was more universal. I had never ever heard of "White
Light," etc. Had always been a devout Catholic, heaven,
purgatory, hell, etc. were fundamental stereotypes in my
mind, but this experience was nothing like I had (at that
time) ever heard of.
When I died I did
not see any person or thing, not even my own body, but experienced
being ONE with Light, with God, and being "you"
and you being "me." In fact, I became everyone,
individually and collectively! I knew all thoughts that
had ever been thought or will be thought and were being
thought. (Wish I could remember them now, back here in/on
I went from the
point of time where I am/was now/then and went through the
end of time all the way back through the beginning of time,
then back into the present time, then where I had started.
It lasted forever and was over in an instant. What a paradox.
It was all ultimate Joy beyond any depth of feeling that
I had ever had before or since -- and gave me a sense of,
that life is a joyful game to be played and that everything
will work out perfectly O.K.-- sooner, if played joyfully
well, with love ... and later if not.
With trust and love,
we win the game.
I found that God
is indeed love, and experienced being one with that love.
When I went into that experience, it was like, "Of course!!!!
How could I not have seen this all along!" It was so clear,
the reality in this experience made my life on Earth seem
like a fuzzy slow moving dumb dream in comparison. It was
much more sharply real than Earth life. And - It was like
going Home! I felt so nostalgic for it and was so glad to
be back! And I knew that I had been through this experience
many times before and would go through it again. All fear
of death evaporated and I knew that every struggle on Earth
is worth it ... it's part of the game.