the inner world, Paul and I were walking
hand in hand towards the Pearly Gates. It
really was the Pearly Gates! I never knew
the Pearly Gates actually existed, but they
did -- at least, in my experience. The
wise guardian of the gate came. He
welcomed us and addressed Paul. This wise being said some
things to Paul such as, 'Off you go.
Go in through the gates.'
"I was about
to follow and he said, 'Stop! You're
not finished yet.'
"I think he told
me some things that I have no way of remembering
what he said. I just remember the feeling
"I underwent a
kind of panic and disorientation because,
at that particular moment, I was quite relieved
to be out of this life business and going
in to the Pearly Gates. That was alright
by me. So I was a bit panicked to be told
it wasn't going to happen. It was as
if this being kind of just fixed me in an
energy field." (I've found I can do this
sometimes. For example, with Tulki, my son,
there are times when Tulki loses it and
I can kind of fix him in an energy field
and he'll immediately just straighten
"Then he fixed
me. He said something like, 'The whole
of your self is going to dissolve,' or words
to that effect, 'and you are going to become
something different.' It wasn't exactly
words, but that's the kind of impression.
"I was calmer,
but still a little bit disoriented. I had
enough of the experience of near-death from
a couple of accidents earlier in life and
I knew that the best thing to do at the
moment was to let go. Let be. And so I did
"Then there was
this beautiful experience. I was standing
there as if this cloud of diamond fog (mist,
diamond mist) kind of separated me from
within myself. My selfhood kind of evaporating
upwards - disappearing upwards into
the Void. It was as if my being was
just being lifted up. My pain and the human
woes were getting lifted up. It was one
of those feelings of 'Aahhhhh! Aahhhhhh!'
(sounding hugely relieved).
"Then there was
a pause. He (the wise guardian) was still
standing in front of me and had me fixed
in an energy pod -- a non-visible energy
pod. Then suddenly it was as if another
person suddenly dropped into me from above.
It just came 'joomph!' into me.
It occupied my body. At that very moment
(this gets confusing now), the old me just
went 'pop!' It kind of popped
out to the side -- back and to the side.
(now this is the interesting bit), it (the
other person) was standing perhaps a yard
behind the body or energy-body that was
me. The remarkable thing was that I was
experiencing this from both places at the
same time. The first experience was the
me that had popped out. The second experience
was the me into which this being had plopped.
I was experiencing it simultaneously. I've
experienced this since then in various ways.
Because I do quite a lot of inner work nowadays,
I experienced this since then. There was
a poignant moment where the being that plopped
out (I can remember the thought going on)
thought, 'Well, what happens now?'
feel as if anything bad was going on. There
was a very matter-of-fact feeling to it;
but, in another way it was like, 'Whoaa!'
It was amazing.
"Then the Pearly Gates
gentleman said something to me to indicate
or instruct me in what I needed to do next.
"Then, I was in
my etheric body and I was still me; but,
I was over there as well. I reached in to
my heart and reached straight in to my heart.
As I did that, it was as if there was a
spark. I can only call it a static, stationary
spark. It was totally of the nature of a
spark but it was not sparking. I hope this
is making sense!
"I reached in
and just took hold of the spark and I pulled
it out of myself. It was almost like it
was the length of my body. It was a very
strange experience because I was totally
willing for this to happen. But it was very
weird, because I was taking my life essence
out. Myself! And the heart was the nexus
of it. I don't know if anything intervened.
I don't think anything came in at that
time, but basically, I took that spark and
I just inserted it and pushed it in to the
note: Jenkins experience
with the "spark" pulled from his "etheric
is a good description of the so-called "silver
The rest of Jenkins'
testimony is a question and answer
session with his hypnotherapist.]
one that popped out?"
Paul Jenkins: "No.
The one that had popped out was the me I've
just been talking about from which I took
the spark. I was putting the spark into
the me that was still there - the me that
had the other being who'd plopped into
"It was a little
bit tricky. It involved some fitting and
I had to do it quite carefully. It was as
if there were thought waves coming from
the Pearly Gates gentleman as well, who
was helping and guiding this, but it was
me doing it. I had to fit this into the
other me. Now at the same time, I was experiencing
this from the other me. And I was experiencing
(This is confusing) both."
"Yes, I was both. I was both doing it and
being done to.
was a point where it just went 'click!'
It clicked in. Suddenly I could feel a slight
bias of consciousness toward the me that
had plopped out at that stage. But suddenly
the consciousness clicked over to the other
one much more, and so I was still conscious
of the me that had popped out, but less
so. It was as if the center of gravity of
consciousness had shifted into the being
out of whom I had popped and into which
this other being had dropped. But the thing
was, this other one who came in was me."
makes sense. That's how I've always
walk-ins - as another aspect of yourself."
"Well, the way I came to understand it a
bit later on, was as if we were brother
souls. Actually, I use that word quite consciously
to put in the masculine. In fact, I had
some imagery (this is digressing a bit)
where it was as if we were brother souls
with a long-term specialist contract. The
contract was that we were like marathon-runners
and handing over the baton whenever necessary."
Jenkins could be describing Paul as his
"I had reached a dead end in my awakening.
I think it was possibly do to the use of
acid and psychedelics in the 60s, but not
in the negative, judgmental way that a lot
of people would think. There was nothing
going wrong; but the problem was, I was
no longer going to be able to integrate
into the modern world properly. I had gone
off too much. I was still sane. But in a
sense, I was in the 14th century or prehistoric
times or somewhere else. I was not going
to be able to integrate again - this was
the insight I got. So I needed to be re-booted
and have some parts replaced.
there was this transfer of this, what I
can only call, life-energy or life-spark.
I was very aware that as soon as it clicked
in, that being into whom it had clicked
(who was me) was suddenly energized. I got
an image here of
Commander Data of Star Trek. There's
a part of me which is a bit like Data in
a way. Sometimes I go into this super-brain
kind of consciousness which is a bit like
Data. I've even got that little turn
of the head sometimes. It was as if the
being that had just received the spark suddenly
just clicked. Also, my consciousness had
shifted over. I was still in two but the
center of gravity had shifted."
there anything else?"
Palden Jenkins: "There was
some sort of interaction between these two
selves. It was as if we were saying, "Hello."
It was a bit like some of the imagery that
comes up in my life is about SAS work (Special
Operations). It was a bit like we had met
in the middle of the wilderness and there
were some messages to get over before we
parted company again. It was one of these
quick five minute intense exchanges where
this essential exchange had to go on with
no niceties and no cups of tea. But it was
through thought. Then there came a point
where that came to a completion.
the viewpoint of the me who had hopped out
and then given its spark away, suddenly
I felt as if the plug was pulled out. I
started evaporating - dematerializing. There
was this slightly tingly diamond evaporation.
It was quite blissful - intensely blissful.
That part of myself was dissolving - dematerializing.
As soon as the spark had been given over
and the essential exchanges had been made,
there was no longer a purpose for that soul
to be a constituted soul. So it just started
evaporating. Now I was watching it from
my other side or self.
was a feeling of an 'out-of-your-body and
kind of sense. Then you come back in and
perhaps you've had a hot drink or perhaps
someone's given you a massage or something
like that and you can feel the life-energy
gradually filling your body. You can feel
the systems coming up again - the warmth
rising. There was an experience like that.
a single being but I've got a new (the
same body) personality with many of the
same brain-thoughts and things like that.
I've got a new (what I can only call)
soul, but that's not an adequate word
for what had popped inside me. It was anchored
by this spark which had activated the system
and reintegrated it into one being. I was
quite also surprised at the comfort of that.
where I think this business of brother souls
comes in. It's as if it was all very
finely pre-calculated so that it would all
exactly work. It was fascinating.
was with this Pearly Gates man, and he was
giving me some quite lengthy instructions
which (you know how it is in dreamtime;
time is a very difficult thing to estimate.)
was probably ten minutes of teachings or
instructions or exchanges. Then it was over.
there was this process starting up where
there was a rumble and a feeling that I
was starting to get heavier. Then there
was this faaalling ... faaalling ... aaaaaaah
... kind of feeling. A feeling of going
into the soup - going down into the thickness.
an element in me of reluctance - but not
exactly. It was the same feeling I had experienced
pre-birth experience as well - a poignant
mixture of reluctance and willingness -
kind of 'job-to-be-done' approach to things.
It was kind of a, 'Right lads, come on.
We've got to get on with it and the
sooner we get this over with the better.'
That kind of approach. I've always been
like that really.
a Virgo - a very
Saturnine Virgo. I've always been
somewhat unwilling to be alive. But I also
know that there is no alternative until
the job's done and that I would regret
it if I did otherwise. It's that kind
of strange poignant mixture. This was the
reincarnation process. It was like going
down into the treacle - into the density.
And that was really the end of the experience.
I've included all the details, at least,
the details that I've uncovered and
I can remember. Actually, I only got this
in the regression I did in 1994, twenty
years after. I put in a lot of effort. I
realized, golly, it's twenty years,
so I decided I'd make an effort to try
and get it."