Benedict's Near-Death Experience
Benedict (died March 31, 2017) suffered
from terminal brain cancer in
1982 and died; but miraculously lived to tell about
it. While showing no vital signs for 90
minutes, Benedict had perhaps the most transcendental
NDE ever documented. While on the Other
Side, Benedict journeyed through various
afterlife realms and was given access to
Universal Intelligence by which he was allowed
to absorb a tremendous amount of spiritual
and scientific knowledge including the nature
of reincarnation. Benedict's enthusiastic
curiosity during his NDE took him far into
the remote depths of existence - and even
beyond - into the energetic void of nothingness
behind the Big Bang. He was shown in holographic
detail the evolution of both Mother Earth
and humanity and experienced the cosmology
of our soul's connection with Gaia. He was
given knowledge about humanity's role in
the Universe including a beautiful vision
of humanity's future for the next 400 years.
in his book "Life
after Death: The Burden of Proof,"
recounts Benedict's journey at length and
is an encyclopedia of the afterlife."
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| 1. About Mellen-Thomas
Benedict's NDE resulted in perhaps
the greatest fundamental transformation
of any near-death experiencer ever
documented. Miraculously, Benedict
returned to his body with a complete
remission of the disease. The advanced
scientific knowledge he brought
back from his NDE led him to numerous
scientific discoveries and U.S.
and foreign patents (see
Ever since his NDE, Benedict has
maintained his direct access to
Universal Intelligence, and returns
to the light at will. This enables
him to be a bridge between science
and spirit and allows him to develop
new technologies for health and
wellness. Benedict discovered living
cells can respond very quickly to
light stimulation resulting in,
among other things, high speed healing.
says of Benedict:
has the big picture. His story is
one of the most remarkable I have
encountered in extensive research
on near-death experiences. It is
very rare that those who have died
and returned have seen into the
future to the extent that Mellen
has. His vision of the future is
one of hope. He has participated
in studies of a major university
where he contributed to understanding
the structure of genes and chromosome
coding for a genetic disease, while
researchers puzzled over how he
could have access to this information."
Dr. Kenneth Ring
Dr. Janice Holden
of International Association of Near Death
says of Benedict:
under hypnosis, was able to give
accurate information about and draw
the genetic makeup of a rare neuromuscular
disease. I was astounded by this.
It's not the kind of thing where
one could cheat."
Dr. Janice Holden
been closely involved in the research area
Quantum Biology - the quantum relationship
between light and life. Benedict has discovered
how living cells can respond very quickly
to light stimulation resulting in, among
other things, high speed healing. His research
is providing dramatic new perspectives on
how biological systems work. He is also
a technology and product consultant and
a popular lecturer on the subjects of longevity,
energy medicine, and phototherapy.
During his NDE,
Benedict was given the names of several
people whose discoveries would one day be
seen as on a par with those of Newton or
Einstein. One of the names given to him
was "Cleve Backster." After having his NDE,
Benedict tracked him down. Cleve Backster,
www.primaryperception.com, is best known
for his experiments with biocommunication
in plant and animal cells using a polygraph
machine in the 1960s which led to his theory
of "primary perception." Cleve Backster's
study was partially replicated in 1973 by
Dr. Harold Puthoff and
Russell Targ of CIA
Project" fame at the
Stanford Research Institute. Puthoff
and Targ applied for and received a research
grant to probe plant sensitivity. In 1973,
they began to conduct plant and human consciousness
research on the “Backster
Effect." The product culminated in a
final report called "Organic
Biofield Sensor" by H. E. Puthoff and
in about 200 years Cleve Backster will be
seen as a kind of "saint" to the Gaia-based
spirituality which will dominate society
at that time. Cleve Backster's work is neither
esoteric nor spiritual, but scientific.
His book is entitled, "Primary
Perception: Biocommunication with Plants,
Living Foods, and Human Cells" and his
original work is described in the book,
Secret Life of Plants." See also
Cleve Backster's Wikipedia page.
Concerning the validity
of Benedict's testimony, P.M.H. Atwater
has this to say:
attest that his case is genuine
and his claims about the brain tumor
and the conditions of his death
are true. I have met his mother
and step-father, been in his and
their homes, and have followed his
life since - his struggles and his
accomplishments - as he sought to
find a way to integrate his experience
into his daily life while still
honoring the mission he felt guided
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The Road to Death
1982 I died from terminal cancer. The condition
I had was inoperable, and any kind of chemotherapy they
could give me would just have made me more of a vegetable.
I was given six to eight months to live. I had been
an information freak in the 1970's, and I had become
increasingly despondent over the nuclear crisis, the
ecology crisis, and so forth. So, since I did not have
a spiritual basis, I began to believe that nature had
made a mistake, and that we were probably a cancerous
organism on the planet. I saw no way that we could get
out from all the problems we had created for ourselves
and the planet. I perceived all humans as cancer, and
that is what I got. That is what killed me. Be careful
what your world view is. It can feed back on you, especially
if it is a negative world view. I had a seriously negative
one. That is what led me into my death. I tried all
sorts of alternative healing methods, but nothing helped.
So I determined
that this was really just between me and God. I had
never really faced God before, or even dealt with God. I
was not into any kind of spirituality at the time, but
I began a journey into learning about spirituality and
alternative healing. I set out to do all the reading
I could and bone up on the subject, because I did not
want to be surprised on the other side. So I started
reading on various religions and philosophies. They
were all very interesting, and gave hope that there
was something on the other side.
On the other hand, as a self-employed
stained-glass artist at the time, I had no medical insurance
whatsoever. So my life savings went overnight in testing.
Then I was facing the medical profession without any
kind of insurance. I did not want to have my family
dragged down financially, so I determined to handle
this myself. There was not constant pain, but there
were black-outs. I got so that I would not dare to drive,
and eventually I ended up in hospice care. I had my
own personal hospice caretaker. I was very blessed by
this angel who went through the last part of this with
me. I lasted about eighteen months. I did not want to
take a lot of drugs, since I wanted to be as conscious
as possible. Then I experienced such pain that I had
nothing but pain in my consciousness, luckily only for
a few days at a time.
waking up one morning at home about 4:30 am, and I just
knew that this was it. This was the day I was going
to die. So I called a few friends and said goodbye.
I woke up my hospice caretaker and told her. I had a
private agreement with her that she would leave my dead
body alone for six hours, since I had read that all
kinds of interesting things happen when you die. I went
back to sleep. The next thing I remember is the beginning
of a typical near-death experience. Suddenly I was fully
aware and I was standing up, but my body was in the
bed. There was this darkness around me.
Being out of
my body was even more vivid than ordinary experience.
It was so vivid that I could see every room in the house,
I could see the top of the house, I could see around
the house, I could see under the house.
| 3. The Light
was this light shining. I turned toward the light. The
light was very similar to what many other people have
described in their near-death experiences. It was so
magnificent. It is tangible; you can feel it. It is
alluring; you want to go to it like you would want to
go to your ideal mother's or father's arms.
As I began
to move toward the light, I knew intuitively that if
I went to the light, I would be dead.
So as I was
moving toward the light I said, "Please wait a minute,
just hold on a second here. I want to think about this;
I would like to talk to you before I go."
To my surprise, the entire
experience halted at that point. You are indeed in control
of your near-death experience. You are not on a roller
coaster ride. So my request was honored and I had some
conversations with the light. The light kept changing
into different figures, like Jesus, Buddha, Krishna,
mandalas, archetypal images and signs.
I asked the light, "What is going on here? Please, light,
clarify yourself for me. I really want to know the reality
of the situation."
I cannot really say
the exact words, because it was sort of telepathy. The
light responded. The information transferred to me was
that your beliefs shape the kind of feedback you are
getting before the light. If you were a Buddhist or
Catholic or Fundamentalist, you get a feedback loop
of your own stuff. You have a chance to look at it and
examine it, but most people do not.
the light revealed itself to me, I became aware that
what I was really seeing was our Higher Self matrix.
The only thing I can tell you is that it turned into
a matrix, a mandala of human souls, and what I saw was
that what we call our Higher Self in each of us is a
matrix. It's also a conduit to the Source; each one
of us comes directly, as a direct experience from the
Source. We all have a Higher Self, or an oversoul part
of our being. It revealed itself to me in its truest
energy form. The only way I can really describe it is
that the being of the Higher Self is more like a conduit.
It did not look like that, but it is a direct connection
to the Source that each and every one of us has. We
are directly connected to the Source.
the light was showing me the Higher Self matrix. And
it became very clear to me that all the Higher Selves
are connected as one being, all humans are connected
as one being, we are actually the same being, different
aspects of the same being. It was not committed to one
particular religion. So that is what was being fed back
to me. And I saw this mandala of human souls. It was
the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. I just went
into it and, it was just overwhelming. It was like all
the love you've every wanted, and it was the kind of
love that cures, heals, regenerates.
I asked the light to keep explaining, I understood what
the Higher Self matrix is. We have a grid around the
planet where all the Higher Selves are connected. This
is like a great company, a next subtle level of energy
around us, the spirit level, you might say.
Then, after a couple of minutes, I asked for more clarification.
I really wanted to know what the universe is about,
and I was ready to go at that time.
"I am ready, take me."
| 4. The River of Life
Then the light turned into
the most beautiful thing that I have ever seen: a mandala
of human souls on this planet.
Now I came
to this with my negative view of what has happened on
the planet. So as I asked the light to keep clarifying
for me, I saw in this magnificent mandala how beautiful
we all are in our essence, our core. We are the most
beautiful creations. The human soul, the human matrix
that we all make together is absolutely fantastic, elegant,
exotic, everything. I just cannot say enough about how
it changed my opinion of human beings in that instant.
I said, "Oh, God, I did not know how beautiful we are."
At any level, high or low, in whatever shape you are
in, you are the most beautiful creation, you are.
I was astonished to find that there was no evil in any
I said, "How can this be?"
The answer was that no soul was inherently evil. The
terrible things that happened to people might make them
do evil things, but their souls were not evil. What
all people seek, what sustains them, is love, the light
told me. What distorts people is a lack of love.
The revelations coming from the light seemed to go on
and on, then I asked the light, "Does this mean that
humankind will be saved?"
Then, like a
trumpet blast with a shower of spiraling lights, the
Great Light spoke, saying:
"Remember this and never forget; you save, redeem and
heal yourself. You always have. You always will. You
were created with the power to do so from before the
beginning of the world."
In that instant I realized even more. I realized that
WE HAVE ALREADY BEEN SAVED, and we saved ourselves because
we were designed to self-correct like the rest of God's
universe. This is what the second coming is about.
I thanked the light of God with all my heart. The best
thing I could come up with was these simple words of
totally appreciation: "Oh dear God, dear Universe, dear
Great Self, I love my life."
seemed to breathe me in even more deeply. It was as
if the light was completely absorbing me. The love light
is, to this day, indescribable. I entered into another
realm, more profound than the last, and became aware
of something more, much more. It was an enormous stream
of light, vast and full, deep in the heart of life.
I asked what this was.
"This is the RIVER OF LIFE. Drink of this manna
water to your heart's content."
So I did. I
took one big drink and then another. To drink of life
Itself! I was in ecstasy.
The light knew all
about me, everything past, present and future.
"Yes!" I whispered.
I asked to see the
rest of the universe; beyond our solar system, beyond
all human illusion. The light then told me that I could
go with the Stream. I did, and was carried through the
light at the end of the tunnel. I felt and heard a series
of very soft sonic booms. What a rush!
Suddenly I seemed to be rocketing away from the planet
on this stream of life. I saw the Earth fly away. The
solar system, in all its splendor, whizzed by and disappeared.
At faster than light speed, I flew through the center
of the galaxy, absorbing more knowledge as I went. I
learned that this galaxy, and all of the universe, is
bursting with many different varieties of LIFE. I saw
many worlds. The good news is that we are not alone
in this universe!
As I rode this stream
of consciousness through the center of the galaxy, the
stream was expanding in awesome fractal waves of energy.
The super clusters of galaxies with all their ancient
wisdom flew by. At first I thought I was going somewhere;
actually traveling. But then I realized that, as the
stream was expanding, my own consciousness was also
expanding to take in everything in the universe! All
creation passed by me. It was an unimaginable wonder!
I truly was a wonder child; a babe in Wonderland!
It seemed as if all the creations in the universe soared
by me and vanished in a speck of light. Almost immediately,
a second light appeared. It came from all sides, and
was so different; a light made up of more than every
frequency in the universe.
| 5. The Void
felt and heard several
velvety sonic booms again. My consciousness, or being,
was expanding to interface with the entire holographic
universe and more.
As I passed into the
second light, the awareness came to me that I had just
transcended the truth. Those are the best words I have
for it, but I will try to explain. As I passed into
the second light, I expanded beyond the first light.
I found myself in a profound stillness, beyond all silence.
I could see or perceive FOREVER, beyond infinity. I
was in the void. I was in pre-creation, before the Big
Bang. I had crossed over the beginning of time - the
first word - the first vibration. I was in the eye of
creation. I felt as if I was touching the face of God.
It was not a religious feeling. Simply I was at one
with absolute life and consciousness.
I say that I could see or perceive forever, I mean that
I could experience all of creation generating itself.
It was without beginning and without end. That's a mind-expanding
thought, isn't it? Scientists perceive the Big Bang
as a single event which created the universe. I saw
that the Big Bang is only one of an infinite number
of Big Bangs creating universes endlessly and simultaneously.
The only images that even come close in human terms
would be those created by supercomputers using fractal
The ancients knew of
this. They said Godhead periodically created new universes
by breathing out, and de-creating other universes by
breathing in. These epochs were called yugas. Modern
science called this the Big Bang. I was in absolute,
pure consciousness. I could see or perceive all the
Big Bangs or yugas creating and de-creating themselves.
Instantly I entered into them all simultaneously. I
saw that each and every little piece of creation has
the power to create. It is very difficult to try to
explain this. I am still speechless about this.
It took me years after I returned to assimilate any
words at all for the void experience. I can tell you
this now; the void is less than nothing, yet more than
everything that is! The void is absolute zero;
chaos forming all possibilities. It is absolute consciousness;
much more than even universal intelligence.
Where is the void? I know. The void is inside and outside
everything. You, right now even while you live, are
always inside and outside the void simultaneously. You
don't have to go anywhere or die to get there. The void
is the vacuum or nothingness between all physical manifestations.
The SPACE between atoms and their components. Modern
science has begun to study this space between everything.
They call it zero-point. Whenever they try to measure
it, their instruments go off the scale, or to infinity,
so to speak. They have no way, as of yet, to measure
infinity accurately. There is more of the zero space
in your own body and the universe than anything else!
What mystics call the void is not a void. It is so full
of energy, a different kind of energy that has created
everything that we are. Everything since the Big Bang
is vibration, from the first word, which is the first
The Biblical "I am" really has
a question mark after it: "I am? What am I?"
So creation is God exploring God's Self through every
way imaginable, in an ongoing, infinite exploration
through every one of us. Through every piece of hair
on your head, through every leaf on every tree, through
every atom, God is exploring God's Self, the great "I
am". I began to see that everything that is, is the
Self, literally, your Self, my Self. Everything is the
great Self. That is why God knows even when a leaf falls.
That is possible because, wherever you are, is the center
of the universe. Wherever any atom is, that is the center
of the universe. There is God in that, and God in the
As I was exploring the void and all
the yugas or creations, I was completely out of time
and space as we know it. In this expanded state, I discovered
that creation is about absolute pure consciousness,
or God, coming into the experience of life as we know
it. The void itself is devoid of experience. It is pre-life,
before the first vibration. Godhead is about more than
life and death. Therefore there is even more than life
and death to experience in the universe!
I was in the void and I was aware of everything that
had ever been created. It was like I was looking out
of God's eyes. I had become God. Suddenly I wasn't me
anymore. The only thing I can say, I was looking out
of God's eyes. And suddenly I knew why every atom was,
and I could see everything.
point was that I went into the void, I came back with
this understanding that God is not there. God is here.
That's what it is all about. So this constant search
of the human race to go out and find God ... God gave
everything to us, everything is here - this is where
it's at. And what we are into now is God's exploration
of God through us. People are so busy trying to become
God that they ought to realize that we are already God
and God is becoming us. That's what it is really about.
When I realized this, I was finished with the void,
and wanted to return to this creation, or yuga. It just
seemed like the natural thing to do.
I suddenly came back through the second light, or the
Big Bang, hearing several more velvet booms. I rode
the stream of consciousness back through all of creation,
and what a ride it was! The superclusters of galaxies
came through me with even more insights. I passed through
the center of our galaxy, which is a black hole. Black
holes are the great processors or recyclers of the universe.
Do you know what is on the other side of a black hole?
We are; our galaxy; which has been reprocessed from
In its total energy configuration,
the galaxy looked like a fantastic city of lights. All
energy this side of the Big Bang is light. Every sub-atom,
atom, star, planet, even consciousness itself is made
of light and has a frequency and/or particle. Light
is living stuff. Everything is made of light, even stones.
So everything is alive. Everything is made from the
light of God; everything is very intelligent.
| 6. The Light of Love
As I rode the stream on and
on, I could eventually see a huge light coming. I knew
it was the first light; the Higher Self light matrix
of our solar system. Then the entire solar system appeared
in the light, accompanied by one of those velvet booms.
I saw that the solar system we live in is our larger,
local body. This is our local body and we are much bigger
than we imagine. I saw that the solar system is our
body. I am a part of this, and the Earth is this great
created being that we are, and we are the part of it
that knows that it is. But we are only that part of
it. We are not everything, but we are that part of it
that knows that it is.
I could see all
the energy that this solar system generates, and it
is an incredible light show! I could hear the
of the Spheres. Our solar system, as do all celestial
bodies, generates a unique matrix of light, sound and
vibratory energies. Advanced civilizations from other
star systems can spot life as we know it in the universe
by the vibratory or energy matrix imprint. It is child's
play. The Earth's wonder child (human beings) make an
abundance of sound right now, like children playing
in the backyard of the universe.
the stream directly into the center of the light. I
felt embraced by the light as it took me in with its
breath again, followed by another soft sonic boom.
I was in this great light of love with the stream of
life flowing through me. I have to say again, it is
the most loving, non-judgmental light. It is the ideal
parent for this wonder child.
The light explained to me that
there is no death; we are immortal beings. We have already
been alive forever! I realized that we are part of a
natural living system that recycles itself endlessly.
I was never told that I had to come back. I just knew
that I would. It was only natural, from what I had seen.
I don't know how long I was with the light, in human
time. But there came a moment when I realized that all
my questions had been answered and my return was near.
When I say that all my questions were answered on the
other side, I mean to say just that. All my questions
have been answered. Every human has a different life
and set of questions to explore. Some of our questions
are universal, but each of us is exploring this thing
we call life in our own unique way. So is every other
form of life, from mountains to every leaf on every
And that is very important to the
rest of us in this universe. Because it all contributes
to the Big Picture, the fullness of life. We are literally
God exploring God's Self in an infinite Dance of Life.
Your uniqueness enhances all of life.
| 7. His Return to Earth
As I began my return to the
life cycle, it never crossed my mind, nor was I told,
that I would return to the same body. It just did not
matter. I had complete trust in the light and the life
process. As the stream merged with the great light,
I asked never to forget the revelations and the feelings
of what I had learned on the other side.
There was a "Yes." It felt like a kiss to my soul.
Then I was taken back through the light into the vibratory
realm again. The whole process reversed, with even more
information being given to me. I came back home, and
I was given lessons on the mechanics of reincarnation.
I was given answers to all those little questions I
"How does this work? How does that
work?" I knew that I would be reincarnated.
The Earth is a great processor of energy, and individual
consciousness evolves out of that into each one of us.
I thought of myself as a human for the first time, and
I was happy to be that. From what I have seen, I would
be happy to be an atom in this universe. An atom. So
to be the human part of God ... this is the most fantastic
blessing. It is a blessing beyond our wildest estimation
of what blessing can be. For each and every one of us
to be the human part of this experience is awesome,
and magnificent. Each and every one of us, no matter
where we are, screwed up or not, is a blessing to the
planet, right where we are.
So I went through
the reincarnation process expecting to be a baby somewhere.
But I was given a lesson on how individual identity
and consciousness evolve. So I reincarnated back into
I was so surprised when I opened
my eyes. I do not know why, because I understood it,
but it was still such a surprise to be back in this
body, back in my room with someone looking over me crying
her eyes out. It was my hospice caretaker. She had given
up an hour and a half after finding me dead. She
was sure I was dead; all the signs of death were there
- I was getting stiff. We do not know how long I was
dead, but we do know that it was an hour and a half
since I was found. She honored my wish to have my newly
dead body left alone for a few hours as much as she
could. We had an amplified stethoscope and many ways
of checking out the vital functions of the body to see
what was happening. She can verify that I really was
It was not a near-death experience.
I experienced death itself for at least an hour and
a half. She found me dead and checked the stethoscope,
blood pressure and heart rate monitor for an hour and
a half. Then I awakened and saw the light outside. I
tried to get up to go to it, but I fell out of the bed.
She heard a loud "clunk", ran in and found me on the
When I recovered, I was very surprised
and yet very awed about what had happened to me. At
first all the memory of the trip that I have now was
not there. I kept slipping out of this world and kept
asking, "Am I alive?" This world seemed more like a
dream than that one.
Within three days,
I was feeling normal again, clearer, yet different than
I had ever felt in my life. My memory of the journey
came back later. I could see nothing wrong with any
human being I had ever seen. Before that I was really
judgmental. I thought a lot of people were really screwed
up, in fact I thought that everybody was screwed up
but me. But I got clear on all that.
three months later a friend said I should get tested,
so I went and got the scans and so forth. I really felt
good, so I was afraid of getting bad news.
I remember the doctor at the clinic looking at the before
and after scans, saying, "Well, there is nothing here
I said, "Really, it must be a miracle?"
He said, "No, these things happen, they are called spontaneous
He acted very unimpressed.
But here was a miracle, and I was impressed, even if
no one else was.
| 8. The Lessons He Learned
The mystery of life has very
little to do with intelligence. The universe is not
an intellectual process at all. The intellect is helpful;
it is brilliant, but right now that is all we process
with, instead of our hearts and the wiser part of ourselves.
The center of the Earth is this great transmuter of
energy, just as you see in pictures of our Earth's magnetic
field. That's our cycle, pulling reincarnated souls
back in and through it again. A sign that you are reaching
human level is that you are beginning to evolve an individual
consciousness. The animals have a group soul, and they
reincarnate in group souls. A deer is pretty much going
to be a deer forever. But just being born a human, whether
deformed or genius, shows that you are on the path to
developing an individual consciousness. That is in itself
part of the group consciousness called humanity.
I saw that races are personality clusters. Nations like
France, Germany and China each have their own personality.
Cities have personalities, their local group souls that
attract certain people. Families have group souls. Individual
identity is evolving like branches of a fractal; the
group soul explores in our individuality. The different
questions that each of us has are very, very important.
This is how Godhead is exploring God's Self - through
you. So ask your questions, do your searching. You will
find your Self and you will find God in that Self, because
it is only the Self.
More than that, I
began to see that each one of us humans are soul mates.
We are part of the same soul fractaling out in many
creative directions, but still the same. Now I look
at every human being that I ever see, and I see a soul
mate, my soul mate, the one I have always been looking
for. Beyond that, the greatest soul mate that you will
ever have is yourself. We are each both male and female.
We experience this in the womb and we experience this
in reincarnation states. If you are looking for that
ultimate soul mate outside of yourself, you may never
find it; it is not there. Just as God is not "there."
God is here. Don't look "out there" for God. Look here
for God. Look through your Self. Start having the greatest
love affair you ever had ... with your Self. You will
love everything out of that.
I had a descent
into what you might call hell, and it was very surprising.
I did not see Satan or evil. My descent into hell was
a descent into each person's customized human misery,
ignorance, and darkness of not-knowing. It seemed like
a miserable eternity. But each of the millions of souls
around me had a little star of light always available.
But no one seemed to pay attention to it. They were
so consumed with their own grief, trauma and misery.
But, after what seemed an eternity, I started calling
out to that light, like a child calling to a parent
for help. Then the light opened up and formed a tunnel
that came right to me an insulated me from all that
fear and pain. That is what hell really is.
So what we are doing is learning to hold hands, to come
together. The doors of hell are open now. We are going
to link up, hold hands, and walk out of hell together.
The light came to me and turned into a huge golden angel.
I said, "Are you the angel of death?"
expressed to me that it was my oversoul, my Higher Self
matrix, a super-ancient part of ourselves. Then I was
taken to the light.
Soon our science will
quantify spirit. Isn't that going to be wonderful? We
are coming up with devices now that are sensitive to
subtle energy or spirit energy. Physicists use these
atomic colliders to smash atoms to see what they are
made of. They have got it down to quarks and charm,
and all that. Well, one day they are going to come down
to the little thing that holds it all together, and
they are going to have to call that ... God. With atomic
colliders they are not only seeing what is in here,
but they are creating particles. Thank God most of them
are short-lived milliseconds and nanoseconds. We are
just beginning to understand that we are creating too,
as we go along.
As I saw forever, I came
to a realm in which there is a point where we pass all
knowledge and begin creating the next fractal, the next
level. We have that power to create as we explore. And
that is God expanding itself through us.
Since my return I have experienced the light spontaneously,
and I have learned how to get to that space almost any
time in my meditation. Each one of you can do this.
You do not have to die to do this. It is within your
equipment; you are wired for it already.
The body is the most magnificent light being there is.
The body is a universe of incredible light. Spirit is
not pushing us to dissolve this body. That is not what
is happening. Stop trying to become God; God is becoming
The mind is like a child running
around the universe, demanding this and thinking it
created the world. But I ask the mind, "What did your
mother have to do with this?"
the next level of spiritual awareness. Oh! My mother! All
of a sudden you give up the ego, because you are not
the only soul in the universe.
| 9. What Is Heaven?
One of my questions to the
light was, "What is heaven?"
I was given
a tour of all the heavens that have been created: the
Nirvanas, the Happy Hunting Grounds, all of them. I
went through them. These are thought form creations
that we have created. We don't really go to heaven;
we are reprocessed. But whatever we created, we leave
a part of ourselves there. It is real, but it is not
all of the soul.
I saw the Christian heaven.
We expect it to be a beautiful place, and you stand
in front of the throne, worshipping forever. I tried
it. It is boring! This is all we are going to do? It
is childlike. I do not mean to offend anyone. Some heavens
are very interesting, and some are very boring. I found
the ancient ones to be more interesting, like the Native
American ones, the Happy Hunting Grounds. The Egyptians
have fantastic ones. It goes on and on. There are so
many of them. In each of them there is a fractal that
is your particular interpretation, unless you are part
of the group soul that believes in only the God of a
particular religion. Then you are very close, in the
same ball park together. But even then, each is a little
bit different. That is a part of yourself that you leave
there. Death is about life, not about heaven.
I asked God, "What is the best religion on the planet?
Which one is right?"
And Godhead said,
with great love:
was incredible grace. What that meant was that we are
the caring beings here.
The Ultimate Godhead
of all the stars tells us:
"It does not matter what religion you are."
They come and they go, they change. Buddhism has not
been here forever, Catholicism has not been here forever,
and they are all about to become more enlightened. More
light is coming into all systems now. There is going
to be a reformation in spirituality that is going to
be just as dramatic as the Protestant Reformation. There
will be lots of people fighting about it, one religion
against the next, believing that only they are right.
Everyone thinks they own God, the religions and philosophies,
especially the religions, because they form big organizations
around their philosophy. When Godhead said, "I don't
care," I immediately understood that it is for us to
care about. It is important, because we are the caring
beings. It matters to us and that is where it is important.
What you have is the energy equation in spirituality.
Ultimate Godhead does not care if you are Protestant,
Buddhist, or whatever. It is all a blooming facet of
the whole. I wish that all religions would realize it
and let each other be. It is not the end of each religion,
but we are talking about the same God. Live and let
live. Each has a different view. And it all adds up
to the Big Picture; it is all important.
I went over to the other side with a lot of fears about
toxic waste, nuclear missiles, the population explosion,
the rainforest. I came back loving every single problem.
I love nuclear waste. I love the mushroom cloud; this
is the holiest mandala that we have manifested to date,
as an archetype. It, more than any religion or philosophy
on Earth, brought us together all of a sudden, to a
new level of consciousness. Knowing that maybe we can
blow up the planet fifty times, or 500 times, we finally
realize that maybe we are all here together now. For
a period they had to keep setting off more bombs to
get it in to us. Then we started saying, "We do not
need this any more."
Now we are actually
in a safer world than we have ever been in, and it is
going to get safer. So I came back loving toxic waste,
because it brought us together. These things are so
big. As Peter Russell might say, these problems are
now "soul size." Do we have soul size answers? YES!
The clearing of the rain forest will slow down, and
in fifty years there will be more trees on the planet
than in a long time. If you are into ecology, go for
it; you are that part of the system that is becoming
aware. Go for it with all your might, but do not be
depressed. It is part of a larger thing.
Earth is in the process of domesticating itself. It
is never again going to be as wild a place as it once
was. There will be great wild places, reserves where
nature thrives. Gardening and reserves will be the thing
in the future. Population increase is getting very close
to the optimal range of energy to cause a shift in consciousness.
That shift in consciousness will change politics, money,
What happens when we dream? We
are multi-dimensional beings. We can access that through
lucid dreaming. In fact, this universe is God's dream.
One of the things that I saw is that we humans are a
speck on a planet that is a speck in a galaxy that is
a speck. Those are giant systems out there, and we are
in sort of an average system. But human beings are already
legendary throughout the cosmos of consciousness. The
little bitty human being of Earth/Gaia is legendary.
One of the things that we are legendary for is dreaming.
We are legendary dreamers. In fact, the whole cosmos
has been looking for the meaning of life, the meaning
of it all. And it was the little dreamer who came up
with the best answer ever. We dreamed it up. So dreams
After dying and coming back,
I really respect life and death. In our DNA experiments
we may have opened the door to a great secret. Soon
we will be able to live as long as we want to live in
this body. After living 150 years or so, there will
be an intuitive soul sense that you will want to change
channels. Living forever in one body is not as creative
as reincarnation, as transferring energy in this fantastic
vortex of energy that we are in. We are actually going
to see the wisdom of life and death, and enjoy it.
As it is now, we have already been alive forever. This
body that you are in, has been alive forever. It comes
from an unending stream of life, going back to the Big
Bang and beyond. This body gives life to the next life,
in dense and subtle energy. This body has been alive
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