"It
seemed to me that I was high up in space.
Far below I saw the globe of the Earth,
bathed in a gloriously blue light. I
saw the deep blue sea and the continents.
Far below my feet lay Ceylon, and in the
distance ahead of me the subcontinent of
India. My field of vision did not include
the whole Earth, but its global shape was
plainly distinguishable and its outlines
shone with a silvery gleam through that
wonderful blue light. In many places the
globe seemed colored, or spotted dark green
like oxidized silver. Far away to the left
lay a broad expanse - the reddish-yellow
desert of Arabia; it was as though the silver
of the Earth had there assumed a reddish-gold
hue. Then came the Red Sea, and far,
far back - as if in the upper left of a
map - I could just make out a bit of the
Mediterranean. My gaze was directed chiefly
toward that. Everything else appeared indistinct. I
could also see the snow-covered Himalayas,
but in that direction it was foggy or cloudy.
I did not look to the right at all. I
knew that I was on the point of departing
from the Earth.
"Later I discovered
how high in space one would have to be to
have so extensive a view - approximately
a thousand miles! The sight of the Earth
from this height was the most glorious thing
I had ever seen.
"After contemplating it for a while, I turned
around. I had been standing with my back
to the Indian Ocean, as it were, and my
face to the north. Then it seemed to me
that I made a turn to the south. Something
new entered my field of vision. A short
distance away I saw in space a tremendous
dark block of stone, like a meteorite. It
was about the size of my house, or even
bigger. It was floating in space, and I
myself was floating in space.
"I had seen similar stones on the coast
of the Gulf of Bengal. They were blocks
of tawny granite, and some of them had been
hollowed out into temples. My stone was
one such gigantic dark block. An entrance
led into a small antechamber. To the right
of the entrance, a black Hindu sat silently
in lotus posture upon a stone bench. He
wore a white gown, and I knew that he expected
me. Two steps led up to this antechamber,
and inside, on the left, was the gate to
the temple. Innumerable tiny niches, each
with a saucer-like concavity filled with
coconut oil and small burning wicks, surrounded
the door with a wreath of bright flames. I
had once actually seen this when I visited
the
Temple of the Holy Tooth at Kandy in Ceylon;
the gate had been framed by several rows
of burning oil lamps of this sort.
"As I approached the steps leading up to
the entrance into the rock, a strange thing
happened: I had the feeling that everything
was being sloughed away; everything I aimed
at or wished for or thought, the whole phantasmagoria
of earthly existence, fell away or was stripped
from me - an extremely painful process.
Nevertheless something remained; it was
as if I now carried along with me everything
I had ever experienced or done, everything
that had happened around me. I might also
say: it was with me, and I was it. I consisted
of all that, so to speak. I consisted of
my own history and I felt with great certainty:
this is what I am. I am this bundle of what
has been and what has been accomplished.
"This experience gave me a feeling of extreme
poverty, but at the same time of great fullness.
There was no longer anything I wanted or
desired. I existed in an objective form;
I was what I had been and lived. At first
the sense of annihilation predominated,
of having been stripped or pillaged; but
suddenly that became of no consequence.
"Everything seemed to be past; what remained
was a 'fait accompli,' without any reference
back to what had been. There was no longer
any regret that something had dropped away
or been taken away. On the contrary: I had
everything that I was, and that was everything.
"Something else engaged my attention: as
I approached the temple I had the certainty
that I was about to enter an illuminated
room and would meet there all those people
to whom I belong in reality. There I would
at last understand - this too was a certainty
- what historical nexus I or my life fitted
into. I would know what had been before
me, why I had come into being, and where
my life was flowing. My life as I lived
it had often seemed to me like a story that
has no beginning and end. I had the feeling
that I was a historical fragment, an excerpt
for which the preceding and succeeding text
was missing. My life seemed to have been
snipped out of a long chain of events, and
many questions had remained unanswered. Why
had it taken this course? Why had I brought
these particular assumptions with me? What
had I made of them? What will follow? I
felt sure that I would receive an answer
to all the questions as soon as I entered
the rock temple. There I would meet the
people who knew the answer to my question
about what had been before and what would
come after.
"While I was thinking over these matters,
something happened that caught my attention.
From below, from the direction of Europe,
an image floated up. It was my doctor, or
rather, his likeness - framed by a golden
chain or a golden laurel wreath. I knew
at once: 'Aha, this is my doctor, of course,
the one who has been treating me. But now
he is coming in his
primal form. In life he was an
avatar of the temporal embodiment of
the primal form, which has existed from
the beginning. Now he is appearing in that
primal form.'
"Presumably I too was in my primal form,
though this was something I did not observe
but simply took for granted. As he stood
before me, a mute exchange of thought took
place between us. The doctor had been delegated
by the Earth to deliver a message to me,
to tell me that there was a protest against
my going away. I had no right to leave the
Earth and must return. The moment I heard
that, the vision ceased.
"I was profoundly disappointed, for now
it all seemed to have been for nothing. The
painful process of defoliation had been
in vain, and I was not to be allowed to
enter the temple, to join the people in
whose company I belonged.
"In
reality, a good three weeks were still to
pass before I could truly make up my mind
to live again. I could not eat because all
food repelled me. The view of city and mountains
from my sickbed seemed to me like a painted
curtain with black holes in it, or a tattered
sheet of newspaper full of photographs that
meant nothing. Disappointed, I thought,
"Now I must return to the "box system" again."
For it seemed to me as if behind the horizon
of the cosmos a three-dimensional world
had been artificially built up, in which
each person sat by himself in a little box.
And now I should have to convince myself
all over again that this was important!
Life and the whole world struck me as a
prison, and it bothered me beyond measure
that I should again be finding all that
quite in order. I had been so glad to shed
it all, and now it had come about that I
- along with everyone else - would again
be hung up in a box by a thread.
"I felt violent resistance to my doctor
because he had brought me back to life. At
the same time, I was worried about him.
His life is in danger, for heaven's sake!
He has appeared to me in his primal form!
When anybody attains this form it means
he is going to die, for already he belongs
to the 'greater company.' Suddenly the terrifying
thought came to me that the doctor would
have to die in my stead. I tried my best
to talk to him about it, but he did not
understand me. Then I became angry with
him.
"In
actual fact I was his last patient. On April
4, 1944 - I still remember the exact date
I was allowed to sit up on the edge of my
bed for the first time since the beginning
of my illness, and on this same day the
doctor took to his bed and did not leave
it again. I heard that he was having intermittent
attacks of fever. Soon afterward he died
of septicernia. He was a good doctor; there
was something of the genius about him. Otherwise
he would not have appeared to me as an avatar
of the temporal embodiment of the primal
form."
His vivid encounter
with the light, plus the intensely meaningful
insights led Jung to conclude that his experience
came from something real and eternal. Jung's
experience is unique in that he saw the
Earth from a vantage point of about a thousand
miles above it. His incredibly accurate
view of the Earth from outer space was described
about two decades before astronauts in space
first described it. Subsequently, as he
reflected on life after death, Jung recalled
the meditating Hindu from his near-death
experience and read it as a parable of the
archetypal Higher Self, the God-image within.
No matter what you
call it, a higher self within or God...
once touched, it does lead to insights and
the belief that something lies just beyond
our realm here on Earth.
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