Darlene Holman's Dream
have had the ability to dream like deja-vu in advance since
I was 16 years old after a paranormal happening in my life.
Before that happened, I did not really believe in God, you
could say I kind of believed there was a God along long
time ago but that he was not real now. I started seeing
things like visions awful things of loved ones doing bad
things so I went to my mother and I told her I needed to
go to a shrink because I knew
this was not normal and I was losing it. Plain and simple,
you see, I was still very logical about all this then and
I knew this was absolutely nuts.
She told me the next time it happens to say, "In name of
Jesus Christ, leave me." And I am thinking all the while
that she is saying this to me, "Thanks a lot, Mom. Here
I come to you for help and you tell me something so ridiculous."
I was mad at her for that advice.
Well, it did happen again and I said the words she told
me to say and the problem left me for a short while and
in my 16 year-old mind I'm thinking, "Wow," Jesus Christ's
name is a magic word?
After a second time of the magic word working for me, I
got to feeling a bit more confident. After all, it had worked
twice before and each time I had successively dispelled
the problem. So armed with my new magic word I demanded
that the vision or thing that was causing these visions
to leave me in the name of Jesus Christ, its Lord and master!!!!
All at once, I hear this horrid soul piercing growl ...
not only did I hear it; I felt it!!!!! I know this all sounds
kind of weird and it was indeed weird, no doubt about it.
To explain it a bit better, I had terror run through
my body and soul at the same time in a split second ...
I ran. I got as far as the frig when I thought, "If I go
in there and tell them ("them" being my family) that something
had just growled at me, they are going to put me away. So
I started to rationalize it all out: Ok, this is either
real or I am crazy. Plain and simple. Sooooo, if this is
real then God has to be real. Taking the chance that, just
maybe, it was a possibility that he was indeed real too.
I asked Jesus to come in to my heart and show me his reality.
At this point I had an encounter of love and peace enter
into my body and soul in its highest form.
The next day I started having a whole different kind of
dream and I never had any more bad encounters like that
one. Thanking God earnestly this time. You could possibly
say, "Wow, They are just dreams!" and I was obviously disturbed.
Maybe...? But those words cured it and they are not just
dreams. The dreams I have now do come true. Not all of my
dreams thankfully ... but at least 3 or 4 a year. At first
this really freaked me out, but I started telling my family
and friends about them to which they were convinced that
I indeed had lost it .
When they witnessed my dreams happen (though it started
freaking them out just as well) my dreams were very ordinary
almost dull dreams -- normal things -- but one or two weeks
later the very thing that I had dreamed of happened.
What was more bizarre now was that my family could no longer
believe I was losing it. Great for me; but hard on people
who believe they have it all figured out. And things like
this don't happen. So they were freaking out about it just
a bit as well. I was always sure to tell my family about
my dreams because I didn't want to look like a total "nut
job" to the rest of the world. These people in my life know
I speak the truth and they are all the proof I need in that
area. They have heard me tell them weeks or days ahead of
time of things that did indeed happen.
I have had dreams of this nature since I was 16 and, at
first, about 7 to 8 a year. Now, not as many. About 3 to
4 a year and even less when I find my life is more stressful.
I am now 39 years old.
Now, on to my NDE which was over 5 years ago. (Sorry, but
I thought you might need some background on me.)
That's how I started with my abilities since that time.
I have become quite reliant on the Holy Sprit in all things
and I try to pray and meditate at least once a day. This
is not to say that I do not screw up every day -- sometimes
twice or more -- on all kinds of things. I am very, very
In fact, I tend to get corrected a lot. For instance, I
am in the remedial program at school (or something). Anyway,
in this particular incident of correction, I had some bills
I couldn't pay and I was worried about them. I prayed to
God and said, "I need a break. I try very hard. You know
that. I can not handle all this. I am doing the best I can.
I want out. I am tired of trying to make it."
I was angry with God while I was saying these things ...
because there was no question in my mind that he is real,
after all of the things I have experienced. (But my understanding
as to why we have to go through these things, at times was
very much lacking.)
I went to bed and I had this dream. But this dream was extremely
different. I felt things in it -- physical things. Well,
first I felt myself moving like in a vacuum and I saw blackness
all around me. Then I saw a light in the distance which
I was fast approaching. At first I saw the very edge of
the light like a complete cut-off of light and dark. Then
I was in the light completely.
I saw this great line of souls -- thousands of them -- on
top of this billowing cloud neither young or old and I thought
to myself, "How strange?"
I was also very aware of a new sense of freedom. I felt
like I could do anything or go any where with just a thought
... I felt weightless the light that was all around me was
also a part of me. I could feel it was a part of me. I noticed
when I would think of something the light would answer my
thoughts like it was talking to me or something. The light
was all encompassing in this place. It was alive. The light
was knowledge, truth, and love. It was everywhere. It was
so white. But a different kind of white and hard to explain
because there are no words to explain it. We don't have
any words that can describe this.
I was made aware the light was God. Later I came to understand
it was God in his omnipresence ... ( I had always put God
in the form of a man in my thoughts, so I found this very
strange) but when I thought of something, it was answered
immediately. Almost at the same time. I could hear everything
telepathically but I could also feel the emotions and thoughts
of the other spirits around me as well. When I would talk
to a spirit I would feel their thoughts as well as hear
them. I was kind of in awe about all this and I thought
to myself, "Wow! They never told me this stuff in church."
Then it was impressed upon me how religion, and any one
certain belief, is not important because all religions have
a place and anyone in that religion is on the path of learning
which is important for that particular soul. It was as if
the answers were the simple and unapproachably known truth.
I could feel it was the truth, as well as know it was the
truth. ... and I kept feeling like, "Oh, yeah. I forgot
about that" like I already knew these things but had forgotten
So I saw these souls and they were waiting for their chance
to come to Earth to learn. I felt their desire to come to
Earth. It was overwhelming -- very powerful -- almost like
a hunger to the soul. Then I felt everything everyone of
them was feeling when they were chosen. It was like winning
the lottery, only ten times greater. The elation I felt
was the strongest I have ever felt in my life. There is
not even a word to describe it. And the soul that was picked
was extremely special because it had been chosen.
It was explained to me that not all souls are chosen --
precious few -- and that not all souls come to Earth. Some
stay there and learn. It just takes them a lot longer to
learn like that.
So coming to Earth is a great gift -- a very special gift.
Others come more then once. Some just one time. This was
hard for me to digest because being the strong Christian
that I was I didn't believe in that or reincarnation. I
had a very strong belief system and that went against everything
I believed to be the truth. I was made aware that some things
are true whether you believe them or not. I watched and
felt everything the soul did from the perspective of the
soul chosen to come to Earth.
The chosen soul was brought forth and prepared by two other
spirits in white robes. I think they were angels but I did
not see any wings. Then the chosen soul was brought before
God and had to take a vow not to remember anything. Then
it passed through this gray misty looking curtain thing.
It looked like mist falling down. I thought to myself, "Why
does he have to forget about all this?" God answered my
thought and stated that, "The soul could learn more effectively
and faster and that this is the most and only important
reason for us coming to Earth -- either learning or teaching
-- and most times both -- and all the bad things we go through
here are either for our own learning or someone else's.
Then all of the sudden I was transported to this dark city
street. All around me was a city like here on Earth such
as New York or a big city of that nature. I was standing
on the city block. It was all dark looking -- like night
time with a full moon out. Then God asked me, "What do you
see?" I looked and I saw a homeless man laying on the street
slightly setting up against the building. Then, one at a
time, there were three people that passed by him walking
on the side walk he was laying on. -- a lady and two men.
When the first man walked by I felt everything he was feeling
and I could hear what he was thinking in my own head like
it was my own thoughts and feelings. He was disgusted by
the homeless man. He hated the degeneration of society.
It sickened him and he felt like that person should get
The next person to walk by was a woman. As it was with the
man, I felt all of the emotions and could hear the thoughts
she was thinking like they were my own thoughts. She was
afraid and scared that the homeless man would hurt or rob
The last was a man who walked by and was angry at the homeless
man because he owned property in the area and he felt that
these low lifes were making his property values go down.
Then God said to me, "Now I am going to show you the truth
of it." I turned and watched the homeless man and all of
a sudden from the top of his forehead to the middle of him
he began to split apart revealing a huge, beautiful, brilliant,
bright light. His flesh just tore straight down the middle
in half and fell away and I saw his spirit as he truly was.
I knew who he was by reputation.
He was a huge spirit in heaven "in terms we can better understand"
like a celebrity that we would chase after to get their
autograph. Everyone in heaven wanted to be like this soul.
This was one of God's finest!!!! and was given this task
here on Earth because it took the very best to teach in
this manner and to sustain the suffering that went with
It was explained to me like this, "How can compassion be
taught if there is nothing to feel compassion about? The
pain and suffering which happens to us here on Earth is
allowed because of its purpose and the importance for learning.
When all the people who walked by this homeless man finally
died, they will see this act again in their "life review."
All of us will have a life review. Only this time we will
know the truth and feel the emotions and hear the thoughts
of these "special spirits" and see ourselves for the truth
of who we really are and learn from it ... like a report
card. We have chosen this path of learning ... we are victims
and victimizers ... sometimes both on this Earthly plain. But in reality, we are all learning
It was explained to me that we must believe in consequences
(cause and effect) so that we can learn faster and understand
more. We needed to believe in the pain, hardship, and suffering
to look inside and to understand and choose to love and
care for the right reasons and to look for the truth in
ourselves and others above all else.
A handicapped person is a very high teacher. People who
suffer greatly come down here to teach the rest of us.
Then I was brought back to these green landscapes and Roman
type buildings. It was really quite beautiful. Everything
was very vibrant. There is not a word to describe it. It
was like everything we have here on Earth is a washed-out
version of the truth of what it really is.
I was shown things such as who people actually were in heaven.
"Not the same as here on Earth mind you." I was told by
these two lady spirits that I should be nicer to my husband
and that he actually did not have to come back to Earth.
He was just doing me a favor of which they did not go into
detail about; but they both were connected to him. I felt
their connection one was like that a mother figure and the
other was a significant other. They shared deep connections with him in the truth of our real
reality which is not what we cling to as reality here.
I saw all he was; but I can't remember all of it and they
told me I would not be allowed to remember it because my
learning would suffer if I did.
Then this very important spirit who emulated authority,
with a file in his hand, walked up to me." He was male,
heavy-set with a salt and pepper hair and beard, in a grayish
white looking robe. I knew it was MY file in his hand. It
was strange how this felt familiar to me. And he said, "Come
with me." He took me to this room. It was all white and
gray. And I got into trouble and was corrected of (self).
He wanted an accounting of my actions. He showed me how
I had been worrying to much and how worrying is a selfish
emotion and a waste of time. At this point I was actually
reliving parts of my life and seeing how he was right about
me with the proof right before my eyes no wiggling out of
it or blaming it on some one else. This is the "life review
"and seeing the truth of me was kind of hard to take a bit.
I was very disappointed in myself but not for the things
you may imagine. It was for things that I didn't even realize
were an issue at all.
I felt extreme shame for depression and worry -- directly
connected to my faith. It was explained that joy, love,
compassion were holy emotions. Hate, worry, depression and
all other negative emotions are selfish emotions. By them
being selfish emotions, I feel I need to explain it a bit
better. Depressed is when we feel down. Here, it is no big
deal because all of us have experienced it.
But in reality, it is an inward thought which has repercussions.
You see, we have energy inside of us and some of that energy
is projected outwards and gives energy to the world such
as joy, love, kindness. Some of that energy is projected
inwards, such as hated and sadness, and it can drag us down
and others around us if we linger too long in it.
Depression is one of those emotions that hurts us and others.
This is a better way to describe what I trying to describe
when calling it a selfish emotion.
Then the man in the robe said,
"And of all things you are
worried, it is about money." And then he showed me what
money was in heaven. It's nothing at all. It does not exist
and it's not real.
The only thing that is like money up there is the unselfish
things we do for others here without praise for ourselves.
Then he showed me what I should be doing and all people
lucky enough to come to Earth. He raised his arm and a lighting
bolt shot out and I became the lighting bolt and in the
lighting bolt there were thousands of souls and I was affecting
them and they were effecting me -- touching me with learning
and love -- and I was doing the same to them. Right then
I woke up and I was standing over my husband kissing him
on the forehead.
While I was there, it was impressed to me (when I say "impressed,"
to me I mean by feelings, thoughts, and spirits talking
to me who conveyed to me this information) that all of us
have abilities and gifts of love, kindness, and a hidden
purpose of why we are here. And it all concerns learning.
When you start to do things for the right reasons and not
because you feel someone is watching, but because you actually
feel that's what you want to be, and change the way you
think about it to a more positive, loving position of thought,
then you will be very happy as a soul when you have your
life review as each and every one of us will indeed have.
Ask yourself, "Who would I want my hero to be, to say, or
do?" Then try your best to make that change yourself and
you change the world around you. That's the way it works.
You have the control knob inside of you to decide how you
will react and feel about something. We are responsible
for ourselves and our own inner growth to mature our spirits
When I awoke from this experience everything was crystal
clear except the part with the two lady spirits and what
they said. I would not be allowed to remember.
I was told other things that did in fact come true which
I have choose to remain silent about. I am not sure what
I think about religion any more ... I guess I feel it's
like "thoughts in a box" -- a recipe for control which we
create ourselves. I do not denounce religion. I just feel
its a teaching tool that can be twisted to be good or bad
depending on the person. That is like saying, "Follow me.
I know the right way."
I say, "Find your own way. Seek God first on your own and
develop your own relationship with God and don't follow
just anyone down the yellow brick road. Since my NDE, I
have experienced other things and I am not afraid of dying.
I feel it's as natural as learning to walk ....
Sincerely, Darlene Holman
P.S.: Could you tell me is there
a lot of people who have dreamed an NDE as I have and is
the credibility less because it was in dream form? Just
wondering a bit.
Kevin Williams' reply:
Experiencing an NDE during a
dream is far more credible than having an NDE by any other
way other than clinical death in my opinion. The reason
is because dreams themselves are actually "afterlife" experiences
(of the "astral" or "soul" realms). NDEs are often "afterlife"
experiences of the "spirit" realms. Someday soon I hope
to build my NDE and the Soul/Spirit realms to define the
differences. NDEs that are triggered by meditation, ketamine,
extreme stress, extreme gravitational forces, etc.. are
all experiences which occur while the brain is in the "conscious"
awareness state. But dreams and NDEs occur when the brain
is in the "subconscious" or "unconscious" state which is
a higher state of awareness.
I have read accounts of NDErs experiencing their NDEs over
and over again in their dreams causing them to remember
more and more of it (bring more of it into their conscious
memory). In fact, I had an NDE dream myself briefly. Several
years ago, I was having an ordinary dream when in my dream
I was killed. The dream then turned into a lucid dream and
I saw the tunnel and the light at the end of it and began
to be drawn toward it. At that time, because I was lucid
and aware that I was no longer dreaming and was suddenly
experiencing the NDE tunnel and light, I thought I was finally
going "Home" and was ecstatic. But as I got closer to the
light, the "dream" ended and I woke up. I was disappointed
for a while afterward, but thankful that I had been given
just a brief glimpse.
I have never told anyone of this experience because it was
so brief and I didn't want people to think I was "tooting
my own horn." But although it is a very modest experience,
I do not dismiss it as probably many people would do (as
many do with all dreams in general). I have also experienced
many other unusual experiences in my dreams throughout my
life (in fact, I consider my entire lifetime of dream experiences
as another life in itself, just in the so-called "dream
world") and in many ways I consider my dream life as more
real than my physical life. About two years ago, when my
mother visited me and my sister in our dreams on the same
night just two days after her death, in virtually identical
dreams, I forever became a complete "convert" to the Aboriginal
concept of "Dreamtime", which is a very fascinating concept
if you ever want to learn from the Aboriginal masters. In
so many ways, I prefer my dream life over my physical life,
but I know that my spirit life is even more grand than my
dream or "soul" life. As a child growing up, I used to have
remarkably wonderful dreams and I would wake up bitterly
disappointed that it was only a dream and had to continue
living in this world (feeding pigs, going to school, doing
chores, putting up with my drunk stepfather, etc.) But from
my childhood on, I have always considered my dream life
as almost a completely different life, as if I was living
one life while awake and another life while asleep. For
this reason I have always known that my dreams were special
experiences and something to try to remember as much as
I can and learn from -- even before I became a Christian
or knew anything about NDEs or even having a high school
Your email has inspired me to think about creating a "NDE
and Dreams" web page. I am
going to cut and paste just some of the dream and NDE connection
material on my site for you here:
Aboriginal Dreamtime: Traditional Australian societies share the notion
that human beings and society were created in a distant
time period referred to as the Dreaming or the Dreamtime
(considered sacred time). Simultaneously, the Dreaming refers
to the realm of the spiritual, which is coextensive with
the time of origins (creation). As the name indicates, the
Dreaming realm can be reached during dreams. Many of the
rituals of aboriginal religion also link the everyday world
of human existence with the Dreaming. As one might anticipate,
at death the true soul returns to the eternal Dreaming,
where it had resided prior to birth. See this website:
http://www.yidaki.com.au/dreamtime stories/Index dreamtime stories.html
Benedict had this wonderful
insight concerning dreams and his NDE:
"When I recovered, I was very surprised
and yet very awed about what had happened to me. At first
all the memory of the trip that I have now was not there.
I kept slipping out of this world and kept asking, "Am I
alive?" This world seemed more like a dream than that one.
Within three days, I was feeling normal again, clearer,
yet different than I had ever felt in my life. My memory
of the journey came back later ... What happens when we
dream? We are multi-dimensional beings. We can access that
through lucid dreaming. In fact, this universe is God's
dream. One of the things that I saw is that we humans are
a speck on a planet that is a speck in a galaxy that is
a speck. Those are giant systems out there, and we are in
sort of an average system. But human beings are already
legendary throughout the cosmos of consciousness. The little
bitty human being of Earth/Gaia is legendary. One of the
things that we are legendary for is dreaming. We are legendary
dreamers. In fact, the whole cosmos has been looking for
the meaning of life, the meaning of it all. And it was the
little dreamer who came up with the best answer ever. We
dreamed it up. So dreams are important." - Mellen-Thomas
Benedict, a near-death experiencer.
"From an endless dream we have come.
In an endless dream we are living. To an endless dream we
shall return." - a quote from Kushi.
writes: Everyone has an out-of-body experience
when they are in deep sleep and dreaming. Sleep has traditionally
been called "death's sister." In the Bible and other sacred
scriptures, the term "death" and "sleep" are used interchangeably.
The Bible is filled with instances of people who are visited
in their dreams by heavenly figures to pass on an important
message. The Book of Revelation is actually the story of
a dream or a series of dream by John the Revelator. The
reason we know this is a dream is because dream symbols
found in the Book of Revelation can be found in the prophetic
dreams of the prophet Daniel in the Book of Daniel. Even
without the dream symbolism from Daniel, the fact that the
Book of Revelation is filled with symbolism is enough to
prove it to be a dream. Dream symbolism is the language
of the soul. And dreams are experiences in the afterlife.
In the Bible, Jacob had a dream of a heavenly "ladder" on
the Earth that extended into heaven with angels ascending
and descending on it:
"And he dreamed, and behold a ladder set up
on the Earth, and the top of it reached to heaven;
and behold the angels of God ascending and descending
on it." (Genesis 28:12)
Carl Jung, MD,
who was the founder of analytical psychology and dream research,
was inspired tremendously by his own near-death experience.
It is evident that Jung's experience with symbolism in his
NDE was very influential in his formulation of his theory
of dreams. There are many reports of people having near-death
experiences and contact with the Other Side through dreams.
Besides the Biblical account just given, one of the most
well-known cases in dream research is that of
Through a series of prophetic
dreams, she correctly predicted events that would actually
occur to her in the future concerning her heart-lung transplant
and the donor. After her transplant, she would have dreams
of a young man whom she understood to be her donor. She
was able to describe him to a "T" and even receive his name
from her dreams. Eventually, she tract the man's family
down and confirmed everything she learned in her dreams.
We spend roughly one third of our lifetime asleep, so there
must be a very important evolutionary and spiritual reason
for it. Dreams are our connection to where we came from
and where we will return. It is where our higher self (spirit)
can communicate with our subconscious mind (soul) in the
language of dream symbols which the soul can understand
even though the conscious mind may not.
NDEs do not occur only to dying dysfunctional brains. As
Dr. Melvin Morse wrote, the Journal of the Swiss Alpine
Club, in the late 1800s, reported 30 first hand accounts
of mountain climbers who fell from great heights and lived.
The climbers reported being out of their physical body,
seeing heaven, having life reviews, and even hearing the
impact of their bodies hitting the ground. They were not
Yale University Pediatric Cancer specialist Dr. Diane Komp
reports that many dying children have near-death experiences,
without evidence of brain dysfunction. Their experiences
often occurred in dreams, prayers, or visions before death.
One boy stated that Jesus had visited him in a big yellow
school bus and told him he would die soon. Others heard
angels singing or saw halos of light.
The American Journal of Psychiatry, in 1967, reported the
experiences of two miners trapped for days in a mine. They
were never near death and had adequate food and water. They
said that mystical realities opened before them in the tunnels.
They also said a third miner who seemed real to them helped
them to safety, but disappeared when they were rescued.
Here is some excellent information from Edgar Cayce on dreams
as our connection to the afterlife:
My formal web page on "the secret world of dreams":
Another dream NDE is
by Ray Meir:
Peace and Light,
writes: The Truth is stranger then fiction ....
One of my mind-blowing dreams was as follows.
I was very close to my husband's mother. I love her a lot.
One morning I dreamt that she had a son that nobody knew
about but me. I also knew his name and I watched him die.
Her sister would not allow her to go to the funeral or to
grieve. She walked out in the sun with me for awhile and
returned to the house then got sick. Then she herself died.
Then I saw myself laying on the bed and she came to me in
spirit form. I asked if her son was with her and she told
Then I woke up and it was so real I cried all day because
of the emotions I experienced at her loss. When my husband
returned home from work he kept telling me that it would
be alright and that it was just a dream.
Then that night his Mom called. I talked to her and told
her about my dream. She got real quiet. Then she told me
it was all true. The boy's cousin was actually their brother
and his name was the same as the one I dreamt of. I had
never before met this cousin. She said that was why she
called us because he was sick in the hospital. She was crying
and was really upset so we ended the call. When I got off
the phone I told my husband. He couldn't believe it. He
called his Mom back and asked out right about everything
I had told him and she told him what she told me.
Four days later his brother died. My husband was angry about
all of it; and, not being able to know his brother as a
brother before he died, it was hard for him to get over
His brother lived in another state and because my mother-in-law's
family had arranged that the child be given to the older
sister, I guess they thought that if my mother-in-law went
to the funeral, then that would some how take away from
the mother who raised him. So my mother-in-law did not get
go to go to her own son's funeral. This sadden her very
much and my heart broke for her.
Her brothers and sisters were always very religious with
strict regulations on how you get to heaven. My mother-in-law
was very religious as well but she was a recovering alcoholic
so she didn't carry the judgments that a lot of religious
people do. I loved her very much and she was very kind.
We got to see her that summer but she was in poor health.
My husband and I didn't have the money to see her more often
and she lived in another state. In April she died. It was
just like dream.
reply: It appears that you have the gift of prophecy
and that you receive them in your dreams. Very interesting
"As each second
passed there was more to learn, answers to
questions, meanings and definitions,
philosophies and reasons, histories, mysteries
and so much more, all pouring into my mind. I
remember thinking, 'I knew that, I know I did,
where has it all been?'" - Virginia
Rivers describing her near-death experience
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