had a near-death experience in 1989 from a suicide
attempt. I was in a psychiatric hospital and I hung
myself. Well, to be honest, it happened after I
came out of the coma I was in. Very short and simple
message that has had a profound effect on me.
I woke up strapped down
in four points. I didn't understand why, so I asked
the nurse why was I strapped down like this. He
told me I hung myself, and I laid back thinking,
"Oh no. Now what is my boyfriend going to think
of me now?" At the time I was dating a very mean
All of the sudden the
room exploded with millions upon millions of diamond
like objects, each with a rainbow inside each of
them, and the most incredible love, a love beyond
any description I can think of, it filled the room.
I then heard a male voice
say to me, "Who cares what he thinks! I have given
you your life back to you, this is my gift to you,
go forward and live your life to its fullest."
It is as real now as it
was then, and I get chills all through my body just
thinking of it today.
I am writing today because
of a concern of what is going on very recently,
and have many people concerned with me.
I am used to strange things
happening and I view it as normal. However, recently
these experiences are becoming apparent to others,
which is unusual, and to be honest, it is downright
scaring them to death, no pun intended.
It would appear that when
I am near any type of electrical anything, it is
affected. At least that is what it seems to me and
everyone else. TVs turn on and off, change channels
by themselves, have messages appear on them, lights
blow out, computers blow up, blackouts in the room
I am in, microwaves turn on by themselves, etc.
To me, I am not scared
in the least. I just ask the Spirits to please leave
them alone or turn them back on -- whatever. Now,
because I live with other people and they see this
happening on an on-going basis, it is scaring them
into believing that I have a "Poltergeist" or something
weird like that.
I have tried to explain
to them that it is okay, that there are no Evil
Spirits around, or that I am not evil myself, and
that it is just that they (the Spirits) like to
do this with me. But it is of no comfort to them,
and to try to explain even more only scares them
more, so I just quit trying to explain.
Is there anything you
could tell me that I could tell them that would
make them feel a bit at ease?
Oh yeah, is this common
among other NDEs? How about hearing my name being
called out when no one is around? Someone sitting
on my bed? Tapping on the windows? Things being
moved around? I am quite sure you have heard this
before, but this is happening so much now, what
am I to do? Do I answer them?
Roberta, it is widely known in NDE circles that
experiencers return and discover that watches no
longer work when they wear them. Electrical and
electronic things go haywire around them. NDE researchers
speculate that NDEs can dramatically change a person's
electromagnetic energy field around them - aura
if you will - such that they have these kind of
electromagnetic things happen. You probably also
have become psychic and this too can be an unusual
thing for NDErs. There are some excellent pages
on the internet about this on the
Also, because I am manic
depressive, I know what these intense suicidal thoughts
are like. One of my passions in life is to help
people understand depression and suicide, and to
dispel the myths surrounding them which have been
around for a long time, especially the religious
myth about suicide being a one-way ticket to hell.
At some point in my NDE research I became flustered
about all the nonsense concerning suicide and how
it relates to NDEs and religion. I have received
heartbreaking emails from people about a loved one
who committed suicide and their added burden of
this religious fallacy gnawing at them about the
possibility of their loved one burning in hell for
eternity. NDE research overwhelming provides evidence
that it is not
we die that determines our afterlife circumstances;
it is how we have lived
our entire life.