I had a near-death
experience over 4 years ago. It was in 1999.
It was a couple of days before my 20th birthday.
I took an overdose of barbiturates on a cold
autumn night in April beneath a city building.
After I finished taking
the pills, I went to sleep. I felt this tugging
at me. It was really warm and sensual, like
something touching me very softly and very warm.
I felt this incredible
euphoria. I felt like a feather floating from
place to place.
There was this orange
glow. It was like a sunset but a wide bright
orange sunset and there was this coolness like
a breeze blowing past me.
The next thing I knew,
I was in this tropical paradise and there were
these tourists walking around.
There I was sitting
in this cafe that was shaded with palms and
I felt this cool moist
misty breeze. It was like that misty air you
get when someone is spraying the hose and you
are in the vicinity.
I was talking to this
man who said that it wasn't time for me to go
down to the beach. I wanted to go to the beach
but this man told me that it wasn't the right
time yet. He walked away.
The misty breeze got
a bit cooler and I was swept off my feet.
Next, I am in the
local city hospital, lying there.
The following day,
I started vomiting because they pumped my guts
out to remove the toxins from inside. I felt
weird. Everyone said I had been unconscious
and in a critical condition but everything was
going to be okay.
Well, that day ended
and I was whisked off to the psychiatric unit
I'm wondering if heaven
lies in the oceans.