just read on your website about the LSD near-death
experience. I have been researching for a long time
on this subject because I had a very similar experience
about 5 months ago when I bad tripped on 800 micrograms
of LSD. I think you might be interested in knowing
It's crazy how you can
just loose control over everything. I got a heart
attack because I couldn't handle what was happening
to me. It was sheer paranoia - confusion to the
extent of not being able to take out words from
my mouth to speak. Turning into a heart attack I
choked until I died and for 1 minute I was dead.
It's like I did it to myself.
When I was going to go,
I knew I was going to go, and I was holding on so
tight. But then I couldn't take it anymore and I
gave up. I had been seeing colors around me for
hours before that, due to the acid of course, and
they started spinning faster and faster. The air
around me and the voice in my head started spinning
faster and faster. I could feel it, hear it, and
see it. All the colors fused together to become
this white light. When I died it was so strange.
I didn't want to go but I was so exhausted by the
experience I just let go.
I felt this 10 foot big
man carrying me up some stairs. I felt as light
as a feather. I thought I was going to heaven but
when I finally opened my eyes I was back in the
room, alive, with my friend sitting beside me. But
then I thought I was dead. I didn't know I was alive.
I got a glimpse of hell which you cannot imagine.
It's nothing like what people say it is. It's all
about repetition of your fears. I was on acid, so
what I saw was strange. In reality of my sight,
I saw my friend kill me again and again and again
and again, forever. But the truth was that I was
afraid that the only people I trusted would go against
me and try and harm me. That was my greatest fear
I guess, and death of course. So that's what happened.
That's what hell's about.
Well I do not know whether
what I saw actually happens after death or if it's
just something we have to go through to understand
life better when we are not learning, eradicating
our fears, and bringing us knowledge. But what I
think hell, heaven, and alternate realities are
all in this planet, its just the way you perceive
them and after you die, you don't go anywhere near
these realities. That's what I think. That's what
I hope. What saved me from that experience was when
I saw the same friend (the one I thought who was
trying to kill me) cry, I felt love, trust and compassion
for him. That's how I came back - because of love.
Love saved my life and that's how I got back to
what everyone else calls reality. An experience
like that would drive people mad forever, but I
got back, and today I am struggling to figure out
what's going on. I am getting there. I did acid
to figure out everything about life, to get knowledge
and I got too much. So it's time for registration.
I agree with the person who wrote about their experience
that God is love, because the love inside of me