Jessesmamma

Jessesmamma

In June, 2002, I was hospitalized in my seventh month of pregnancy with pryaclampsia. I remember seeing a brilliant light, shaped sort of like a huge candle flame. Way up at the top of the light I saw two winged beings in silhouette. They didn't look like the angels you see in artwork, like I would have expected to see. Instead they had four wings, that were smooth like a dragonfly's.

I am a Christian, but not living the way we were taught. So when I saw that light I was afraid and begged it to forgive me for my sins, because I knew that light must be God.

I sensed an outpouring of forgiveness and love from this being. Then it asked me in pictures that it sent to my mind, if I was ready to be with my babies yet. I thought of my Life's Companion, the man that had fathered those children. I could see his grief at my death, down to the tears in his eyes, just as though it were already happening, and I had to tell it that I needed to go back.

It accepted this answer, and I woke up in the hospital. At the time this experience took place my blood pressure was 200/120, or at least in that area. It may have been higher. I can't remember the exact figure that my boyfriend quoted to me. This being of light that I saw wasn't what I expected God to be like. I got the distinct impression that he has a sense of humor, and he wasn't judgmental about my failures and shortcomings. It was an experience that is hard to describe exactly, but I've done the best I can.