This first thought shocked
and puzzled me - to be thinking in the way I would normally
It was literally so
bright that I could not sustain the gaze so I turned away. At
that moment I noticed a
attached around the navel area going down, down, down to a person
I saw lying on my bed. It was me! I had a curious non-interest
Suddenly, I was in dark
outer space, floating as it were on my back, in what I can only
describe as total "bliss" (one of a few words which I'll explain
later I had never understood before that point!)
I'm not sure how long this ecstatic
feeling lasted but it was what I suppose is called Cosmic Consciousness
or cosmic bliss. I knew
that: the Universe is upheld by love (though if you ask me now
I would not be able to explain that!)
that the planets are alive and conscious. I knew that they would
never bump into each other on purpose or cause any damage -
there was no violence but rather a total harmony in their existence.
I then looked down and
could see the Earth - far far away and down in this dark sky.
I knew that it was a place of violence, a realm shrouded in
darkness and difficulties, so to speak.
At one point I saw what I can only
describe as a group of beings - perhaps Beings of Light would
describe them best. I then
over to them - literally willed myself over to them (swoosh!)
and was there instantaneously.
They were seated (?)
in an oval circle and there seemed to be a leader of some sort
at the head of the group.
First of all, I felt
the most overwhelming love coming from them! It cannot be compared
to anything here on Earth. For one, I felt that it was an inclusive
group - rather than an exclusive one. (Here on Earth we seem
to have trouble letting new people into groups but there it
was as if all of them at the same time were welcoming me!)
I heard them - in my
mind - say, "Welcome home! You have been on such a long
I had the feeling that
they were sharing life experiences and learning from each other,
as if in a sort of classroom.
I didn't have time to
find out because at this point I said to the leader, again telepathically,
"I cannot stay! I have to bring up my son!" with a real sense
At the time
my son was 4 years old and I knew somehow that I had
the absolute obligation to bring him up and take
care of him. Years later, when I thought of this, I
understood that we live in a "moral" Universe.
I immediately started
coming down again. And as I was coming down, I saw - as if written
on the entire dark sky - this message: