the inner world, Paul and I were walking hand
in hand towards the Pearly Gates. It really
was the Pearly Gates! I never knew the Pearly
Gates actually existed, but they did -- at least,
in my experience. The wise guardian of the gate
came. He welcomed us and addressed Paul. This
wise being said some things to Paul such as,
'Off you go. Go in through the gates.'
was about to follow and he said, 'Stop! You're
not finished yet.'
"I think he told
me some things that I have no way of remembering
what he said. I just remember the feeling of
"I underwent a kind
of panic and disorientation because, at that
particular moment, I was quite relieved to be
out of this life business and going in to the
Pearly Gates. That was alright by me. So I was
a bit panicked to be told it wasn't going
to happen. It was as if this being kind of just
fixed me in an energy field." (I've found
I can do this sometimes. For example, with Tulki,
my son, there are times when Tulki loses it
and I can kind of fix him in an energy field
and he'll immediately just straighten up.)
"Then he fixed me.
He said something like, 'The whole of your self
is going to dissolve,' or words to that effect,
'and you are going to become something different.'
It wasn't exactly words, but that's
the kind of impression.
"I was calmer, but
still a little bit disoriented. I had enough
of the experience of near-death from a couple
of accidents earlier in life and I knew that
the best thing to do at the moment was to let
go. Let be. And so I did just that.
"Then there was this
beautiful experience. I was standing there as
if this cloud of diamond fog (mist, diamond
mist) kind of separated me from within myself.
My selfhood kind of evaporating upwards - disappearing
the Void. It was as if my being was just
being lifted up. My pain and the human woes
were getting lifted up. It was one of those
feelings of 'Aahhhhh! Aahhhhhh!' (sounding hugely
"Then there was a
pause. He (the wise guardian) was still
standing in front of me and had me fixed in
an energy pod -- a non-visible energy pod. Then
suddenly it was as if another person suddenly
dropped into me from above. It just came 'joomph!'
into me. It occupied my body. At that very moment
(this gets confusing now), the old me just went
'pop!' It kind of popped out to the side --
back and to the side.
(now this is the interesting bit), it (the other
person) was standing perhaps a yard behind the
body or energy-body that was me. The remarkable
thing was that I was experiencing this from
both places at the same time. The first experience
was the me that had popped out. The second experience
was the me into which this being had plopped.
I was experiencing it simultaneously. I've
experienced this since then in various ways.
Because I do quite a lot of inner work nowadays,
I experienced this since then. There was a poignant
moment where the being that plopped out (I can
remember the thought going on) thought, 'Well,
what happens now?'
"I didn't feel
as if anything bad was going on. There was a
very matter-of-fact feeling to it; but, in another
way it was like, 'Whoaa!' It was amazing.
"Then the Pearly Gates
gentleman said something to me to indicate or
instruct me in what I needed to do next.
"Then, I was in my
etheric body and I was still me; but, I was
over there as well. I reached in to my heart
and reached straight in to my heart. As I did
that, it was as if there was a spark. I can
only call it a static, stationary spark. It
was totally of the nature of a spark but it
was not sparking. I hope this is making sense!
"I reached in and
just took hold of the spark and I pulled it
out of myself. It was almost like it was the
length of my body. It was a very strange experience
because I was totally willing for this to happen.
But it was very weird, because I was taking
my life essence out. Myself! And the heart was
the nexus of it. I don't know if anything
intervened. I don't think anything came
in at that time, but basically, I took that
spark and I just inserted it and pushed it in
to the other me.
note: Jenkins experience with
the "spark" pulled from his "etheric body"
is a good description of the so-called "silver
rest of Jenkins' testimony is a question and
answer session with his hypnotherapist.]
one that popped out?"
Paul Jenkins: "No.
The one that had popped out was the me I've
just been talking about from which I took the
spark. I was putting the spark into the me that
was still there - the me that had the other
being who'd plopped into me, right?
"It was a little
bit tricky. It involved some fitting and I had
to do it quite carefully. It was as if there
were thought waves coming from the Pearly Gates
gentleman as well, who was helping and guiding
this, but it was me doing it. I had to fit this
into the other me. Now at the same time, I was
experiencing this from the other me. And I was
experiencing (This is confusing) both."
"Yes, I was both. I was both doing it and being
was a point where it just went 'click!' It clicked
in. Suddenly I could feel a slight bias of consciousness
toward the me that had plopped out at that stage.
But suddenly the consciousness clicked over
to the other one much more, and so I was still
conscious of the me that had popped out, but
less so. It was as if the center of gravity
of consciousness had shifted into the being
out of whom I had popped and into which this
other being had dropped. But the thing was,
this other one who came in was me."
makes sense. That's how I've always
walk-ins - as another aspect of yourself."
"Well, the way I came to understand it a bit
later on, was as if we were brother souls. Actually,
I use that word quite consciously to put in
the masculine. In fact, I had some imagery (this
is digressing a bit) where it was as if we were
brother souls with a long-term specialist contract.
The contract was that we were like marathon-runners
and handing over the baton whenever necessary."
could be describing Paul as his "soulmate".]
"I had reached a dead end in my awakening. I
think it was possibly do to the use of acid
and psychedelics in the 60s, but not in the
negative, judgmental way that a lot of people
would think. There was nothing going wrong;
but the problem was, I was no longer going to
be able to integrate into the modern world properly.
I had gone off too much. I was still sane. But
in a sense, I was in the 14th century or prehistoric
times or somewhere else. I was not going to
be able to integrate again - this was the insight
I got. So I needed to be re-booted and have
some parts replaced.
there was this transfer of this, what I can
only call, life-energy or life-spark. I was
very aware that as soon as it clicked in, that
being into whom it had clicked (who was me)
was suddenly energized. I got an image here
Commander Data of Star Trek. There's
a part of me which is a bit like Data in a way.
Sometimes I go into this super-brain kind of
consciousness which is a bit like Data. I've
even got that little turn of the head sometimes.
It was as if the being that had just received
the spark suddenly just clicked. Also, my consciousness
had shifted over. I was still in two but the
center of gravity had shifted."
there anything else?"
Palden Jenkins: "There
was some sort of interaction between these two
selves. It was as if we were saying, "Hello."
It was a bit like some of the imagery that comes
up in my life is about SAS work (Special Operations).
It was a bit like we had met in the middle of
the wilderness and there were some messages
to get over before we parted company again.
It was one of these quick five minute intense
exchanges where this essential exchange had
to go on with no niceties and no cups of tea.
But it was through thought. Then there came
a point where that came to a completion.
the viewpoint of the me who had hopped out and
then given its spark away, suddenly I felt as
if the plug was pulled out. I started evaporating
- dematerializing. There was this slightly tingly
diamond evaporation. It was quite blissful -
intensely blissful. That part of myself was
dissolving - dematerializing. As soon as the
spark had been given over and the essential
exchanges had been made, there was no longer
a purpose for that soul to be a constituted
soul. So it just started evaporating. Now I
was watching it from my other side or self.
was a feeling of an 'out-of-your-body and your-body's-been-really-cold'
deathly kind of sense. Then you come back in
and perhaps you've had a hot drink or perhaps
someone's given you a massage or something
like that and you can feel the life-energy gradually
filling your body. You can feel the systems
coming up again - the warmth rising. There was
an experience like that.
a single being but I've got a new (the same
body) personality with many of the same brain-thoughts
and things like that. I've got a new (what
I can only call) soul, but that's not an
adequate word for what had popped inside me.
It was anchored by this spark which had activated
the system and reintegrated it into one being.
I was quite also surprised at the comfort of
where I think this business of brother souls
comes in. It's as if it was all very finely
pre-calculated so that it would all exactly
work. It was fascinating.
"Then I was
with this Pearly Gates man, and he was giving
me some quite lengthy instructions which (you
know how it is in dreamtime;
time is a very difficult thing to estimate.)
was probably ten minutes of teachings or instructions
or exchanges. Then it was over.
was this process starting up where there was
a rumble and a feeling that I was starting to
get heavier. Then there was this faaalling ...
faaalling ... aaaaaaah ... kind of feeling.
A feeling of going into the soup - going down
into the thickness.
"There was an
element in me of reluctance - but not exactly.
It was the same feeling I had experienced in
pre-birth experience as well - a poignant
mixture of reluctance and willingness - kind
of 'job-to-be-done' approach to things. It was
kind of a, 'Right lads, come on. We've got
to get on with it and the sooner we get this
over with the better.' That kind of approach.
I've always been like that really.
"I'm a Virgo
- a very
Saturnine Virgo. I've always been somewhat
unwilling to be alive. But I also know that
there is no alternative until the job's
done and that I would regret it if I did otherwise.
It's that kind of strange poignant mixture.
This was the
reincarnation process. It was like going
down into the treacle - into the density. And
that was really the end of the experience.
"I think I've
included all the details, at least, the details
that I've uncovered and I can remember.
Actually, I only got this in the regression
I did in 1994, twenty years after. I put in
a lot of effort. I realized, golly, it's
twenty years, so I decided I'd make an effort
to try and get it."