was in the early morning, I had fallen off the ladder outside
and broke my leg. The doctor in the ER said I would need
surgery to properly set it due to such a severe break. A
specialist was notified. I was prepped and taken to surgery.
I can barely remember getting on the table under the lights
and counting backwards.
I felt a peace unlike
anything I had ever felt before. My heart seemed to be racing.
I was becoming more excited and lighter to the point of
I saw indescribable
beauty. Things looked almost like a soft water color painting,
blending the colors together around the edges. There were
trees, flowers, birds, a stream of water, but unlike anything
I have ever seen on this Earth. It smelled like fresh rain
water and flowers all rolled up in one.
I was surrounded
by a presence, a provider of peace and it seemed to communicate
with me on a higher level of understanding than mere words.
I saw a child before me and I knew he was a child I had
lost so many years before. There were others in this place.
I could smell my grammas scent and in my heart, I could
hear grandpa's deep warm voice. Even though I knew without
a doubt the people I had joined had passed from my life
years before, we were more alive then ever before.
The presence gave
me the understanding of having to return and lifted me to
a place with a hole, a vision, of a room of people gathered
around a table.
As we were hovering
up above them, I could see it was my mortal body they were
working on. I pleaded with the presence not to send me back.
My spirit grieved unlike anything I had ever felt before.
Tears were pouring within my soul. The hole I passed through
was sealed behind me. There was no way back to the water
colored world of peace.
I felt the racing
of my heart, the skipping as it beat, a wave a shock and
a blockage in my throat. My eyes were so heavy and when
they finally opened, I saw people from my present sitting
in chairs around the I.C.U. bed.
within me. It is hard to explain, but it is warm, bubbly
and even giddy at times. It shows me light even in the darkest
of times. A soft water colored rainbow comes into my mind's
eye during the difficulties in my life. I believe this to
be a promise of the presence who rescued me from pain and
It was not until
a couple of days later that the doctor told me I had an
allergic reaction to the meds and it stopped my heart. I
carefully tried to ask about what I had experienced and
was told it was just a result of the medicine.
Is that what it
I know in my very
being, I was in the life hereafter. I am still writing down
things in my journal that I remember as I go along.
Have you ever had
the experience of being there before, even though you know
you have never been there? Have you ever had something,
a smell, a sound, a touch, trigger a memory from the other
Was it the medicine?
Am I crazy like my husband and children think I am? NO.
It was real! I was there. I saw it. I touched it. I smelled
it. I tasted it. I felt it. I heard it. There is a place
beyond the hole.