Reinee Pasarow was as a teenager
when she had a NDE after she became unconscious following
an allergic food reaction. Her NDE is unusual because it
contains mystical elements such as an encounter with and
immersion into the Sacred Light. After
Reinee fell unconscious, her mother's first thought was
to put her in the car and take her to the hospital. But
since she was not breathing, her mother decided to lay her
on the sidewalk and wait for an ambulance to arrive. A crowd
then gathered around her swollen body. Reinee
describes her experience below:
I only became aware
when I heard the very loud sound of the fire engines arriving.
I heard my best friend from elementary school calling to
me. She was calling, "Reinee, don't die, don't die
Reinee". I heard this and it seemed as if it was in
a foreign language to me. I finally computed the meaning
of this and realized that my life was in danger. I had an
obligation to fight for my life because of my mother and
my friend, because she had such terror in her voice that
it cut through to my heart.
I tried to fight
for my life, but the battle became overwhelming. At this
point I just surrendered myself, my soul, to the power that
brings us all into existence and that gives us all life.
I knew that this was the source of all life and the way
of all things. I surrendered to that and I entered a state
Then, just like that
(clapping her hands), I became a ball of light or energy
in the midst of this crowd that was circling a body. I became
massively aware, unlike any awareness I had had during physical
existence. I was not really aware of myself. I was aware
of everyone around me. I was aware of my mother and my neighbors,
and my friends and the firemen and what they were thinking
and what they were feeling and what they were hoping and
what they were praying. This was such a pummeling input
of emotion and information that I was all at once overwhelmed
and confused, and rather disoriented.
I followed their
attention to something on the sidewalk and I looked at a
body on the sidewalk. I looked at the curve of the wrist
bone and I recognized it. I remember looking at it and thinking,
"That looks so much like my wrist bone." And then I became
aware that the thing on the sidewalk, that thing that suddenly
became a piece of meat to me, was what I had identified
as myself before, but had no connection with it other than
that I had been with it for a very long time. But it had
nothing to do with me because suddenly, I was more of a
person than I had ever been before. I was more conscious
than I could ever be. I was free of the limitations of being
a physical being.
I looked at my body
and I was repulsed with the grief and the tumult around
it and with the very idea that I had ever considered something
physical to be my reality, to be a human reality.
And with that (taps
the table) again like this, I was bumped way up, up above
some light wires. From that point I could watch everyone
beneath me, but I was not as closely associated with them,
[but] I was completely feeling everything they were feeling.
I watched my mother
and a boy come out of the house and up the hill which I
could not have seen physically. I was very sad for my mother.
I was very sad for my friend who kept calling me. And I
was very sad for the child who had come out of the house.
I was very sad that he would think I was dead. So my concern
was for them. I spent my time observing them and calling
to them - calling to them that everything was as it should
be, that everything was fine, that I was free, that it was
wonderful, that I loved them and that they loved me and
that the bond, unlike physical bonds, would never be destroyed.
I tried to communicate this to them over and over again
and I realized that I had no mouth. I had no body. They
could not hear what I was saying to them. I would have to
leave them in the same hands I had left myself in the process
of dying. With that I turned away, just sort of like a ball,
just turned away.
My attention turned
away lovingly but knowing that there was nothing I could
do. I turned away from them and began to pull up. I became
aware (it was as if I were a camera on a space ship or something)
of our place, my particular little street and then my particular
little town. I kept pulling up and up and up to a point
where I could observe the whole Earth. This was wonderful!
The Earth was alive
and the Earth was singing. It was singing a single song
and in that song everyone had a voice. Every human being
had a very important note to add to this precious song of
the Earth. It was a song of love and every living being
had something to add to the song of Earth. Every one of
these essences was very much connected. I was seeing it
not like we see normally. I was seeing it both from a macroscopic
(from the point of view of the spaceship) and from a microscopic
vantage point. [It was] microscopic in that I could see
that an amoeba in the ocean was connected to the song of
the heart of all humanity and that this world was responding
to the song in our hearts in a miraculous, unified, and
beautiful way. I too began too sing. I was so overcome with
joy. It wasn't a song obviously with the mouth. I had no
mouth. I had no body. I simply was. I became a part of that
song and very full of joy that I could have something to
contribute to this sacred beauty of our Earth and of all
I became very aware
that we as people have a unique influence on the world even
if we are not actively doing something. We influence this
planet by our state of being. We influence this planet very
positively if we are filled with love and respect for others
or negatively if our hearts are negative.
At this point I became
aware that there was a light calling me from somewhere else
and I entered what people speak of as the tunnel. I will
speak of it as that although I did not quite perceive it
as a tunnel. It was a transition place where I became aware
of other beings who seemed to be rather disoriented, rather
confused and lost and some of these beings were moving through
to their home. I simply wanted to go home. I moved through
this place and I became aware that I was not moving like
we move physically. When we move physically we have an intent,
we have a goal, and we move step by step to that goal. But
what moved me through this place was love. It was the love
of God and the love all things sacred and all things beautiful
and all things just. I could go on and on and on but this
was what propelled me on. It was my connection and my affection
As I came to the end of this place,
I wondered if I would be alone, and just like that I was
with my uncle. It was like we were two lights that were
put together. [We were] one red and one blue that made purple
light. I was aware of things about him that I had never
been aware of in life. I didn't spend much time with him
and I didn't know him well. He lived in the south and I
lived in California. But it was a very joyful reunion and
I became aware that he was concerned that I was there because
he communicated to me instantaneously that my mother could
not stand the loss of a child. He was confused, yet he knew
that everything was as it should be.
point I became very attracted to the light and this attraction
was like an irresistible magnet. I loved that light. I loved
what was pulling me home.
I moved past my uncle
into what I can best define as a sea of light. It was as
if every atom in the universe had been electrified with
color and light and sound, but more than that, with totally
unconditional love. It was a welcoming to me. I dove into
this ocean and with each moment, I felt more rapture and
more joy and more just absolutely unspeakable love. As I
moved through this sea, I became aware that I was moving
to the center of the sea of light which I perceived, how
can I say this, as a gnat flying into the sun. That is the
perspective that I had for this sea of light.
Then in a instant,
again like a clap, I entered into this light and I became
one with this light. In this light, I was no longer an individual,
no longer a person, but simply a part of this light. I became
like the phoenix. I was destroyed. It was the most blissful,
the most excruciatingly beautiful moment that I could imagine.
It seemed to me to be the apex of all existence. It was
the point where one was no more. One was simply a part of
After being in this state for
what seemed to be a time beyond time, I was gathered again
together like sands from the shore as an individual and
I was called to account for my deeds.
point, Renee described a number of things that she was shown,
such as a group of individuals on the Earth that she referred
to as "the just" who were working towards the unity of mankind
instead of focusing on the divisions like many countries
and religions do. She described seeing groups of individuals
that she "knew as well as her own parents" who were living
and working in other non-physical worlds.
described an encounter with a "Being of Light"
who showed her various elements of her past past life and
reviewed them with her. She talked in general terms about
how little acts of kindness were far and away more important
than the activities we usually give so much value to in
normal life. She described how the most positive thing she
did was to give special attention to a not so lovable boy
at a summer camp so that he would know he was loved. During
the review, she said this act of kindness was more important
from her viewpoint of expanded awareness than if she had
been president of the United States or the queen of England.
her life review, the Being of Light told her, "It was
not time for her to enter that world." She then described
returning to her physical body:
catapulted back down what I perceived to be a tunnel. This
time it was down a rainbow tunnel of light, sound and vibrational
frequency of love. With a terribly hard crash, I became
aware of the scene I had left earlier - the fire trucks,
and now an ambulance. There were men who were picking up
my body and loading it into the ambulance. I was in a state
of complete grief. I felt that I had become Eve and was
cast out of the garden of Eden.
As I was descending
down this tunnel, my heart was already attached to my home
beyond. I was begging not to leave. I crashed down into
this realm of existence and was suddenly confused by time
and space. It was as if I had never existed physically.
I was suddenly disoriented. My concern was for my mother,
because she was by herself and she was losing a sixteen
year old daughter. She knew that this was happening because
the ambulance attendant looked at the driver in front and
said, "DOA. DOA," which means of course dead on arrival.
The driver turned off the siren and slowed down the ambulance.
Before, he had been driving in a very reckless manner.
We were coming out
of the mountains. As we did that, my concern was for the
pain of my mother. I simple wanted to comfort her and to
wrap my soul around her. To assuage the loss of a daughter,
the loss of a child, I found myself simply praying for her.
I followed the ambulance
to the hospital and I watched as my body was unloaded. My
mother followed the gurney into the emergency room. I watched
as the first doctor went to work on me. I wasn't particularly
interested in the first doctor because the first doctor
had, that day, been through motorcycle accidents coming
out of the mountains. He had been through a very long day
and he was not concerned with someone who had been brought
in dead on arrival. He had no connection with me. He didn't
care and had no affection. So I had no interest in watching
what he did because my interest was based on affection and
I then left the emergency
room and was above my mother and some friends who had followed
her into the other room. I again tried to communicate with
them. I tried to let them know that, "This is a very
joyous occasion. I am dead on arrival. Hopefully all would
go well. They are never going to be able to revive me. I
was going to be dead now. Death had become life to me. Death
was not something to be frightened of, but something to
look forward to."
What happened then
was the first doctor pronounced me dead and was sending
my body off to the morgue. My own personal physician, who
was a country doctor and a very gruff man, stormed into
the emergency room in a tuxedo with his black bag. He looked
at the nurse on the phone who was calling the morgue, and
looked at the doctor who was washing his hands, and looked
at my [covered] body and said, "What the hell happened here?
Where is the patient?" They said, "She was dead on arrival."
He said, "The hell she was." He proceeded to scream at the
other nurse who was sort of standing off in the corner,
"I want injections of adrenaline. Bring them to me immediately
and come over here and assist me." He began to go to work
on my body. He began to beat on the chest and began to shock.
I was simply terrified by this turn of events and disgusted
that they would treat a body so brutally.
All of a sudden I
sort of became protective towards my body, even though I
wanted nothing to do with it. I began to be protective.
They could at least be nice about it. But they were beating
on my chest and shocking my body, but I was up in the corner
of the emergency room accompanied by other essences who
were keeping me contained in that emergency room.
Reinee goes on to
describe how she finally return to her body as a result
of her doctor's last effort to revive her. She also talked
of facing depression and having difficulty adapting to the
physical world after the experience. The medical professionals
she talked to did not know how to deal with her experience.
Eventually she said her experience was a religious one and
they were not qualified to give advice in that area.
Reinee was also shown
during her NDE how catastrophic Earth changes are the result
of human conflict on Earth. This suggests that the Earth
and everything in it is really one single giant organism:
The world will experience
tremendous upheaval. Great suffering will occur
because humans are breaking the laws of the
universe. Like a man arrogantly defying the
law of gravity, humanity will experience great
suffering as a result breaking these laws. Humanity
is being consumed by the "cancers of arrogance,
materialism, racism, chauvinism, and separatist
thinking." A cleansing of the Earth will
result for the purpose of education. Humanity
will become "born anew." It will be
a painful process, but humanity will emerge
humbled, educated, peaceful and unified.
researcher Margot Grey had one particular near-death experiencer
tell her these catastrophic Earth changes are a reflection
of all the social upheaval and violence happening all over
the world at the moment. For a more complete list of NDE
visions of the future and how they show that Earth and everything
in it is one single organism, visit the
NDE and the Future page.
A Talk on Her Near-Death Experience, Baha'i Faith Educational
Series Video Tape, Reno, Nevada 1989. Watch the video online
Earth was alive and the Earth was singing. It was
singing a single song and in that song everyone
had a voice. Every human being had a very important
note to add to this precious song of the Earth.
It was a song of love and every living being had
something to add to the song of Earth."
– Reinee Pasarow
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