"
that I kept an open mind.
this is a little strange, but I have some psychic abilities,
you see," she continued. "And there's a man - a spirit
- standing beside you, and he's getting very impatient with
me. But he assures me that you'd listen."
got something to tell me?"
she replied. "Your time has not yet come. He says you'd
remember him, and you'd know what it means."
Kevin Williams' comment:
It is clear to me that you saw your future children in heaven
during your NDE.
whose NDE I profile on my website, also saw a future child
of hers in heaven. The "great dark disk" that you mention,
may be the entrance to the tunnel. I have heard of people
seeing the same kind of thing in their NDEs.
"Science cannot solve
the ultimate mystery of nature. And that is because,
in the last analysis, we ourselves are part of nature
and therefore part of the mystery that we are trying
to solve." - Max Planck, one of the founders
of quantum mechanics
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