have lupus and asthma, and I am very ill. I
have had a few near-death experiences, but none
could compare to the one that involved my grandmother.
In July of 2003 my
mother had gone to Ohio to visit my grandmother.
I was in college so I could not go, but I vowed
that I would go for Christmas. I felt that I
would see my grandmother for the holidays and
that would be more special. Well, after my mother
returned from Ohio that following month of August
2003 my grandmother died at the age of 71 alone
in her living room.
I was devastated as
she was THE GRANDMA #1. I have two grandmas
but my grandma in Ohio was really special to
me in a way that cannot be explained in words
only that when she died it was like a part of
me went with her. We had a connection that some
can call psychic, but anyway, I felt so guilty
that she had not only died ALONE in a horrible
way, but that I could of seen her just before
she died had I gone with my mother to Ohio.
The guilt was overwhelming.
One night a few months
later I just went to bed crying. Well, I something
weird happened that night. I had this VERY vivid
dream that I was in my grandmother's house and
she looked healthy. No thinning hair or the
elements in her old demeanor that she had before
that gave evidence of her failing health. My
grandmother looked good, healthy and concerned
for me and my mother. She told me that if I
ever wanted to talk to her that all I had to
do was pray to Jesus and she will get the message.
She told me that she was happy and that she
loved both me and my mother. She told me to
tell my mother that her death was not her fault
and that we both needed to stop feeling guilty
for her death. I could feel her arm on mine
like it was really there and I could smell her
hair!! My grandmother always had this particular
After I awoke I instantly
delivered the message to my mother and I felt
I still miss my grandmother,
but now we know for sure that she is around.
Also, now she leaves little reminders that she
is still here with me. Lights come on sometimes
when I pull up in the driveway and there is
nobody inside and sometimes I just feel her
presence. I still cry for her sometimes and
it is as if she senses it and is there all of
a sudden. I would of never thought that my dream
was anything more than a dream until I found
your website. Even though I gave my mother the
message, I still doubted that it was more than
a dream. I thank you for your encouraging website.