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 As
a teenager,
Karen Schaeffer had several
psychic experiences often occurring in dreams. As she grew older and
life became more hectic, these experiences diminished and almost
disappeared until the pregnancy of her first child. One psychic
experience she had foretold of a horrible car accident. Her psychic
vision came true one day and it lead to her NDE. Her experience includes
an aspect that rarely appears. Karen is shown the future and is told
that she can change the outcome if she chooses which she does. Because
of this, the future she saw was averted. Her NDE is detailed in Kevin
Williams' book, Nothing Better
Than Death.
Shortly after
his birth I had the most horrific dream that I would be in a terrible car
crash that would take my life. For months I was terrified and was extremely
cautious and on the lookout for that monster vehicle. By the time my son was
7 months old, I convinced myself that it was only a dream ... nothing of
what was to come. I had a brand new teaching position, a baby, a home, my
husband to take care of ... I had put too much energy into this thing. Then
it happened.
I had left
school right away that day. I wanted to pick up my son from his grandmother
and hurry back to school to watch a baseball game. It was a picture perfect
way to spend the afternoon with my son. As I was exiting the freeway with
usual caution, I made a left-hand turn on a light that had been green for
some time. This was my lucky day I thought. Then in an instant I was gone.
 Immediately
I was in the most beautiful serene place I had ever been. My grandfather,
another person whom I had known in a previous life, and a guardian were
ready to help me with the transition. They told me of the accident, showed
me the site. It was my time to come home they said.
The
overwhelming love and happiness of that place was so inviting.
I could feel
myself becoming lighter each moment. In a fit of fear and panic I began
crying. No, I couldn't be dead. What would happen to my son? He was seven
months old! He would never remember me. His father didn't even know how to
take care of him. I didn't want him raised by his father's parents. No, no,
no ... this was not the time to go. They were wrong.
In an embrace
of love, they calmed me by showing me that my son, my entire family would be
okay after my death. My mother could lean on my grandmother. It would take
time, but she would heal. My husband, hurt, sad, and lonely would also heal
and eventually find love once again.
Death is part
of the lessons we are to learn on Earth, and my death was an important
lesson for those involved in my life. I was shown my funeral, taught how to
be near those I loved and told I could eventually communicate with those
whose spirits were open. I could accept this. They would be fine.
I was feeling
lighter all the time. But wait ... my son. I couldn't leave my son! Babies
need their mommies. I needed to be his mommy. I couldn't let go. So much
patience was shown to me - so much love.
My guides
explained that the feelings I was having were still a connection to my human
side. Once my human-ness wore off, I would feel light as air, utter
happiness, and extreme love.
Words do not
do the feelings justice. They worked to help me throw off my human weight.
The feelings were so great and seemed to pull me in stronger and stronger;
yet my connection to my son was so strong.
 We
wandered in this beautiful place for what seemed an eternity. We discussed
my life, we discussed religion, we discussed secrets of the soul that as
humans we must forget, lest we'd never be able to thrive on Earth. All the
while I was in awe. Some things were just as I always dreamed an afterlife
would be; some I was just plain wrong and I remember thinking, "Wow." Where
were my other loved ones? When could I see my other grandparents who had
passed? In time - they were on a different realm. When my transition was
complete I could choose to go to other levels when I was ready.
Every now and
then thoughts of my son would make me heavy once again. I couldn't bear the
thought of him growing up without a mother. I was told others would be a
mother for me. First grandparents, and then they showed me Jake's life. He
was the most beautiful boy, so happy, but with a touch of sadness that
seemed to pierce his soul. This was his lesson to tackle. He knew coming
into this life the main lessons he was to learn. It was meant to be. I saw a
new mom for Jake when he was about 7 or 8. A beautiful woman, kind hearted
who definitely cared for Jake, and treated him well, but she was to have her
own child with my widowed husband and the love she showed for her own child
was different and unequal to the love she showed for my child - her
stepchild. This isn't what I dreamed for Jake. This couldn't be. I was happy
for my husband. He was okay. He was happy. My son was a different story.
Other lessons were learned in the constant-patient job of transitioning me
to the other side. I had to let go. At times I became hysterical and then
moments later I was calm and serene.
I saw a girl
child who had been meant in Jake's place, but before conception, plans
changed and there was a need for Jake's spirit to take her place. There was
much upheaval that Jake could help mend [and he did].
At a time
when I felt the closest to accepting my death, I experienced a resurge of
sorrow and pain, longing for my son, for my life. I couldn't let go of my
human life. My guides tried their hardest. They never gave up. They never
became discouraged. It is unbelievable the amount of patience and love they
exuded. Finally, my hysteria was calmed by a higher spirit who seemed to
envelop me in love. My guides were instructed to allow me to return. Despite
their pleas to allow them more time, they were told that at this point, my
spirit would not rest. It was best to let me return, to settle my spirit,
learn further lessons. My pleading won my return for the time being. I
understood before my descent that my friends and family had lessons that
were being postponed, but they would have to learn the lessons at some point
that my death taught.
Arrangements
were made for when, where, how my spirit would return; what lessons were I
to have enriched or acquire new. Some lessons learned in my arrival on the
other side would have to be forgotten, and it was not good for my soul to
know when I was dying again or else as a human I would focus on only that,
especially as the time neared.
The last
things I remember were being taken back to the accident site, and just
before my descent, I was told that when my children were older it would be
time to come home for good. I accepted it immediately, but then, wait! What
qualifies as older? Does it mean only a few years older? Teenagers? Will I
live to see them marry and have their own children? This was a difficult
aspect to deal with immediately after the accident.
I had a life
with my son again. I had to spend it right for I had no idea how much longer
I had left.
 I
was told I was lucky to survive. A large utility truck ran a red light and
hit the driver's side of my tiny compact car. Despite wearing a seatbelt,
the doctors say I would not have survived if it were not for the airbags to
open, something that is not supposed to happen in a side impact.
The
first year after the accident was an attempt to live the best I
could, the happiest I could. I was suffering however from severe
pain from a fractured shoulder bone, broken ribs, and two hip
fractures. I was told the pain should disappear in six months to a
year at the worst. Three years later, the pain has not gone away.
The second year however seemed to be the worst. I became so
suicidal. All I wanted to do was to return to this place, this life
that was so awesome, so love-filled, so joyous. My son, and later my
daughter were the only things that made me go on. I was here for
them. Today, only three years later I have accepted my return to
Earth, long to return to my afterlife home, and struggle to find
peace and happiness until my time here comes to its final end.
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