Benjamin

Benjamin

I had a near-death experience over 4 years ago. It was in 1999. It was a couple of days before my 20th birthday. I took an overdose of barbiturates on a cold autumn night in April beneath a city building.

After I finished taking the pills, I went to sleep. I felt this tugging at me. It was really warm and sensual, like something touching me very softly and very warm. I felt this incredible euphoria. I felt like a feather floating from place to place. There was this orange glow. It was like a sunset but a wide bright orange sunset and there was this coolness like a breeze blowing past me.

The next thing I knew, I was in this tropical paradise and there were these tourists walking around. There I was sitting in this cafe that was shaded with palms and bamboo rafters. I felt this cool moist misty breeze. It was like that misty air you get when someone is spraying the hose and you are in the vicinity.

I was talking to this man who said that it wasn't time for me to go down to the beach. I wanted to go to the beach but this man told me that it wasn't the right time yet. He walked away. The misty breeze got a bit cooler and I was swept off my feet.

Next, I am in the local city hospital, lying there. The following day, I started vomiting because they pumped my guts out to remove the toxins from inside. I felt weird. Everyone said I had been unconscious and in a critical condition but everything was going to be okay.

Well, that day ended and I was whisked off to the psychiatric unit that night.

I'm wondering if heaven lies in the oceans.