Various Near-Death Experience Research
are the comments and near-death
experiences of others who attempted
suicide and are profiled on other web
pages on this website. I wanted to
create this page to consolidate all the
experiences caused by a suicide attempt.
You will find these experiencers to be
heavenly (like most are) and a
relatively few experiences that are
less-than-positive. These experiences
are more proof that suicide NDEs are
mostly no different than other
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Helen's Suicide Near-Death Experience
In Jean Ritchie's excellent
she has documented the suicide attempts and subsequent
near-death experiences of a woman named Helen. Her
near-death experiences demolish the myths held by
many religious people that suicide and homosexuality
are one-way tickets to hell. Although today Helen
is very comfortable with the fact that she is a
lesbian, coping with it has not always been easy.
By the time she was seventeen, she was drinking
heavily and experimenting with drugs. Over the years,
her problems greatly escalated which led her to
decide to take her own life. After writing suicide
notes and taking an overdose of pills and drink,
Helen was rushed to a hospital in very serious condition.
Her heart stopped four times, she learned later
from the medical staff. The following is her experience.
I remember clearly floating
up above myself, and looking down on my body. It
was connected to numerous machines. I could see
the drip and the oxygen mask. I could see the doctors
working to restart my heart with electronic pads.
I could see that my parents were there. It felt
very peaceful, much better than where I had been
before. I was bathed in warmth and light, and the
calm was almost tangible. I felt it was up to me
to decide where I wanted to be, up there or back
in my body, but the peace was so overwhelming that
I knew I wanted to stay.
And then I was in a small
supermarket, floating between the aisles. It was
like any ordinary supermarket, with shelves loaded
with goods. My grandmother, who died when I was
very young, was at the checkout, and so was my auntie.
I knew without anyone telling me that it was my
auntie, my mum's sister, although she had died of
a brain hemorrhage before I was born. They were
beckoning to me to go to them, but through the plate-glass
window I could see my parents and my immediate family,
also beckoning and urging me to hurry.
[The next thing Helen
remembers is waking from her coma with the oxygen
mask pressing on her face and causing some pain.
She felt regret at having left the peace behind.
Helen's second near-death experience came a couple
of years after the first, after another suicide
attempt. This time she took pills and tried to swallow
bleach. Her partner found her and called an ambulance.]
I was drifting in and
out of consciousness, more out than in, but I remember
being wheeled from the flat on a stretcher. Again,
I floated above and could look down and see two
men carrying the stretcher, and I felt secure and
safe in the knowledge that I was walking away from
all the chaos of my life. Again, I felt it was my
decision to walk away. Then I remember a very powerful
force pulling me towards a serene, very beautiful
realm, a higher realm. I traveled very slowly along
a tunnel toward a bright light, and I could feel
an overwhelming sense of warmth and peace and whiteness.
I wanted to walk into the whiteness, which was so
tranquil and happy. It was like stepping into a
vacuum, there was nothing tangible, no scenery to
look at, but a tremendous feeling of being somewhere,
like nirvana. I felt okay, as though this was where
I was meant to be, as if I had arrived home, and
I was at ease with myself for the first time in
a long time.
I also felt at one with
the forces of the universe, as though I was part
of something much much bigger, and yet I was also
the whole of it. It was a tremendously powerful
feeling, and such a contrast to the despair and
depression that had led me there.
[This second time Helen
did not see any relatives, and although she experienced
the same sense of there being an element of choice
in whether or not she returned to life or continued
in that lovely place, she did not feel any panic
when she awoke in the hospital a few days later.]
I knew I had not wanted
to relinquish the good feelings the place had given
me, but at the same time I did not feel regret at
returning. This time, the experience seemed to give
me strength. I felt refreshed.
[Helen was told by hospital
staff that she was lucky to have survived. Her
two near-death experiences have taken away any fear
she may have had of death, and she now anticipates
that when it comes she will once again experience
those feelings of peace and tranquility. She does
not believe that her near-death experiences encouraged
her to make more suicide attempts: suicide, she
says, is born of despair with this world, not a
hankering after the peace and serenity of the next.
Eventually, Helen was able to beat her alcohol and
drug addiction. She is back with her partner, studying
for a master's degree and doing volunteer work.]
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Elisabeth Kubler-Ross' Suicide Near-Death Research
My most dramatic and unforgettable
case of "ask and you will be given," and also of a
near-death experience, was a man who was in the
process of being picked up by his entire family
for a Memorial Day weekend drive to visit some relatives
out of town. While driving in the family van to
pick him up, his parents-in-law with his wife and
eight children were hit by a gasoline tanker. The
gasoline poured over the car and burned his entire
family to death. After being told what happened,
this man remained in a state of total shock and
numbness for several weeks. He stopped working and
was unable to communicate. To make a long story
short, he became a total bum, drinking half-a-gallon
of whisky a day, trying heroin and other drugs to
numb his pain. He was unable to hold a job for any
length of time and ended up literally in the gutter.
It was during one of my
hectic traveling tours, having just finished the
second lecture in a day on life after death, that
a hospice group in Santa Barbara asked me to give
yet another lecture. After my preliminary statements,
I became aware that I am very tired of repeating
the same stories over and over again. And I quietly
said to myself:
"Oh God, why don't you send me somebody
from the audience who has had a near-death
experience and is willing to share it with
the audience so I can take a break? They
will have a first-hand experience instead
of hearing my old stories over and over
At that very moment the organizer
of the group gave me a little slip of paper with
an urgent message on it. It was a message from a
man from the bowery who begged to share his near-death
experience with me. I took a little break and sent
a messenger to his bowery hotel. A few moments later,
after a speedy cab ride, the man appeared in the
audience. Instead of being a bum as he had described
himself, he was a rather well dressed, very sophisticated
man. He went up on the stage and without having
a need to evaluate him, I encouraged him to tell
the audience what he needed to share.
told how he had been looking forward to the weekend
family reunion, how his entire family had piled
into a family van and were on the way to pick him
up when this tragic accident occurred which burned
his entire family to death. He shared the shock
and the numbness, the utter disbelief of suddenly
being a single man, of having had children and suddenly
becoming childless, of living without a single close
relative. He told of his total inability to come
to grips with it. He shared how he changed from
a money-earning, decent, middle-class husband and
father to a total bum, drunk every day from morning
to night, using every conceivable drug and trying
to commit suicide in every conceivable way, yet
never able to succeed. His last recollection was
that after two years of literally bumming around,
he was lying on a dirt road at the edge of a forest,
drunk and stoned as he called it, trying desperately
to be reunited with his family. Not wanting to live,
not even having the energy to move out of the road
when he saw a big truck coming toward him and running
It was at this moment that he watched
himself in the street, critically injured, while
he observed the whole scene of the accident from
a few feet above. It was at this moment that his
family appeared in front of him, in a glow of light
with an incredible sense of love. They had happy
smiles on their faces, and simply made him aware
of their presence, not communicating in any verbal
way but in the form of thought transference, sharing
with him the joy and happiness of their present
This man was not able to tell
us how long this reunion lasted. He was so awed
by his family's health, their beauty, their radiance
and their total acceptance of this present situation,
by their unconditional love. He made a vow not to
touch them, not to join them, but to re-enter his
physical body so that he could share with the world
what he had experienced. It would be a form of redemption
for his two years of trying to throw his physical
life away. It was after this vow that he watched
the truck driver carry his totally injured body
into the car. He saw an ambulance speeding to the
scene of the accident, he was taken to the hospital's
emergency room and he finally re-entered his physical
body, tore off the straps that were tied around
him and literally walked out of the emergency room.
He never had delirium tremens or any aftereffects
from the heavy abuse of drugs and alcohol. He felt
healed and whole, and made a commitment that he
would not die until he had the opportunity of sharing
the existence of life after death with as many people
as would be willing to listen. It was after reading
a newspaper article about my appearance in Santa
Barbara that he sent a message to the auditorium.
By allowing him to share with my audience he was
able to keep the promise he made at the time of
his short, temporary, yet happy reunion with his
We do not know what happened
to this man since then, but I will never forget
the glow in his eyes, the joy and deep gratitude
he experienced, that he was led to a place where,
without doubt and questioning, he was allowed to
stand up on the stage and share with a group of
hundreds of hospice workers the total knowledge
and awareness that our physical body is only the
shell that encloses our immortal self.
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Lisa's Suicide Near-Death Experience
had a near-death experience several years ago. After
months of depression and physical pain from systemic
lupus, one day she took too many painkillers. Her
twin sister found her in the morning in a seizure,
half-flopped off of her bed. By the time she called
911, she had fallen on the floor and was in a full
convulsive state, curling up my hands in a fetal
position. Here is what she experienced in her own
"There was no
tunnel or light. I awoke standing upright
in the back of what looked like a large
auditorium-type place, without the chairs.
The wall were gold and had jewels embedded
in them. I was far in the back at first
and couldn't figure out where I was. There
were horns playing loud classical-type music
and it was a very formal-type ceremony.
There were dancers with beautifully colored
flags dancing in a supernatural sort of
way. I felt my presence coming in closer,
but I didn't feel legs moving underneath
"There was a long,
wide aisle with 10-15 men seated on each
side of the aisle. They were across the
aisle from each other, facing each other.
They had on robes and gold crowns, like
they were kings or judges. The seats were
tall, gold chairs and at the end of the
aisle was an empty chair. My presence came
in very close and then to the left side
came a man in a long, white, toga-type robe.
He had short brown hair and on his head
was a wreath of holly leaves woven together
with baby's breath. He smiled and approached
me with his right hand extended.
"He took my hand gently and said, 'Hi, Lisa.
I'm Peter, welcome to the festival.'
"With that, he
opened a large door and I entered a large
place that was mostly white space. There
were large white cloth-covered tables with
beautiful, succulent fruit and a large fountain
of red wine. There were just a few people
there, and they were dressed in normal clothing
"Just then I flashed
into a complete space of whiteness, but
it was not disconcerting like a haze of
fog would be. I was seated on the right
leg of a very large, strong presence with
huge, loving arms around me.
"A man's low voice said in my right ear,
'Lisa, they're working on your body, you
have to hurry. Do you want to go back? Your
son needs you.'
"I remember feeling confused like I was
not aware of what I had left behind.
"I didn't say anything and then the voice
said louder, directly in my ear, 'Lisa,
you have to hurry, they're working on your
body. Do you want to go back?'
"And even louder he added, 'Ryan needs you.'
"He put great stress on my son's name. I
immediately realized I had left my 9-year-old
son behind and then I woke up in the ambulance.
"They later told
me that I said, 'I wanted to be in Paradise
"That's my experience.
I'd love to hear your comments. I've not
read anything like this before. It was like
a movie, almost sounds cliché, I know."
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Edgar Cayce's Suicide Dream Interpretation
people came to
Edgar Cayce to have their
dreams interpreted. An example
was the dream of a young man about his father-in-law,
who had recently taken his own life.
In the dream a voice commented, "He is the most
uncomfortable fellow in the world," and then the
dreamer was shown his own baby crying for food.
The image was to convey the dead man's hunger for
guidance and spiritual sustenance, said Cayce. The
next night the dreamer heard the man's own voice,
together with "a wandering impression of restlessness."
The voice said, "I seek rest. I want to leave and
be with my family down there."
Cayce said the dream contact had been authentic,
showing the dreamer how much his prayers were needed
for the father-in-law, who was still an earthbound
discarnate. He added that the reason the discarnate
was turning towards people in earthly life was that
"the lessons are learned from that realm, see?"
It was a point Cayce often made, that souls who
had once entered the Earth had to learn their final
lessons in the Earth, where will is called into
play in a fashion different from existence on other
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George Anderson's Psychic Revelations About Suicide
Will a suicide progress?
"They can progress. This is why it's so important
that people, no matter what your religious belief
or persuasion, even if you're an atheist, remember
to pray for those who have passed on. Because that
embraces them in love and encourages them to progress.
The problem that the suicide faces in the next dimension
is that, when you arrive in the next level, it's
not the pretty sight that the average passing can
be. Their problem is that they cannot forgive themselves.
comes through in a reading and is starting to make
me feel as if they've taken their own life ...You
feel like you're in the presence of a ghost. There's
a chilling feeling. And it's very important that
those coming through acknowledge what they've done.
getting up and saying, 'I'm an alcoholic.'
forward and saying, 'I have taken my own life.'
"A friend of mine who
had recently taken his life came through and did
not know how to go into the light I kept telling
him to go forward to the light, but he was afraid
of judgment. He couldn't forgive himself. Also,
he was having a problem with the fact that after
he had taken his own life, his spirit obviously
lingered around the scene of the act. He could not
overcome the memory of his father's discovering
him, and that was haunting him emotionally to a
tremendous degree in the next dimension. What he
and many of us don't understand is that there is
judgment there, but it is not done by God on a throne.
Judgment rests basically with yourself. And we all
know that the greatest enemy we can face is ourselves.
"It can take eons of time
as we understand it before they go into the light.
It depends on the person. You're in control. You
hold the reins. Those who've come through those
darker levels have said that they've had to face
themselves and realize that if they don't shape
up, in other words, learn more about themselves,
they're not getting anywhere."
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Nora Spurgin's Suicide Near-Death Research
What happens to one who commits suicide?
"The death of the physical body is determined by
natural law, which is governed by divine law. To
take one's physical life is to break that law, with
the result that there must be special care and arrangements
made in the spiritual world. In other words, breaking
natural law must be accounted for before one can
go to higher levels.
to some sources, because the person's life was cut
short and her work on Earth incomplete, it will
be necessary to live out this uncompleted time in
spirit aiding the very ones on Earth who were most
hurt by the suicide.
motivation for suicide is usually to avoid unhappiness,
we can assume that the spirit takes such unhappiness
into the spiritual world. Any problems experienced
on Earth are always better worked out on Earth."
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Betty Bethards' NDE Revelations on Suicide
purgatory as a place or level of consciousness one
goes for further understanding. It is an intermediary
state that gives one the opportunity to develop
further clarity. At first it is like being in fog,
just as many people walk around on the Earth realm
in a fog. They don't have the clarity to understand
how they are setting their lives.
"If there has been much
negativity during an incarnation, or a suicide,
one must spend some time contemplating what has
"It is a holding place
where souls who are confused, who do not want to
let go of their earthly attachments, or who choose
not to grow will remain until such time as they
allow themselves to be released to flow once more
into the light.
"Purgatory is a place
of your own making. We see souls who are punishing
themselves here on the Earth realm. This continues
after death just the same as it would if they were
still in the physical body. Many people must suffer
in order to feel worth. When they finally learn
this is a negative number they are running, they
can move on."
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Sylvia Browne's NDE Revelations on Suicide
to Sylvia Browne, upon death, most people go through
a heavenly process before entering into heaven.
Evil people, instead of experiencing the tunnel
and bright light upon death, are sent through what
Sylvia calls the "Left Door" and enter into an abyss
of empty, joyless, nothingness for a brief period
have reflected upon their actions, they are reincarnated
back to Earth.
commit suicide for less than justifiable reasons
are sent to a place Sylvia calls the "Holding Place."
must make a choice to either proceed through the
Left Door or embrace God and move on to the light.
the Holding Place shuffle slowly around in despair
in a gray fog with their heads down until they make
their decision. According to Sylvia this is purgatory.
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Margaret Tweddell's Psychic Revelations on Suicide
"Persons who commit suicide before the time they
are meant to die find themselves in a state of heavier
vibration and closer to the Earth than those of
us who died natural deaths. They remain in this
state of density until the time when they would
have normally died. They then may pass into the
planes of finer vibration. People who have experienced
death through suicide are greatly helped by the
prayers and supportive thoughts from those still
on Earth. They are also aided by those from the
higher planes who are dedicated to help them grow
spiritually during the period of waiting."
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