just read on your website about the LSD near-death experience.
I have been researching for a long time on this subject
because I had a very similar experience about 5 months
ago when I bad tripped on 800 micrograms of LSD. I think
you might be interested in knowing what happened.
crazy how you can just loose control over everything.
I got a heart attack because I couldn't handle what
was happening to me. It was sheer paranoia - confusion
to the extent of not being able to take out words from
my mouth to speak. Turning into a heart attack I choked
until I died and for 1 minute I was dead. It's like
I did it to myself.
I was going to go, I knew I was going to go, and I was
holding on so tight. But then I couldn't take it anymore
and I gave up. I had been seeing colors around me for
hours before that, due to the acid of course, and they
started spinning faster and faster. The air around me
and the voice in my head started spinning faster and
faster. I could feel it, hear it, and see it. All the
colors fused together to become this white light. When
I died it was so strange. I didn't want to go but I
was so exhausted by the experience I just let go.
felt this 10 foot big man carrying me up some stairs.
I felt as light as a feather. I thought I was going
to heaven but when I finally opened my eyes I was back
in the room, alive, with my friend sitting beside me.
But then I thought I was dead. I didn't know I was alive.
I got a glimpse of hell which you cannot imagine. It's
nothing like what people say it is. It's all about repetition
of your fears. I was on acid, so what I saw was strange.
In reality of my sight, I saw my friend kill me again
and again and again and again, forever. But the truth
was that I was afraid that the only people I trusted
would go against me and try and harm me. That was my
greatest fear I guess, and death of course. So that's
what happened. That's what hell's about.
I do not know whether what I saw actually happens after
death or if it's just something we have to go through
to understand life better when we are not learning,
eradicating our fears, and bringing us knowledge. But
what I think hell, heaven, and alternate realities are
all in this planet, its just the way you perceive them
and after you die, you don't go anywhere near these
realities. That's what I think. That's what I hope.
What saved me from that experience was when I saw the
same friend (the one I thought who was trying to kill
me) cry, I felt love, trust and compassion for him.
That's how I came back - because of love. Love saved
my life and that's how I got back to what everyone else
calls reality. An experience like that would drive people
mad forever, but I got back, and today I am struggling
to figure out what's going on. I am getting there. I
did acid to figure out everything about life, to get
knowledge and I got too much. So it's time for registration.
I agree with the person who wrote about their experience
that God is love, because the love inside of me saved