1. A Date
laid down to use the stability of the Earth in an
effort to maintain a hold on reality. I knew I had
to do that in order to be able to come back down.
thing I knew I was riding in my friend's car. I
thought we went up north, crossed the Mackinaw Bridge
and came back again. We rode past my childhood home
and I saw my parents sitting on the porch.
I felt drawn
to the trees. I could see and feel their strength.
I saw their roots going deep into the ground. I
mean I actually saw the tree roots physically reaching
below the ground. I told my friends about the car
ride after the experience and they told me that
the only place I went was to the chair they carried
me to after I passed out on the porch.
I did wake
up in the chair my friends say they put me in a
bit later. When I woke up I could feel the organs
in my body working, each one separately as well
as all together. I could not see my friends anywhere.
I could see in all the rooms of the house at the
same time. The stereo was playing the Doors 'Absolutely
Live' album, except the volume was way too loud
for me. Since I did not see any of my friends around
I got up and tried to turn the music down, but could
not. No matter what I did the music kept playing.
I knew the stereo too. I had a real problem with
the noise. It was tearing at me and I could not
figure out why nor could I adjust the volume.
out to my friends and nobody came. I tried to unplug
the stereo but that did not work either. Every time
I tried to touch the cord to unplug it I could not
grasp it. It just kept on playing 'LA Woman' and
the sound rattled my very being.
I ran all
over the house calling for my friends, yelling repeatedly
that the music was too loud but I was not heard.
I pleaded for the music to be turned down. I tried
to go outside but I could not feel the doorknob.
I could see the daylight outside but could not go
outside. I ended up hiding in the bathroom in an
unsuccessful attempt to escape the noise. I looked
in the mirror and could not see myself. That frightened
I went back
into the family room and saw my body sitting in
the chair. It looked like I was sleeping. I wondered
how I could be looking at myself. I got a bit scared
then because I could see me from outside of me,
from all different angles except from the inside
angle I was used to seeing myself.
I was alone.
I was confused and very scared. I tried to get back
into my body but could not. I could not touch the
ground either. I was floating. I rose up into a
spot above my body and kind of just hung there.
I could no longer move. I called out for help and
nobody came. I tried to go out the door but like
the stereo I could not touch the doorknob. I was
scared and alone and did not know what to do. I
did not understand what was happening to me.
God to help me. I did believe in God then, but I
was kind of angry at him because of the crappy life
I was experiencing. I reasoned that if God were
really the omnipotent and omniscient being I was
taught he was he would not have let me experience
the pain I had experienced throughout my life. I
thought that if there was a time I needed God, it
was now! I was not disappointed with the result
of my plea for help.
over by the door to the outside and saw a beautiful
being standing there. His feet did not touch the
floor. His feet just blended into thin air. He looked
both female and male and was young. I could not
tell his/her sex. His hair was curly and he was
about my height. He had this glow about him too.
The glow was green close to him, then blue, then
pure white in the upper areas. He said, 'I am here
to help you' but when he spoke his mouth did not
move. I did not actually hear him speak with my
ears. I felt what he was saying.
When I saw
this being and he spoke to me, I was no longer afraid.
I actually felt peace and comfort like I had never
felt before. I felt the peace I was searching for
throughout my entire life. The feeling was very
familiar to me, like I had felt it before but not
in this life.
being called me by a name I do not remember. I told
him he must have the wrong guy and that the name
he used for me was not my name. He laughed and said
that I was a great 'master' and that I had just
forgotten who I was. I did not believe him, because
I did not really know for sure what a 'master' was
then and if I were this great master I would not
have had all the problems I had. I felt that I was
an evil being because that is what I was told in
my life several times by many.
me his name, but I do not remember it. He told me
that he had been with me always and told me that
he knew that I had a very hard life and that he
would help me understand why if I really wanted
to. He told me that he would help me remember who
I am. He said that he would understand if I did
not believe him and offered to prove to me that
he knew everything about me.
me things that I did when I as a child that proved
to me that he was always with me. He told me about
things I had only thought about. He told me that
I could go anywhere I wanted to go and that he would
show me how to do it if I wanted him to. He said
that if I needed to come back and see my body I
could. My body would be fine because I was still
connected to it somehow.
spoke to each other we did so telepathically. The
expression on his face was a happy one all the time.
I told him
that I would like to see the pyramids in Egypt as
well as the southwest United States. He told me
that all I had to do was trust him, think about
where I wanted to go, and we would go. I thought
about the pyramids and we were there in an instant.
I do not know why I chose the pyramids, the thought
just popped into me so I went with that. While we
were there he told me some things about the pyramids
and Egypt that I do not remember now. I really wish
I could remember what he explained while we were
there because I do know it was highly significant
and had to do with humanity's future.
finished in Egypt, we went to the southwest United
States but flew there slowly so I could see sights
along the way. I wanted to see this planet with
the eyes I had then. I saw the countries of the
Far East and the Pacific Ocean. Night was falling
in the southwest US and I could see what the being
told me was energy emanating from almost everything
I could see, especially the plant and animal life.
The energy was strongest in the areas of the land
and sea that had the least amount of humans.
was the lowest in areas where there were man-made
structures, the cities of the world. The energy
I saw came from the human beings that lived in the
cities. It was explained to me that humans are the
basic producers of energy in cities because of their
relatively low vibration level the energy is lower
in general. I could see the higher sources of energy
in the cities though. I was shown people who had
higher energy levels and some of them actually talked
to the being I was with. I saw dark souls during
the time the being and I spent on Gaia. The dark
souls were earthbound spirits who refuse to go to
the light. They prey on the energies of humans still
in human form and try to use those souls to prevent
the evolution of spirit. I was told I was protected
from these dark ones as long as I chose to focus
on the love in me. The dark ones did not even try
to affect us, in fact they gave us nasty looks and
went away. I was told I would know these dark ones
when I see them and I was told to tell them to go
to the light. The light is a porthole to the place
all souls go if they choose.
see energy around the humans too, all different
levels and colors. The being explained the human
energy to me. He said that the energy coming from
humans is what spirits use to evaluate the spiritual
condition of particular humans. He said the lighter
and more brilliant the color the more advanced the
spirit is. He said that seeing the "aura"
around a spirit is useful in determining how much
a particular spirit needs to work on his development.
He said the higher beings know where to go and what
to do to help an earthbound soul so they may advance
themselves if they so choose. He told me that all
souls have this energy, this is why I could see
it on every human I saw. He said that I was of the
same energy type as he but my vibration is lower
when I am in human form and that in time my energy
would raise to match his intensity provided I chose
to take the initiative to consciously evolve my
me that there is much to this planet that spirits
can see which humans do not see with their eyes
because their vibrations are so low. He showed me
life in the trees that I could see as a spirit but
could not see in my human form.
that beings of higher vibration do live on Earth
but they are not human, they are part of Earth itself.
He explained these beings were the caretakers of
physical life on the planet. He said that these
beings take care of what we call nature. There are
beings that take care of the plant life, the mineral
life and the waterborne life. These lower echelon
beings work together to ensure that all aspects
of nature is protected and remains healthy. When
the planet was evolving, these ethereal beings were
the ones that kept the balance of nature.
to me that the planet that we call Earth really
has a proper name. He told me the Earth is really
called 'Gaia.' He said Gaia has its own energy and
that Gaia is really a true living being. I asked
if this energy could be seen and he said that we
have to be away from Gaia to appreciate and see
it. He said humans are the ones who can manipulate
Gaia's energy through their choices. He said if
humans choose to live in harmony with the energy
on Gaia, it is good for Gaia. He said if humans
abuse Gaia, they hurt Gaia by altering its energy
structure. I was given an example of how humans
have deforested the planet and reduced the energy
available faster than it could be replenished. He
said Gaia was very strong but has been weakened
considerably since humans have chosen to use the
resources in a manner inconsistent with the laws
of the universe.
him if we could go into space and see Gaia's energy
and he said yes. He said there were no limits on
where we could go. I concentrated my thought, trusted,
and we then went into what is known as space.
this planet I could see Gaia all at once. It was
so beautiful. I could see the aura around Gaia.
The aura affected me greatly. I felt a deep love
for this beautiful place. I could hear Gaia move
and was told the sound was the energy flowing in
and out of Gaia. My special being told me that Gaia
is the most unique planet because it is designed
for humans to live on forever. It was created for
a spirit to play, learn, and grow. He said the balance
of nature on Gaia allows a spirit to be in human
form when a spirit lives in harmony with nature.
to compensate for the decreased vibration and was
created for spirits to adapt enough to adjust and
be in the physical human body while still having
access to energy that will help them advance. He
explained that humans were designed by God to live
eternally on Gaia and are not supposed to 'die.'
He said that 'dying' is a human created Earth term
that means little in the world of spirit. The reason
that humans supposedly die is that they have fallen
away from the balance of nature and allow themselves
to be affected by what they create that violate
the natural laws of the universe. He said that humans
have fallen away from living in balance with nature.
He said they must relearn about the harmonic balance
if they want to survive as a race and live on Gaia
forever. He said it was still possible for humans
to learn about this harmony and that it is the next
overall goal of humans on Gaia. I was told that
humans would eventually realize they must restore
the harmony but great damage will be inflicted before
humans will fully realize what they have been doing
to Gaia and work to reverse what they have done.
Through the Realms
traveled past all of the planets in our solar system.
Near each planet I could hear the energy just like
on Gaia. I saw the auras around each one of them
too. I saw spirits on all of them as well. My friend
told me that all planets are places for spirits
to live, learn and thus evolve. I saw great cities
on each and every one of those planets. It was explained
that other life in the universe is not readily seen
because the beings were all of higher vibration
and most spirits in human form have yet to attain
the higher vibration required to see them.
told me that each planet has a theme for learning
and that any of them can be chosen by a soul when
we are between physical lives. He said we practice
on the other planets to be ready to live on Gaia.
He said Gaia is the ultimate experience for a soul.
It is ultimate because our souls evolve faster here
than anywhere else. It was said that the lessons
we need to learn are difficult to learn without
having a physical form.
how we pick a physical life on Gaia. He explained
to me that I picked the parents I was born to so
that I could learn what I needed to learn to grow
enough to come back and do spirit work on Gaia after
I attain a certain level of growth. He said that
I was being told all of these things so that I could
help souls come together and return Gaia to harmony.
some things to me about God that I do not remember.
They had to do with the universe and the size and
structure of it. I do remember he said that God
is not to be seen for he is everywhere. He told
me that God loves Gaia deeply, much as a man loves
about Jesus too. He told me Jesus was a master God
sent to Earth to teach humans how to act toward
each other and find their way back to the path of
harmony with each other as well as with Gaia.
I was told
that Jesus is the being that is entrusted by God
to ensure that souls evolve. He said that Jesus
is of the highest in vibration than any other soul.
He said that God holds Jesus in the highest of favor
because he was the best example of what humans need
to do. I then got to see Jesus. I saw his light.
Jesus' light was the purest I have ever seen. There
was no need for words. There were only love feelings
that I cannot even begin to describe.
I was told
that loving one another is what souls need to do
in order for peace and harmony to be the standard
I was told
that there is a hierarchy in the universe that is
dedicated to preserving the harmony of the universe.
I was told that humans are an integral part of this
harmony and that the free will we have is a part
of souls that allows humans to provide service to
explained those things to me I was able to see our
whole solar system all at once in full color. The
planets were all in a line and I could see all of
them from Pluto to the sun. I felt very blessed
and very important. I was given this great gift
and I did not really understand why. There I floated,
a being that went out his way to inflict pain on
other souls, yet I was never asked about what I
had done. In fact I was given the honor of being
given answers to questions most people wonder about
all of their lives.
this loving being for explaining and showing me
what he did. He told me that there was more for
him to show me if I was ready to experience it.
I told him I was ready. I did not know why I was
chosen but I was not about to question why. It just
seemed small to me then.
to head back toward Gaia. We went to a place in
the shadow of Gaia. It was a great city in the clouds.
The city had these beautiful white buildings as
far as I could see. I saw spirits living there all
of which had vibration but no real physical body.
These inhabitants went to and from the buildings
- going to work and play too. I saw a place where
spirits went to get what I thought was water. There
were no vehicles there. Spirits seemed to get around
the same way my being and I got around, by flying.
had no boundaries that I could see. This was a place
full of life of all kinds. There was nature there,
many pure plants, trees, and water just like on
Gaia but more pure. Nature there was absolutely
perfect. It was untainted by human manipulation.
This place was just like Gaia only without the problems
and negativity. I felt that this was what is called
heaven in Earth terms.
I saw spirits
going to and from the Gaia and the city. I could
tell the development of the spirits going to and
from by the energy they emanated. I could see that
animals came to and from Earth just like humans
do. I could see many spirits leave Gaia with guides
and could see spirits returning to Gaia without
guides. The being told me that some of the spirits
passing were the ones that were doing the work with
humans on Gaia. I could make out the type of spirits
that were doing the work and the spirits that were
coming to the great city to become replenished to
eventually go back to Gaia to experience and further
evolve. I could feel the emotions of the ones coming
back for replenishment. I could feel that some of
them were sad, beaten and scared, much like I felt
before my being came to me.
took me into one of the larger buildings. Inside
I saw many spirits working. They were doing things
similar to jobs on Earth. When we walked by the
spirits, they looked at me. I think they were checking
me out because of the being I was with.
upstairs and I saw spirits that knew me. They greeted
me and asked me how I was doing. They gave me advice
of which I do not remember. I thought I was going
to be given a job there, but the being knew I thought
that and told me that there was something I needed
to do first.
I was ecstatic.
I was in heaven despite everything I had done during
my life on Gaia. I was experiencing what most people
only dream about. The love I felt there was the
same love I felt when I saw Jesus. I had been searching
on Gaia for what was really the same place I was
in then. I was searching on Gaia for the feeling
I was feeling that very moment. I had found what
I spent my whole life searching for. I was truly
happy. I was home and I knew it. I was ready to
stay and do whatever work I was given to do.
took me to another building that was special. It
was bigger than the rest and had the greenest foliage
I had ever seen growing on it, decorating it like
a shrine. We went inside a set of double doors that
glowed with life. The inside was decorated with
a wood paneling that the being told me was "living"
wood from the trees that grew at this wonderful
place. He led me to some big double doors and told
me to wait on this bench while he went inside.
A bit later
he came out of the room. He told me to go into the
room and said he would wait for me and to not worry.
He cautioned me to ensure that I was truthful with
the beings in the room. He said they were not judges,
rather they were the ones who evaluated a soul's
development based on a soul's history. He told me
to remember who I was and to refrain from fear.
I knew I had to leave this being sooner or later
but I was glad that he would wait for me. I was
a little scared to leave him, but I felt that I
was protected and knew that I would be protected
went in and saw a group of several spirits seated
at a table. The table was made of the glowing wood
and was perfect in every way. The spirits around
this table had the highest vibration I had seen
so far with the exception of Jesus.
at these beings and recognized them. I do not know
where I recognized them from, but they all had a
familiarity about them. They just looked at me.
All of a
sudden, I saw my parents on Earth before I was born.
I saw how they came to be together and watched them
have my brother and sister before me. I saw their
positive and negative sides and evaluated them according
to what I knew I needed to do on Gaia. The beings
asked me how and why I picked these particular parents
and asked me to tell them. They said I knew how
and why I picked them and asked me to tell them
why. I do not know where it came from but I did
tell them how and why and they agreed with me. I
picked them to help them on their path as well as
to achieve my learning.
I saw my
soul go to my mother and go inside of her. I saw
myself being born from an observer standpoint as
well as having the actual experience. I proceeded
to see my entire life from the observer point of
view and from the points of view of those my actions
affected. I felt the feelings they felt that directly
resulted from things I had done to them. I saw both
the positive and the negative things I had done
as they had truly happened, nothing was left out
or presented inaccurately.
the harshness of being born again. I experienced
leaving heaven and the transit to Gaia. I saw myself
as a helpless infant who needed his mother for everything.
I experienced my father's love as well as his anger.
I experienced my mothers love, her fear and her
anger as well. I saw all of the good and bad from
my childhood years and re-experienced what I had
done then. I felt all of my emotions and the emotions
of the souls I had hurt as well as loved. From all
of this I learned that it matters deeply what choices
I make on Gaia.
just how powerful we humans are and how we can affect
each other in positive and negative ways. It was
amazing to see how my innocent actions had such
a powerful effect on souls that I had no idea I
was affecting. The experience was one that I will
never forget. I experienced the whole spectrum of
feelings of my life in a relatively short period
of time as we humans see it. Where I was, time did
not really exist.
see how I became what I had become on Gaia and why
I became that way. Everything I did in my life affected
the evolution of the souls around me. I saw the
reasons for all of my actions and understood why
I did what I had done. There was a place for all
of my positive and negative actions. There was no
action that was necessarily wrong, but there were
actions I took that did not enhance positive growth.
I was both a victim and a beneficiary of my actions.
This was not a fun experience to go through. I could
see how wonderful it could be if one chose to act
to affect other souls positively most of the time.
the beings in the room asked me questions about
what I saw and how I felt about my life up to then.
I knew that I had to provide an honest assessment
- I could not lie. I hesitated when they asked me
whether I affected others more positively than negatively.
I thought about lying.
knew what I was thinking and I had to tell them
that I felt that I could have done a better job
on Gaia. I knew what I had come to Gaia to accomplish
and was well on my way to doing that but I knew
I was not finished yet. They agreed and told me
that I still had many things to do and that I may
want to go back and do them. I was told it was understood
how difficult it would be for me but it was necessary
for the universe for me to finish.
that it may be wise to go back and live my life
how I had originally planned it.
I had set lofty goals for my life on Gaia and the
events in my life were achieving the goals I had
that I originally came to Gaia to learn and share
with others using the gifts that I have accumulated
over several lifetimes.
that I am needed on Gaia to help souls bring themselves
and Gaia back to harmony.
that I have great potential to affect other souls,
to help them grow and that Gaia is the best place
to do that. I was told that the events I had experienced
thus far were preparing me to make a large contribution
to the universe and that my experiences were not
to be considered personal attacks in any way. I
did not want to accept that, I wanted to stay, I
told them that.
I told them
I was tired and wanted to stay because life on Gaia
is hard and unforgiving. I felt that going back
would be dangerous for the universe because I was
not advanced enough in my spiritual evolution. They
said that was precisely why it would be in my best
interest to go back to Gaia.
I was more advanced than I give myself credit for.
that it was possible for me to stay but I would
need to finish my work on Gaia sooner or later.
The type of work I was destined for can only be
done on Gaia. I could stay if chose to but I would
only be prolonging the completion of what I needed
to do for this universe.
the fastest way to finish my work would be to go
back to Gaia as soon as possible.
I was stunned
to say the least. I resorted to bargaining but it
was no use. I still did not like living on Gaia
and did not really want to go back. These beings
understood me but remained firm. I had a decision
to make that was really the hardest decision I would
I did come
back to Gaia and am now living the life that I was
(later in the experience) told I would live.
Believe it or not, I ended up shelving this experience
away, classifying it as a really vivid "trip."
It was not until I evolved more that I realized
the gift I was given.
this experience now because I feel it can, if so
chosen, spur thought and foster choices that affect
the planet in a positive way.
If I learned
anything from this experience it was that every
choice I make is duly recorded, noted and will return
later, when I leave here again.
is to save people the pain that I felt in my review
and hasten the evolution of humans on Gaia, helping
Gaia as well as the universe.
wish you all of the love I feel in my heart and
I give this love to you.
David Oakford now
talks of his return to Earth ]
I am one
who had a near-death experience and was given a
choice to return to this planet in a physical sense
again. I chose to return out of love for this planet,
a love so great that I would give up the slot I
have 'back home.' I did this also in order to help
to heal the place through the sharing of what I
was shown of the in-between and through the choices
I make, (hopefully loving and kind ones).
the free will to return I would not be here in the
physical doing what I am doing. The physical pain,
war, poverty, pestilence, horror, rape, murder,
abandonment etc, etc, etc. that is here on this
planet is the result of humans coming here and making
their free choices in order to learn and evolve.
Unfortunately learning does tend to create a mess
at times and the physical pain etc. etc.. is a part
of that mess. It makes sense to me that the same
free choice concept is instrumental in cleaning
up the mess.
it to camping and choosing to clean up or not clean
up the mess one makes. If you choose to clean up
your mess, this helps the planet to stay as is because
one does not contribute to the mess. If one does
not clean up it adds to the mess. If one cleans
up their own mess and then some it contributes to
healing the planet.
In my near-death
experience I was also shown that there are many
souls in 'heaven' who are more than willing to come
to this place regardless of the state it is in.
I was shown that if I did not choose to return I
would be in the schools that exist in heaven, working
toward the growth I need to accomplish regardless
of the form I am in. That was an attractive choice
to be sure except that I had a problem with how
long it would take me to grow enough to do what
my soul wishes to do. (I have a burning desire
to experience other places in other universes and
to do that I need to grow more.) The prerequisite
for that is ensuring that my soul has the IQ for
It is my
understanding that a soul can choose to remain in
heaven and operate on the level he/she (whatever)
is on to infinity, but I seek more because I know
without doubt that there is more.
At any rate,
the idea remains that for this place to start feeling
and looking like heaven is to create the love felt
there here. I would like to see that on this planet
and I know it can be done. If I need to, I will
come back here all over again to make it happen.