|Berkley Carter Mills' Near-Death
following near-death experience appears in P.M.H. Atwater's
In 1979, Berkley
Carter Mills made history in the Commonwealth of Virginia
and the city of Lynchburg by becoming the youngest father
ever to win custody of a small child in divorce proceedings.
Six months later a massive load of compressed cardboard
that Mills was loading, slipped out of control, slamming
him against a steel pole. He remembers a sharp pain, collapsing,
being in a black void, then finding himself floating in
a prone position twelve feet above his crumpled body. He
saw and heard people running around, yelling for an ambulance
and saying, "Don't touch him, give him air."
His body went from
white to blue; there was no breath. The sight filled him
"I'm here, my body is there.
How did this happen?"
how he could suddenly be airborne, Mills attempted to reenter
his body. Crawling downward in swim-like strokes, he had
almost reached his goal when a gentle but firm hand tugged
his right arm. When he looked up, there were two angels
replete with robes, wings, bare feet, and streaming hair
- no color but opaque white - and no particular gender.
"What's going on?"
"We've come to take
you to God," they answered.
After some confusion
on Mills' part the trio left the scene at tremendous speed,
leaving the Earth behind as if it were a star the size of
a pinhead. Their destination was an intensely bright light.
"How come I'm not cold and how come I'm not suffocating
this far out in space?"
An angel replied,
"This is your spiritual body, and these things do not affect
They took him to a suspended platform,
and in the center was a being so powerful Mills thought
it was God. The angels bowed and took their places with
two others, each with wings outstretched and hands folded
in prayer, at the platform's four corners. Male in mannerisms
and voice, the clean-shaven being turned out to be Jesus.
could not look Jesus in the face as he perceived himself
as naked and unfit for such an audience. After some coaxing
from Jesus, he felt more at ease.
"I'm going to judge
you," Jesus said.
whole life began to play out, starting at birth. He relived
being a tiny spark of light traveling to Earth as soon as
egg and sperm met and entering his mother's womb. In mere
seconds, he had to choose hair color and eyes out of the
genetic material available to him and any genes that might
give him the body he would need. He bypassed the gene for
club footedness, then watched from a soul's perspective
as cells subdivided. He could hear his parents whenever
they spoke and feel their emotions, but any knowledge of
his past lives dissolved.
Birth was a shock: awful lights,
giant people, eyes peering over face masks. His only comfort
was his mother.
each incident in his life, including killing a mother bird
when he was eight. He was so proud of that single shot until
he felt the pain the bird's three babies went through when
they starved to death without her.
"It's not true that only humans
have souls," Mills cautions today. "Insects, animals, plants
have souls, too. Yes, I still eat meat, for in this realm
species eat each other to survive, but I bless my food and
say thanks for the gift life gives. If I don't the food
sours in my stomach."
shown that hell is a black blankness without God.
Upset, he yelled
back, "How can you sit up here on this throne and allow
such misery to happen on Earth?"
Gently he was told,
"It's your own fault. I gave you the tools to live by. I
gave you free will and free choice. And I allow you to be
part of my creation. It is your free will and your free
choice that is responsible for starvation, war, and hate."
Mills felt pangs of guilt when
he realized we coexist with God. No one is God's servant
the angels and platform, disintegrated into a giant sphere
of light once Mills no longer needed their shape or form
to put him at ease. As the sphere grew it absorbed him,
infused him with the ecstasy of unconditional love.
can't compare. You are so high. Magnify that to infinity!"
He zoomed back to
his mangled remains as a ball of all-knowing light and crashed
into his solar plexus with such force it jolted his body
He had been told
before leaving the Other Side, "No hospital, no blood, no
operation. God will show you how to heal yourself."
Thus, when Mills
stood, he promptly walked to his car and drove home, on
the way passing the ambulance that had been sent to rescue
him. Those present verified that he had been dead for twenty
minutes. The next morning Mills awoke in a pool of blood.
The doctor he went to for aid
committed him to a psychiatric ward as insane when he refused
surgery. Since three independent psychiatrists had to confirm
the verdict, and one objected, Mills was released. Although
his injuries were extensive and severe, he recovered by
himself and returned to work. His former wife took advantage
of his plight and challenged the custody ruling three times.
She lost each try.
authorities tried to take my son away. I lost half my friends,
my job, almost everything else I had, but I didn't lose
God's guidance. I wouldn't talk about my experience for
two years. I went from an active social life to that of
a cripple before I could change things. I wanted to get
a degree in psychology, but had to quit several years later
when my money ran out."
Carter Mills' appearance on the Geraldo Show in 1989 was
preceded by an old buddy breaking off their friendship just
because he had agreed to discuss his near-death experience
on national television. Mills was heartbroken, yet appear
he did, there and hundreds of other places, sharing the
voluminous knowledge he was given while on The Other Side.
For this he has been both hated and thanked, shunned and
welcomed. His mind is often flooded with incredibly accurate
prophesies that leave him frustrated for want of knowing
what to do about them. Sometimes he feels as if he's losing
personal control. Light bulbs even blow up in his presence
if he flips on/off switches too fast. Nonetheless, he is
now healthier than ever, youthful and energetic, and he
brags about how his son has turned out in spite of all the
problems. "My sacrifices were worth it, for my son
knows that God is real. He is drug free and tuned to his