|1. Introduction to Beverly
Brodsky says this about her NDE:
"In 1970, I
had a profound encounter in which I was taken into the heart
of creation, and back to the moment before the Big Bang.
My NDE taught me everything that mattered: who we are, why
we are here, and the nature of reality itself. To share
and ponder this mystery is my greatest honor and joy. Please
contact me for insight, dialog, classes, in-service instruction,
interviews, or to speak to your group."
A Vassar graduate recently retired
from 28 years of service for the Federal Government as a
business and computer analyst, Beverly has started several
spiritual businesses, including book editing. She is working
on her own book, including research culled from 15 years
of running groups in Philadelphia and San Diego associated
International Association for
Beverly is fascinated by the connection between deathbed
visions and near-death experiences, as well as their uncanny
similarity to mystical states. An international media consultant
and participant in numerous research studies, she has a
lifelong fascination with the new science that confirms
the possibility and power of transformative spiritual awakenings.
Beverly was profiled in McCall's, featured in a BBC documentary
(The Human Body), gave the first NDE interview on Israeli
public radio, and is included in the 2006 edition of Who's
Who in America.
Coordinator, San Diego
writer, and editor
Thirty-five years back
from the One Light that we are!
2. Beverly Brodsky's
Somehow an unexpected
peace descended upon me. I found myself floating on the
ceiling over the bed looking down at my unconscious body.
I barely had time to realize the glorious strangeness of
the situation - that I was me but not in my body - when
I was joined by a radiant being bathed in a shimmering white
glow. Like myself, this being flew but had no wings. I felt
a reverent awe when I turned to him; this was no ordinary
angel or spirit, but he had been sent to deliver me. Such
love and gentleness emanated from his being that I felt
that I was in the presence of the Messiah.
Whoever he was,
his presence deepened my serenity and awakened a feeling
of joy as I recognized my companion. Gently he took
my hand and we flew right through the window. I felt
no surprise at my ability to do this. In this wondrous
presence, everything was as it should be.
Beneath us lay the
beautiful Pacific Ocean ... But my attention was now directed
upward, where there was a large opening leading to a circular
path. Although it seemed to be deep and far to the
end, a white light shone through and poured out into the
gloom to the other side where the opening beckoned. It was
the most brilliant light I had ever seen, although I didn't
realize how much of its glory was veiled from the outside. The
path was angled upward, obliquely, to the right. Now still
hand in hand with the angel, I was led into the opening
of the small, dark passageway.
I then remember
traveling a long distance upward toward the light. I believe
that I was moving very fast, but this entire realm seemed
to be outside of time. Finally, I reached my destination. It
was only when I emerged from the other end that I realized
that I was no longer accompanied by the being who had brought
me there. But I wasn't alone. There, before me, was
the living presence of the light. Within it I sensed an
all-pervading intelligence, wisdom, compassion, love, and
truth. There was neither form nor sex to this perfect being. It,
which I shall in the future call he, in keeping without
our commonly accepted syntax, contained everything, as white
light contains all the colors of a rainbow when penetrating
a prism. And deep within me came an instant and wondrous
recognition: I, even I, was facing God.
I immediately lashed
out at him with all the questions I had ever wondered about;
all the injustices I had seen in the physical world. I don't
know if I did this deliberately, but I discovered that God
knows all your thoughts immediately and responds telepathically.
My mind was naked; in fact, I became pure mind. The
ethereal body which I had traveled in through the tunnel
seemed to be no more; it was just my personal intelligence
confronting that Universal Mind, which clothed itself in
a glorious, living light that was more felt that seen, since
no eye could absorb its splendor.
I don't recall the exact content
of our discussion; in the process of return, the insights
that came so clearly and fully in Heaven were not brought
back with me to Earth. I'm sure that I asked the question
that had been plaguing me since childhood about the sufferings
of my people. I do remember this: There was a reason
that happened, no matter how awful it appeared in the physical
realm. And within myself, as I was given the answer,
my own awakening mind now responded in the same manner:
"Of course," I would
think, "I already know that. How could I ever have
Indeed, it appears
that all that happens is for a purpose, and that purpose
is already known to our eternal self.
In time the questions
ceased, because I suddenly was filled with all the Being's
wisdom. I was given more than just the answers to my questions;
all knowledge unfolded to me, like the instant blossoming
of an infinite number of flowers all at once. I was filled
with God's knowledge, and in that precious aspect of his
Beingness, I was one with him. But my journey of discovery
was just beginning.
Now I was treated
to an extraordinary voyage through the universe. Instantly
we traveled to the center of stars being born, supernovas
exploding, and many other glorious celestial events for
which I have no name. The impression I have now of this
trip is that it felt like the universe is all one grand
object woven from the same fabric. Space and time are
illusions that hold us to our physical realm; out there
all is present simultaneously. I was a passenger on
a divine spaceship in which the Creator showed me the fullness
and beauty of all of his Creation.
The last thing that
I saw before all external vision ended was a glorious fire
- the core and center of a marvelous star. Perhaps this
was a symbol for the blessing that was now to come to me.
Everything faded except for a richly full void in which
That and I encompassed All that is. Here, I experienced,
in ineffable magnificence, communion with the light being. Now
I was filled with not just all knowledge, but also with
all love. It was as if the light were poured in and through
me. I was God's object of adoration; and from his/our
love I drew life and joy beyond imagining. My being was
transformed; my delusions, sins, and guilt were forgiven
and purged without asking; and now I was love, primal being,
and bliss. And, in some sense, I remain there, for
Eternity. Such a union cannot be broken. It always
was, is, and shall be.
Suddenly, not knowing
how or why, I returned to my broken body. But miraculously,
I brought back the love and the joy. I was filled with an
ecstasy beyond my wildest dreams. Here, in my body,
the pain had all been removed. I was still enthralled by
a boundless delight. For the next two months, I remained
in this state, oblivious to any pain.
I felt now as if
I had been made anew. I saw wondrous meanings everywhere;
everything was alive and full of energy and intelligence.
Although it's been
20 years since my heavenly voyage, I have never forgotten
it. Nor have I, in the face of ridicule and disbelief, ever
doubted its reality. Nothing that intense and life-changing
could possibly have been a dream or hallucination. To the
contrary, I consider the rest of my life to be a passing
fantasy, a brief dream, that will end when I again awaken
in the permanent presence of that giver of life and bliss.