Friday, November 6th, 1981 my whole life changed radically.
To say that it was a huge wake-up call is not an overstatement.
I had my
first seizure because I had begun abusing muscle relaxers
to get high. I had already gotten caught with that several
times which my family knew about. However, this time, it
was at work as a security guard in the lobby where people
first entered the building. There I was, having a seizure
because I had overdosed myself! This is just one example
of how addictions are so insidious. I actually thought I
could get away with such insanity. I was a very unbalanced
person and I didn't even know it.
I was out of my body, hovering by the ceiling. Having already
been out of the body before when I was seventeen via a lucid
dream experience in which a "divine presence" guided me
through the experience, I knew that Soul Travel was a very
natural and wonderful experience, so free, unrestrained
and without a physical body to hamper Soul.
Now, I was
experiencing it again, but this time, it was more profound.
My awareness was astonishingly heightened instantly, giving
me a knowingness of countless things by straight perception.
It was an awakening of who and what I truly am as Soul that
was missing in the earlier occurrence.
I knew that I had "died." That did not bother me in the
slightest, but my attention was drawn to my mother who had
waited in much trepidation during the torturous fourteen
hours of surgery.
I knew she
was very upset due to the surgery. Yet, with the expanded
awareness came an intensified detachment. I knew that, cosmically
and spiritually, all was well, and she would be all right,
too, in time. She was just experiencing what people on Earth
do as a spiritual learning experience: The chance that she
could lose someone whom she loved very much.
Ah, the drama
of this world. Yet, all the while, I was right there with
her, just in another body which she could not see nor perceive.
All at once,
my Soul body ascended at an extreme rate of speed toward
the inner heavens - virtually like a rocket. The speed did
not cause fear. In fact, the experience was exhilarating,
enchanting and I loved every moment of it!
wonderful! What was all the nonsense about being afraid
of the bogeyman of "death" anyway? This was great!
as I ascended, I stopped in a golden place where everything
had a golden tinge, and the feeling? Ah, it was truly heavenly.
True joy was everything. The most joy I have ever experienced
on Earth was microscopic in comparison. No wonder they call
it a heaven and I knew there were many of them.
I was in
a library in an ethereal temple or atrium, similar to ancient
Greek or Roman villas. Everything was airy and light. I
had the impression that there were other Souls studying
in the next room. I gathered all this information instantaneous.
While I was
getting the information of the library and school at the
temple, I was aware of a very tall Master or Spiritual Guide
with long white robe, and long white hair and beard. Everything
about him discreetly shimmered. I thought he was God himself
at first he was so majestic. Amazingly enough, he shortened
his appearance instantly, I believe so I would be more comfortable
with him. I have heard that some angels are huge beings,
and probably can alter their appearance at will as well.
This was a crash course in the afterlife!
I knelt, crying out and shielding my eyes in shame.
I'm so sorry
I've been bad!!!"
For in my
self-condemning eyes, I had been very disobedient. But,
his holy eyes twinkled with humor, love and saw only a child
of God who simply had stumbled on her way to God, no more,
smiled as he nodded, saying, " No, no, no."
I stood and
the guilt of many years was shed in that moment and my qualms
left me, leaving me centered in the sweet warmth of that
divine love he was permeated with. His love was unconditional,
which I have never experienced more in this lifetime!
We were not
talking orally, but communicating telepathically. I did
not even think about it as strange because it was completely
natural. Everything was perfectly natural.
"Do you want to stay or go back?"
I was very
aware that this decision would be if I would stay in the
Heavenly Realms or return to my life as Karen on planet
All of my
being wanted to stay there in bliss, but ever since I was
six, I knew that reincarnation is the natural fact of life,
and now, I had the knowingness that if I chose to stay,
I would have to reincarnate to Earth again later. At the
time, that was unacceptable to me. I didn't understand then
that Earth is a boot camp and school for Soul's spiritual
education, and as such, it's tough. Nevertheless, I knew
that I had to return and finish whatever mission I had to
divine being and I "talked" a bit longer which I do not
remember consciously, then whoosh!! And I was back in my
physical body in the hospital again."