had found LOVE! I watched my spirit leave my body and release
itself from this world of flesh.
I could see myself
traveling through a tunnel of light that was a freedom.
It is hard to describe in physical terms. I was moving freely
at a high rate of speed, like a bird. Ahead the light became
brighter and brighter until it overtook the darkness and
left me feeling like I was in a fairy tale of brilliant
light. This was the brightest light I had ever seen. But
in spite of that, unlike the pain one might feel when walking
into sunlight from a dark room, this light was complete
love and soft to my eyes.
It was everything
all at once: love, freedom, release, and the oneness of
all that we are.
Suddenly I was in
the presence of powerful spirits and love. I could feel
them comforting me and preparing me for what was to come.
Their love was that of complete serenity.
Then there was,
off to my left, the source of all power. A powerful Being
of Light was in front of me. As I gazed into its essence,
I could see all shades of color as if a rainbow had exploded.
I thought I was hugged with such a powerful source of love.
Like a child held in its mother's arms.
I felt comfortable
in its presence - a knowingness that made me believe this
energy had felt every feeling I had ever had. Looking at
this being, I had the feeling that no one could love me
more. No one could have more empathy, sympathy, encouragement,
and non-judgmental compassion for me than this being. This
being Was Love!
The source that
was before me knew the pain I had experienced - knew that
I wanted nothing more then to help others.
It was there that
the source of God communicated with me. The communication
was not the way that you and I communicate here on this
planet - but that of power - the knowingness of communication
I could hear everything
through the senses. Spirits whom had lived with me in the
flesh and had passed on before me were there to comfort
and love me, as well as a group of spirits, guides and teachers
whom all had been there with me to complete my journey and
purpose for being on the planet.
Suddenly I was told
by the strongest source of energy and love, that I had much
work to still do on Earth. That I had not yet finished my
purpose. That I was being given the choice of destruction
or that of my dreams and goals - my purpose.
I was then shown
what I can describe today as my life review - everything
that I had experienced in my life as a human up until that
point - what I now believe to be what the Bible speaks of
as Judgment Day. It is not the brim and fire that seems
scary in the Bible, but that of an experience of you judging
you. The reliving of all your choices, love, hate, anger,
infliction on others. The difference is that, in those moments
that you created pain for others, you relive it as if you
were inside them. You feel what it was like to feel the
pain from their eyes.
I was then given
what seemed like a time of reflection on the events of my
life - some time to decide which choice to make.
I was then told
that I was being given the choice to stay or to be given
a second chance to complete my purpose. I was told that
my purpose was a big mission. I was then told that I was
being given a blessing to be shown what I had not yet finished.
At this point, I
could feel this group of beings eliminate or pull from me
the negative energy of my life in the physical world and
fill me with love beyond what I can describe. I remember
the scene was shown to me in a fairy tale city and setting
- somewhat like I had always wished for in my life while
alive. It was so beautiful. How could I not try? She was
so kind and beautiful. I could feel her heart.
At this point, I
watched a future that began to pass before my eyes as if
it were a movie made to describe a fairytale and all that
the princess ever wished for was granted. I was told that
I was meant to lead - that I was a healer sent to Earth
to pave the way for others to live. I was shown a movie
of a woman who came to Earth to help people find their own
individual greatness. She would become very well known in
life for helping people to discover their own uniqueness,
movies, TV, publishing, changing the idea of how the world
looks at women, opening up spiritual schools for children,
helping the world to understand death, the importance of
our internal power. I would become a trendsetter, travel
to third world countries and open up humanitarian foundations
for the homeless and people in tragedy and need.
My greatest creations
would be that of opening healing centers for women and children.
I would speak all over the world to large groups of people
on topics like anorexia, bulimia, drug abuse, sobriety,
and how to discover that unique power within.
This whole time,
I was comforted by the enormous love of the other beings.
The spirit of my grandmother was also there. When she was
alive, during the last year of her life in physical form,
I had been afraid of her. I watched her go from a beautiful
woman into a lifeless skeleton. She had died of lung cancer.
During her last days, I was afraid to be around her, because
she was not the woman I had known. She was frail and scary
looking. After her death I had dreams for along time, as
if she were haunting me. At twelve years old, I had to sleep
with my parents. I was sure she was haunting me for me being
afraid of her. In my moment of awakening, she was there
too. She communicated this memory to me by sharing with
me her reason for being there. My grandmother's spirit shared
with me that she was watching over me and protecting me.
The next vision
the beings showed me was that of a man who was part of my
life during these days of darkness. His name was Phil. I
was told that I was to share with Phil the possibilities
that would happen in his own life. Phil was given the same
choice as I here in the physical world.
I was then shown
why we are all here. We are here to experience the human
experience. I was told if it were religion, we would all
be hoping the religion we chose was the right one. We are
not here to kill each other. We are here to help each other
rise to the higher level of love.
I was told I would
leave a lasting impression on the world that the world would
My whole life I
was taught that sin and Satan was going to come get me if
I did something bad. I was told that the sin and Satan we
live is that of our own creation. That we are the true essence
of God. That we are God creating God. "Ye are Gods." God
lives within us and through us. God experiences it all,
right along with us. This is called "free will."
The greatest gift we were ever given was to create our own
reality. To experience the biggest, grandest version of
Teach the world
to play. Teach them to rediscover the children in themselves.
Teach the children to love each other and find the power
of using their unique greatness together.
I obviously chose
to try again. I heard in my head that I had made the promise
to return and share with the world my story. I was told
to tell. I also remember the beings continuously spoke to
me through the words "I AM."
The last thing that
happened was when I watched my spirit descend back into
my body. I could suddenly see myself lying on my bed. I
could feel a light coming through the window that was so
powerful beyond words. As I watched my spirit return to
this body on the bed. I could hear the last words spoken
"You must help the
world to understand that they must give of themselves freely
without expecting and love is all there is!"
"For love is stronger
than death; ardent love is as unrelenting as Sheol.
Love's flames are fiery flames - the fiercest of
all. Mighty waters cannot extinguish love; rivers
cannot sweep it away." - Song of Songs 8:6-7
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