I had my first near-death
experience when I was a child, perhaps two or
three. This would be about 1953. It involved
me drowning. My memories of it were of seeing
my body below me. I remember seeing a bright,
warm, loving orb above me. I panicked Dad and
Mom below. I didn't know it was anything to
talk about and no one would have believed me.
It never was a thing I felt I had to relate.
Then in 1971... I
had been knifed with a stiletto that severed
an artery above my liver. I remember looking
up and seeing a light. I then looked down at
my body and then I was confronted by at least
two beings. They were human in appearance and
they seemed to float in midair. I realized I
was far above my body and not in any earthly
space. The beings tried to keep me from going
to the light. I don't know why, they just seemed
terrified and didn't want me to go. But I did.
I shot up like an arrow through what can only
be described as a tunnel.
I saw the tunnel
as a peripheral blur of stars and I saw a loving
light before me. Then I stopped. I was there
with this orb of glowing love and understanding.
It didn't seem foreign to me. It was not frightening.
It was totally assuring and there was no feeling
of anything but my awe and the love and knowledge
and wisdom this orb projected. In size, it would
be not like looking at the sun, but looking
at the earth when you are on it. It was immense
and total, and its power was love.
I felt a presence
next to me, a man, and he asked if I was ready
for my life review. I said yes. All of this
not a verbal thing, but just a knowledge. Then
I saw something like an HO scale train set below,
a city. I went to this city and I went through
my life. I went through every moment and every
feeling. I was not afraid as I was still in
the light. I talked with the man about my life.
But I do not remember any specifics.
I then remember standing,
as it where, in the light of the Orb of love.
I felt the goodness and love and knowledge of
it. My mind was in a state of deep, deep, concentration
I then went to twelve
beings of greater knowledge. They were in front
of me and stood in a row. They were not human.
They had no feelings of anything like judgment
or authority, but seemed strong in themselves.
They seemed taller than I did and they wore
silver white robes. They had white skin, large
heads and large eyes. I do not remember them
having a mouth. Above them was a spirit. It
was like a star as we see one from earth, but
in size it appeared the same size as the heads
of the beings. The spirit went to my left and
hovered above the first being. I remember it
was like a video of knowledge springing from
the being’s hands, which were held in front
Each being had something
to relate. They opened the knowledge they had
when the spirit moved above them. The last told
me what I could do if I came back and the significance
of it. I only remember seeing young man with
his head back in pain as if his neck was injured.
I said, "Oh! Aaron! My son!" They said, "No,
not that son." And I realized whom they meant.
(In 1978, my only other child was born a son).
Then I made the decision
to come back to earth. And I remember it was
such a hard decision. It was so difficult because
everything there was so beautiful and there
was so, so, much love. I had the feeling of
freewill, yet a feeling of duty was present
- of obligation. And the second I realized that
I shot back into my body.
After two near-death
experiences and having studied many NDEs, I
am convinced there is order to the experience.
I do get angry when
people come to conclusions about the near-death
experience because they think it is not orderly
and therefore find it to be a part of our imaginative
minds. For the ones that have not heard this,
At any given microsecond, you may return to
your body. You have a trauma of some kind making
you leave your body. You might feel a vibration.
You might feel nothing, except that you are
suddenly out of your body.
Nobody remembers every single detail and the
meaning to it while having an NDE.
So, now you are out
of your body you may look down and see your
body. You may take off for another room or zip
back into your body. You may go into the void.
This is the home of many a grim story. See,
after death you may end up quite stuck in this
void. It lacks one thing: love. It is the hell
the Pope just figured out. It is not being of
love, not recognizing it. Those who are stuck
there may frighten you by just being or by intentional
gestures to frighten you. They are stuck and
they are confused and they will put the "HELL"
Beyond this point your soul must
be convinced your body is dead.
See, sometimes things
happen which doesn't cause death. I mean we
all ultimately live to tell of NDEs, but we
must be convinced the body business is behind
us to go further.
So, there you are
outside the body. Now those who love you might
show up. They do so for a couple reasons. One,
they may want you to stay, that is, go back
to your body. Or they may want you to think
of love. I just love the way George Rodonaia
said it. While describing the void, he said
that he thought, "I am, and if I am, why for
not can I be happy?" And he was. Then he thought,
"If I am, and I can be happy, why for not then
can I feel love?" And he did. You see, the way
out of the void is simple. You must think of
Now if you are a
Christian and you think of Jesus and you see
Jesus as love, then you will be thinking of
love and to think of love. To recognize it as
a reality, that is the key to getting out of
the void. Now, you are in the void and you think
of love and you are love and you will see love,
just a speck, but you will concentrate on it
and then you will connect with it. This connection
is called the tunnel. It is a pathway to the
I recently heard
someone talking about taking some sugar and
some water and mixing them together. The sugar
would disappear and the water would become sugar
water. But in time the water would evaporate
and the sugar would remain as sugar and the
water would turn to vapor. The point was that
the sugar had the memory of the water and the
water the memory of the sugar. As I thought
this out, I tried to think how to explain it
better. Being of a scientific background, I
thought, "Okay, let's put the sugar and water
together in a test tube. Let's mix them. Then
to speed things up, let's add heat, which makes
vibrations and causes the water to turn to vapor.
But wait. Let's put a rubber stopper in the
test tube and a glass tube leading to another
test tube. That would allow the water to reestablish
itself as water in the other tube." You see,
then you have water with a memory of the sugar
and the sugar with the memory of the water.
You also have a very good model to explain how
to get out of the void. As the tube concentrates
the water, so the tunnel concentrates the spirit.
Now, many things
can happen in the tunnel. Say for instance you
get depressed and you gobble down too many pills.
You would choke if not for the washing of booze
you gave them. You might end up in the tunnel
off to the side where you are requested to think.
So you sit there thinking. Some other soul would
pass right on by that, not notice, or may notice.
Things, earthy problems can be worked out there,
out of the void and in the tunnel. Ultimately
though, if you don't return to your body, you
zip right past all this and end up at a point
that you may refer later to the end of the tunnel.
It may be though that you are in one of the
rooms of the tunnel or zones. There you see
a garden, a river, a gate, and someone will
appear to help you decide whether you should
go on or think a while or talk or be reassured
enough to return to your body. But, go through
the gate or over the river past the decision
to go back or stay and think, and you end up
at the end of the tunnel. There at the end of
the tunnel is the Creator.
If you make it to the end of the tunnel you
will feel more love and acceptance and wisdom
and knowledge and understanding than you ever
have. And you will remember it. And you will
not leave it out of your description of your
experience. There you are and there is love
- overwhelming, pure, beautiful love. Now let's
not forget Rule 1, that you may at any time
zip right back into your body! You should begin
now to see why there are so may "different"
descriptions of the NDE: because a person may
go only to a given point and the description
of what they saw will be limited to that level.
So, now you are there
in front of the Creator, and you might well
see your Higher Self. You will then go through
a life review. You do this in the light of the
love of the Creator. In this love, you see all
you have done wrong and right and the effects
of it and you are unafraid because the Creator's
love is there. There is nothing but the truth.
That accomplished, you may (Rule 1) zip back
into your body. You may then do whatever you
think you need to and those descriptions vary.
One consistent theme is that you have spirits
to help you. I, as Dannion Brinkley did, had
twelve "spirits" giving forth information about
the past, the present and the future. They may
help you decide to stay or go back to earth.
Once the decision is made, zipppppp, you're