story began on January 15, 1995. I was 22 when I was shot
in the head at close point range in my home. I was shot
by my ex-boyfriend who held the gun, which we thought was
unloaded, carelessly near my head. As he fidgeted with the
trigger of the 9mm Rueger in his hand it went off. The bullet
entered my right ear, traveled through my neck and came
out of the left side of my neck and back into my shoulder
blade and exited out from under my left arm. It all happened
so quickly but I was alert through the whole ordeal.
Everything was in
slow motion to me and I was in no pain. I had heard a loud
bang go through my head as I fell over. To my boyfriend,
I was dead. I had seen him through my eyes and blacked out.
When my vision came
to, I saw him on the phone explaining that I had been shot.
With all my might and strength, I tried to reach out to
him to him to tell him I was ok. It felt as if a hundred
pounds of weights were keeping each of my arms down, but
I saw myself lift up to him.
(He explained to
me later I never once moved and I was cold and lips were
blue. I feel as if this was an out-of-body experience.)
I blacked out once
again. At first I was telling myself, "Oh my God! I've been
shot! Is this what its like to be dead? Will I be able to
see through my eyes what they do to me until I have my funeral?"
Yet, at the same time, I felt so at peace and somber with
myself. I felt as if I no longer had any worries. Everything
I had worried so much about was so minor. My outlook at
life from this point felt so different. I knew I was somewhere
else without my body and floating upwards.
I never saw a light
but I saw the silhouette of others. I felt such a presence
around me and so much love. I couldn't believe this was
happening to me.
Then I saw the silhouette
of a hand come to me and turned me around. I felt the soft
touch on my soul that had pushed me away. At that moment,
I felt as if I was falling at the speed of light and into
I gasped for air
as if it were my first breath ever. I had been in shock
and kicked myself around but the paramedics held me down.
They saved my life. In my condition they couldn't tell how
many times I had been shot. Though, little did they know
it was just one bullet that had traveled through me.
It's a miracle that
I'm here today. I wasn't expected to live and was told I
would be a vegetable. I was in a coma for 5 days. I had
suffered a mild stroke and was paralyzed on the right side
of my body and face and couldn't turn my neck. I was told
I wouldn't hear from my right ear or ever speak again due
to my damaged vocal cords and airway. I had to be fed through
a stomach tube for over 3 months and depended on a trach
to breath. I had to learn to walk, talk, eat and do everything
all over again as if I were a child. It's a miracle and
the doctors couldn't explain how I survived at all. Looking
at me now, no one could ever tell what had happened to me.
The only problem I have is a few scares and I lost one vocal
cord. But I'm truly grateful for what I have.
I hope my story can help others
understand the NDE and the outcomes of it. My life changed
dramatically and I'm always looking for ways to help others
achieve there goals through the struggle of a tragedy they
may have suffered. There is so much more I could explain
and I wish I could do more but I'm unsure of how much you
would need to know.