age eleven, I was booked into hospital for a tonsillectomy.
As a result of either negligence (a massive dose of the
anesthetic was administered by mistake) or the hospital's
version - she was allergic to the anesthetic (scholine or
curare), I had a cardiac arrest on the operating table and
was pronounced clinically dead. My hospital records show
that I was clinically dead for four minutes. I was in a
coma for four days in the ICU. When I awoke I had no memory
of what had happened.
years, I wore an "Allergic to Scholine and Curare"
pendant around my neck, which turned out to be untrue, because
when I had my son (when I was 26), much testing was done
and I was not allergic to these anesthetics. The new hospital
claimed that you can not grow out of an allergy for which
the reaction is a cardiac arrest (big mystery - hey?).
when I was at home and under "extreme" stress, where I felt
that my head was going to explode. I lay down on my bed
and started to do some muscle relaxing techniques in order
to calm down. I was fully awake. After a short while, I
could no longer physically feel my body (any part of it,
including my head). I felt like I was floating, that I was
outside of my body. I had my eyes closed. Then suddenly
this bright light was in front of me. It was huge, bright
white light, but it did not hurt to look at. In fact it
was restful to look at. It engulfed me with calmness and
love and yet it did not touch me. I just looked at it for
'came back' to reality. I opened my eyes and bolted upright.
I knew without any doubt that:
The bright light was God
I remembered my NDE from when I was eleven years old. To
this day, I KNOW that this is what it was. I know that the
two experiences were one and the same.
has this had on my life? Much. But I have been surrounded
with extremely stressful situations (especially in the last
five years) since that time. Most people have said to me
that they would have not been able to cope. Yet, I seem
to be able to cope with anything/everything, because I feel
that light is inside of me, protecting me from harm, and
coping with me. I have this feeling of fearlessness. I certainly
have no fear of death.
that there is one God - who is the light of love. I believe
the light could be the Christian God, the Muslim God, the
Hindu God, the Jewish God, the Buddhist God and I believe
it does not matter. I also have a strong faith in reincarnation
and that it is written in all faiths.