Friday, November 6th, 1981 my whole life changed
radically. To say that it was a huge wake-up call
is not an overstatement.
I had my
first seizure because I had begun abusing muscle
relaxers to get high. I had already gotten caught
with that several times which my family knew about.
However, this time, it was at work as a security
guard in the lobby where people first entered the
building. There I was, having a seizure because
I had overdosed myself! This is just one example
of how addictions are so insidious. I actually thought
I could get away with such insanity. I was a very
unbalanced person and I didn't even know it.
I was out of my body, hovering by the ceiling. Having
already been out of the body before when I was seventeen
via a lucid dream experience in which a "divine
presence" guided me through the experience,
I knew that Soul Travel was a very natural and wonderful
experience, so free, unrestrained and without a
physical body to hamper Soul.
Now, I was
experiencing it again, but this time, it was more
profound. My awareness was astonishingly heightened
instantly, giving me a knowingness of countless
things by straight perception. It was an awakening
of who and what I truly am as Soul that was missing
in the earlier occurrence.
I knew that I had "died." That did not
bother me in the slightest, but my attention was
drawn to my mother who had waited in much trepidation
during the torturous fourteen hours of surgery.
I knew she
was very upset due to the surgery. Yet, with the
expanded awareness came an intensified detachment.
I knew that, cosmically and spiritually, all was
well, and she would be all right, too, in time.
She was just experiencing what people on Earth do
as a spiritual learning experience: The chance that
she could lose someone whom she loved very much.
Ah, the drama
of this world. Yet, all the while, I was right there
with her, just in another body which she could not
see nor perceive.
All at once,
my Soul body ascended at an extreme rate of speed
toward the inner heavens - virtually like a rocket.
The speed did not cause fear. In fact, the experience
was exhilarating, enchanting and I loved every moment
wonderful! What was all the nonsense about being
afraid of the bogeyman of "death" anyway?
This was great!
as I ascended, I stopped in a golden place where
everything had a golden tinge, and the feeling?
Ah, it was truly heavenly. True joy was everything.
The most joy I have ever experienced on Earth was
microscopic in comparison. No wonder they call it
a heaven and I knew there were many of them.
I was in
a library in an ethereal temple or atrium, similar
to ancient Greek or Roman villas. Everything was
airy and light. I had the impression that there
were other Souls studying in the next room. I gathered
all this information instantaneous.
While I was
getting the information of the library and school
at the temple, I was aware of a very tall Master
or Spiritual Guide with long white robe, and long
white hair and beard. Everything about him discreetly
shimmered. I thought he was God himself at first
he was so majestic. Amazingly enough, he shortened
his appearance instantly, I believe so I would be
more comfortable with him. I have heard that some
angels are huge beings, and probably can alter their
appearance at will as well. This was a crash course
in the afterlife!
I knelt, crying out and shielding my eyes in shame.
sorry I've been bad!!!"
For in my
self-condemning eyes, I had been very disobedient.
But, his holy eyes twinkled with humor, love and
saw only a child of God who simply had stumbled
on her way to God, no more, no less.
smiled as he nodded, saying, " No, no, no."
I stood and
the guilt of many years was shed in that moment
and my qualms left me, leaving me centered in the
sweet warmth of that divine love he was permeated
with. His love was unconditional, which I have never
experienced more in this lifetime!
We were not
talking orally, but communicating telepathically.
I did not even think about it as strange because
it was completely natural. Everything was perfectly
He said, "Do
you want to stay or go back?"
I was very
aware that this decision would be if I would stay
in the Heavenly Realms or return to my life as Karen
on planet Earth.
All of my
being wanted to stay there in bliss, but ever since
I was six, I knew that reincarnation is the natural
fact of life, and now, I had the knowingness that
if I chose to stay, I would have to reincarnate
to Earth again later. At the time, that was unacceptable
to me. I didn't understand then that Earth is
a boot camp and school for Soul's spiritual
education, and as such, it's tough. Nevertheless,
I knew that I had to return and finish whatever
mission I had to do here.
divine being and I "talked" a bit longer
which I do not remember consciously, then whoosh!!
And I was back in my physical body in the hospital