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Ken Ring's and Peter
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NDE Research of Suicide |
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Dr. Ken
Ring's NDE Research
In his book,
Life at Death,
Dr. Ken Ring analyzed the near-death experiences of 24 people
who attempted suicide. Among them, no one reported the tunnel phenomenon, or saw a
brilliant but comforting light, or encountered a presence, or was temporarily reunited
with loved ones who had died, or entered into a transcendent world of heavenly beauty.
Instead, the suicide-related NDE tended to be truncated, aborted,
and damped
down. It began with a feeling of relief or peace and continued with a sense of bodily
detachment to the same degree as non-suicide-related NDEs. But it
tended
to end, if it got this far at all, with a feeling of confused drifting in a dark or murky
void a sort of twilight zone. Dr. Ring's research strongly
suggests that the suicide-related NDE does not reach completion;
instead, it tends simply to fade out before the transcendent elements characteristic of
non-suicide related NDEs make their appearance. The following is an
excerpt from Ring's research into suicide:
One young man tried to kill himself by taking an assortment of
pills Librium, Demerol, Valium, Dilantin. As a result of this ingestion, he
remained unconscious for four days. He remembers finding himself in a gray
area:
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"The only thing that I can remember about this is just
grayness. Like I was in gray water or something. I couldn't really see anything. I
couldn't see myself there, either. It was just like my mind was there. And no
body."
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While he was in this state, he felt good:
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"Normally, I'm a very anxious, a very nervous person
a lot of fears and things like that. And during this, all the fear was gone. I had
no fear whatsoever. Almost an adventurous feeling. Excitement." |
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| Dr. Ring:
"Did you want to
stay in that condition?" |
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| "Yeah. It was a very good feeling."
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He also was aware of music:
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| Dr. Ring:
"Tell me
what it was like." |
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| "It was usually like classical music; I like classical music.
It wasn't exactly the music I've heard, but it was along that line." |
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| Dr. Ring:
"Do
you recall how the music made you feel?" |
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"It made me relaxed. The fears went
away when I listened to it. Again, the feeling of hope, that there's something better
somewhere else."
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He also reported that everything, including the music, sounded
"hollow and metallic echoey" and that these acoustical sensations were
associated with the watery grayness. He felt the grayness going through him, filling him
and this felt good to him. After a while, he became aware of a voice:
| "I think [it was] a woman's voice, but
(pause)
I didn't recognize the voice."
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| Dr. Ring:
"Do you recall now what she said to you?" |
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"No. I just remember that it was a soothing voice. I kind of remember that with the
grayness her voice kind of calling, my moving toward it."
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| Dr. Ring:
"This was a
friendly voice, a reassuring voice in some way?" |
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| "Yeah."
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| Dr. Ring:
"And you
felt drawn to it?" |
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| "Yeah. Right. Like that was the place to be."
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He tried to get to where the voice was:
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"It seemed like I kept trying to get to where the voice was,
but something was holding me back. I know I wanted to be there; I knew once I was
there everything would be fine. I was sure of this. No question about it. But there was
still like something holding me back from getting there."
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During his experience he had seen images of people he knew. These
people somehow seemed to represent the possibility of a good life; they seemed to care. He
described this as "like playing back a recording of my life." The issue was
joined:
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"It felt like the woman's
[voice] was stronger. I wanted to get
there but there was just some part of me that wanted to
(pause) go back with
these images."
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And resolved:
| "The thing I remember most is a falling feeling. Like I was
coming down really fast and then hit. And then I woke up with a jolt."
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And afterward:
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"When I woke up, the first thing I thought was Oh, God. Thank
you. I made it, and I was extremely happy.
(He had been severely depressed before his
suicide attempt.) I was just sitting there thinking about it and I felt this I
don't know warmth filling my body. I was very happy, very excited, but then
(pause) it was more than contented it was rapture, I guess. But I couldn't
explain it to anybody at the time. It was just beyond words." |
These passages sum up the essential features of his experience. In
the course of his interview, he also indicated that although he never clearly saw his
physical body on the bed, he did have a sense of bodily detachment and felt he had no
weight at all he was just pure mind. Neither did he have any sense of
time. When he momentarily returned to body consciousness (before drifting back into the
grayness), he found the sensory world greatly enhanced the colors were clearer and
more vibrant. The only thing scary about his experience was his fear (which was eventually
vanquished) of returning to his body. His experience in the grayness was
decidedly pleasant and, judging from its immediate aftereffect, very positive and powerful
in its emotional impact.
This particular experience includes many features that are common
with non-suicide-attempt experiences: drifting through a vast space, feeling good, hearing
music and a comforting voice, hearing sounds magnified, seeing a series of flashbacks of
one's life, and so forth.
In Dr. Ring's study, he found that no one who had attempted
suicide reported that it was predominately unpleasant. The only possible exception is that
a few people did describe some unsettling hallucinatory images, but these appear to have
been qualitatively different from the feeling-tone of non-suicidal experiences. Certainly,
no one felt that he was either in or was on his way to hell. This is not to say that
suicide attempts never lead to unpleasant experiences, only that there is no strong
evidence for this proposition among the 24 suicide NDEs
in Dr.
Ring's study.
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Dr. Peter
Fenwick's NDE Research |
In
those organized religions in which hell figures, suicide is a sin and
might well be considered an entrance qualification. And yet none
of the people who wrote to us about a NDE during a
suicide attempt reported a hellish or even an unpleasant
experience. On the contrary, what they experienced seemed to
provide a reason for continuing life. It
seems that the mental state in the NDE bears no resemblance at all to
the person's mental state before the experience. Someone who
attempts suicide might be expected to be in some emotional turmoil at
the time of their experience. In real life, people who are
depressed tend to select only depressive images and memories.
And yet if we look at the experiences described below we can see that
the depressive feelings vanish when they enter the experience; there
is an awareness of peace, of something beautiful; there seems to be a
healing of the broken spirit.
Here Sheila Berry
describes what happened to her fifteen years ago:
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"I
had taken an overdose of aspirin and alcohol and had been pumped out
at the hospital. It was late at night and I was put into a
ward. I don't know whether you would call this a NDE but at the
same time my spirit was so low I felt that I could die if I really
wanted to. It could perhaps be classed as a case of broken
spirit if there is such a thing. |
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"I
was lying in the dark and felt myself drifting. I felt as though
I was in a warm cocoon. I became aware that I was moving down a
dark country lane with high hedges. At the bottom of the lane
there was a cottage with a light in the window. I wanted to
reach the cottage but a voice in my head said that I had to go
back. I can still remember someone taking my hand and I had a
feeling of great peace and a oneness with what I can only describe as
the universe. I can remember returning to the weight of my
body. For some time after this happened I kept hearing the most
wonderful music. I feel since that time that my life has a
spiritual dimension, although I do not practice any established
religion." |
Anne
Thomson attempted suicide in the winter of 1972 when she was very
depressed.
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"I
could cope no longer with three small children and one dreadful
husband (whom I later divorced). I took a massive overdose of
sleeping tablets and was not found for four hours. I was rushed
to the nearest hospital by ambulance from the RAF base in Wales, where
we lived at the time. I very nearly died and was unconscious for
four days. On the fourth day I was slipping away. I had a
cardiac arrest and the doctors and a sister were working on me. |
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"I
left my body. I went up and up very slowly, not looking back at
myself in the bed. The peace was beyond what I can explain; it
was so beautiful, I felt so light in weight and I saw I was going
towards a white light - not the white like this notepaper I write on,
but a spiritual white. I almost reached this light, when
suddenly I was pulling downwards very fast and did not stop till I was
back in my body. I was heavy, everything seemed so dark and then
I came to and slowly came to realize I could not be taken as three
children needed their mother. |
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"I
always did believe in God but only because it was bred into me.
But since that experience I have a lot of faith towards God and
towards life beyond our lives on Earth. I firmly believe he made
me well and helped me through all my time of rearing three children
alone in the years that followed." |
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one of the descriptions of NDEs
which occurred during suicide attempts
had elements that might possibly be construed as hellish. It is
one of the very few in which the feeling is one of descent, into a
pit, rather than upwards, and in which the light seen is red rather
than white or golden. Although there is a presence,
this is not perceived as friendly, but not as hostile either. In
fact, the whole experience has a neutral quality - not hellish, but
not positive either, except for the compassion the returning self feels for her body in the hospital bed.
Here is another NDE resulting from a suicide attempt:
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"In
1963 I nearly died from a suicide attempt. I went down into a
deep pit, slowly, like Alice in Wonderland, as if I were in a lift. |
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"At
the bottom it was light and quite busy and bustling. The other
people were strangers and although they didn't speak and neither did
I, somehow I asked the way and I was told to follow the red light. |
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"I
moved off in that direction. Gradually I found myself in a warm,
dark tunnel, alone apart from a sort of presence - not hostile, not
friendly, just there. |
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"Then
the red light grew dim and began to flicker and I knew I would have to
go back. It was absolutely dark and I was quite alone. |
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"My
body was surrounded by a panicky crowd round the hospital bed.
It seemed silly of the people to be making such a fuss. The body
had been crying in its sleep and I felt a great pity for it
momentarily as I returned. |
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"I
told no one about this as they thought I was a loony anyway, but the
experience has stayed with me all these years and I have tried to make
sense of it. If it is just an innate limbic response, well ...
interesting."
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"Do not seek death. Death will find you. But seek the road which makes death a fulfillment." -
Dag Hammarskjld |
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