name is MaryJane Escobar. I had an NDE when I was 20
years old on my birthday.
I was a troubled youth. I
had my first child at 14. I was abandoned by my family
to make my way on my own. When I was 18 years old, I
gave my son to his father due to homelessness. I could
not get over the separation from my child. It was the
first experience that I had with unconditional love.
fell into a relationship that was terribly destructive
for me. I started using drugs heavily. I had no will
to live and wanted to go and leave this life of hell
forever. I got my wish.
I was up all night using drugs.
I overdosed and went into convulsions. Just before it
hit me, I shot out of the top of my head and lingered
only moments while everyone freaked out. Then I was
in a dark cobblestone tunnel that seemed wet. I was
a sphere illuminating everything around me .
felt to me like a completely natural state. I was flying
so fast through the tunnel excited to reach the end.
As I came closer to a bright light I noticed that the
tunnel veered to my left. I was close and could now
sense some kind of magnetic force pulling me into the
light. It was incredible and overflowing with unconditional
love, forgiveness, and empathy. I was completely surrounded
by many spheres like myself. All of us were attracted
to this huge sphere where all of the wonderful feelings
were emanating from.
just as quickly as I had got there I was sent shooting
back into my body. There was a young paramedic holding
me and calling my name and telling me to breathe. I
was so angry! I had been robbed of peace, love, forgiveness,
empathy, and deep understanding. I did not want to breathe.
I kept resisting the paramedic and he just became more
and more determined to keep me breathing and alive .
my way to the hospital, he told me I had been dead.
My heart had stopped just seconds under 5 minutes. He
did not think he was going to be able to revive me.
He was so proud and happy because he had saved my life.
I was full of rage because I felt robbed of the one
thing I had been seeking my entire life - love, understanding,
and acceptance .
that experience a chain of motion was inflected in my
life. I became drug free. I married and had two more
children and was reunited with my first child. I have
been married to the love of my life for nearly 18 years.
years ago I began having dreams of being in a very bad
head-on collision. I was so certain that I would die
in my 89 Toyota Corolla. I could see my head hitting
the windshield and the engine ending up on my legs.
Extremely vivid and for 4 months. My husband became
so concerned that he bought me a '97 Mazda 626. He brought
it to my work and I got in and drove it. I sensed that
this was a safety option and that I was being given
a choice. Die in the Corolla or be injured and live
with the Mazda.
had it two weeks and I never made a payment when the
car accident happened. I was hit on my head and my face
was destroyed. My back and neck were disabled. I required
four reconstructive bone grafting surgeries on my cheek
bone, bones around the sinuses, and all the bone and
root structure above where I once had teeth. I ended
up losing thirteen teeth total. My thought just before
we collided was that I will live through this. And I
did. But I lost my identity. I lost my way of coping
with stress by exercise and my career as Personal Trainer,
Aerobics instructor, and Choreographer to fitness competitors
hid for an entire year while they worked on my face.
But something very wonderful came out of all this pain
and suffering. I developed a deep well of compassion
for people, and then became extremely intuitive to the
point where it sometimes scares me. Even though my life
has changed so much from this collision, I have been
able to open my own outcall training business and work
with people who just won't step foot in a gym because
of self-consciousness, work hours, or do not have the
time to fit in for a gym.
was a long road back for me. But I made it and developed
quite an education in humility, forgiveness, sincerity
and understanding. Also, because I lived through it,
I learned so much more about the human body and dental
care. Medical terminology has become so easy for me
don't know if the head-on collision had anything to
do with the NDE fourteen years prior, but I definitely
feel that I was given a clear choice: leave this life
and my beautiful children, grandchildren, and wonderful
husband or stay behind but be forced into growth. I
chose life. I chose to grow no matter how painful the
growing pains were and sometimes still are.
you for your time and allowing me to share.