had a near-death experience over 4 years ago. It
was in 1999. It was a couple of days before my 20th
birthday. I took an overdose of barbiturates on
a cold autumn night in April beneath a city building.
After I finished taking
the pills, I went to sleep. I felt this tugging
at me. It was really warm and sensual, like something
touching me very softly and very warm.
I felt this incredible euphoria.
I felt like a feather floating from place to place.
There was this orange
glow. It was like a sunset but a wide bright orange
sunset and there was this coolness like a breeze
blowing past me.
The next thing I knew,
I was in this tropical paradise and there were these
tourists walking around.
There I was sitting in this
cafe that was shaded with palms and bamboo rafters.
I felt this cool moist
misty breeze. It was like that misty air you get
when someone is spraying the hose and you are in
I was talking to this
man who said that it wasn't time for me to go down
to the beach. I wanted to go to the beach but this
man told me that it wasn't the right time yet. He
The misty breeze got a
bit cooler and I was swept off my feet.
Next, I am in the local
city hospital, lying there.
The following day, I started
vomiting because they pumped my guts out to remove
the toxins from inside. I felt weird. Everyone said
I had been unconscious and in a critical condition
but everything was going to be okay.
Well, that day ended and
I was whisked off to the psychiatric unit that night.
I'm wondering if heaven
lies in the oceans.